January 6, 2007 – 11:30 PM
Buffy had waited all night for him to come out of his study. The entire house
had been paced by her footsteps as the nerves in her stomach made her unable
to sit still. Tomorrow was the day that they were to begin their tests. But
in order for one of her tests to be done they had to have sex tonight. And Spike
was holed up working on his book. She hadn’t told him about this particular
test. Actually, she hadn’t told him about any of the tests because she
was afraid if he knew then he would stop cooperating. Finally, she stood in
front of the door to his study with her ear to the door. The sound of rapid
typing was the only thing that she heard.
“Just knock on the door. It’s Spike. The man…the vampire that you have pretty much done everything with that involves sex. Why are you so scared? Knock on the door.” Buffy told herself as her legs moved in a nervous dance. As she finally raised her hand to tap on the door it was suddenly swung open.
“What’s going on? I can hear you and smell the fear.” He cocked his head at her wondering why she would be afraid. Then he remembered what tomorrow was. The day for those tests of which no one had bothered to tell him what they detailed. The research he had done on the Internet had given him some clues. Clues to things he wasn’t looking forward to.
Buffy looked up at him trying to figure out how to seduce him. Not that she had ever had to seduce him. Most of the time it only took a look to start the passion between them. But this wasn’t exactly about love. It was a test to be gone through.
“Spike, we need to have sex. There’s this test that they have to do. But it has to be done after sex.”
She stared at the floor as the words nervously tumbled from her. When her words were met with silence she finally ventured a look up. He was smiling at her. Actually it could be called grinning.
“What are you grinning about? It’s not funny.” Buffy crossed her arms as she pulled herself up to her full height. Then he laughed as the fire flashed in her eyes.
“Buffy, how many days have we gone without sex since we got together? For you to be nervous about it is a bit amusing.” A blush burned across her face as he laughed at her again. Spike wasn’t ready to give her a way out of this yet. “I know it’s because of the test. Take your clothes off and lie on the couch. And we’ll get the job done.”
Spike stepped back to give her room to get past him. His arm gestured the way for her. The words he had spoken were done in sarcasm but Buffy hesitated only for a moment before crossing into the room. Carefully she made her way to the couch on the far side of the room. It was a massive piece of furniture that a person could get lost in with lots of pillows. It stood where his mattress had once been. The mattress they had made love on when she had returned from Dallas. That had been a beginning for them. This time would be a beginning too. This was one room they hadn’t made love in since it had become his study.
As Buffy sat gingerly on the edge of the couch she avoided looking at Spike. A laugh sounded again making her wince. Then he was there in front of her kneeling on the floor between her knees. His eyes searched her face then he sighed as he realized that she was half out of her mind with tension.
“Buffy, relax.” He whispered to her softly while his hands caressed her from knee to bottom in long soothing strokes. Spike treated her with such tenderness it made her want to cry. Then his lips were there moving over hers. His tongue requested entrance to her mouth which she willingly gave. As his familiar touch took over Buffy lost her anxiety about this and became lost in the love he was giving her.
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January 7, 2007 6:00 AM
Buffy sat on the edge of the exam table covered only in a hospital issued gown. They had been snuck in by Kate and her friend, Meg, who was a resident OB/GYN at Sunnydale Hospital. The room they were in was at the end of a long hallway of doctor offices. And since it was only six in the morning the place was pretty much deserted.
Spike nervously wandered around the room picking things up to play with. Anything to avoid the reason they were there. As he played with some scalpels he had found in a drawer he watched from the corner of his eye as Meg returned pushing a cart with some machine on it. Buffy turned to look at him as things began to progress to the actual doing of things. After putting some scalpels in his pocket for future use he turned to be beside Buffy.
“Okay, Buffy, the first thing we are going to do is a PCT. Postcoital Test. It’s to see if any sperm are alive and present in your vaginal mucus. I need you to lie back just like you do for your Pap Smears.”
Spike’s eyes widened as he watched her lie back, scoot down to the end of the table and put her feet up in stirrups. From watching television and movies he knew that women had exams like these but it was something different to watch one. Buffy’s hand came out to grasp his as Kate proceeded to collect the sample she needed for the test. Watching what he considered as his property be examined like that was making his stomach churn.
Kate laughed softly when she saw his reaction to what was going on.
“You okay, Spike?”
“Yeah, yeah, I’m fine.”
When Buffy looked up to check on him she couldn’t help but laugh too. If a vampire could be green around the gills he was definitely trying for it. A look of relief crossed his face when Kate told Buffy that she could sit up.
“Okay, Buffy, the next thing to do is an ultrasound exam. This will give us an idea of the condition of your uterus and ovaries.”
Meg had Buffy lie back on the table then covered her lower half with a sheet as the gown was pulled up to expose her abdomen. Spike watched in fascination as they proceeded to smear gel on her then ran this device over her which showed the results on a screen.
“If she was pregnant then you would be able to see the baby on the screen.” Kate told Spike hoping that it would help him come to terms with everything. Maybe give him something to look forward to. He looked down at Buffy lying on the table. She looked vulnerable as they did their procedures on her. He squeezed her hand that was still clutched in his to let her know that he was there for her. His reward was a grateful smile from her.
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January 7, 2007 7:30 AM
Buffy had gone into the bathroom attached to the room to get dressed again. Meg had already left with the samples and the film from the ultrasound to have them tested. Kate reached into a cabinet to grab a small cup from the shelf.
“Okay, it’s your turn.” She handed the cup to Spike while she tried very hard not to smile.
“And what am I supposed to do with this?” He refused to take the cup from her because he already knew what was expected of him. Maybe if he gave her a hard time she would forget this. So, when he asked he used his most evil voice.
“We need to check sperm quality and quantity. In order to do this we need a sample.” Kate wasn’t about to be intimidated by this vampire. She reached for his hand placing the cup in it.
“The Big Bad does not wank off into a cup.” He let the cup fall on the floor as he continued his refusal of the test.
Kate knelt down to pick it up proceeding to throw it away. After giving Spike a disgusted look she reached for another one that was once again held out to him.
“Look this is necessary part of the process. We need to know if anything is….alive.” Kate tried to persuade him to do his part.
Spike was about ready to make another rude comment when he saw Buffy standing just inside of the room. The lost look on her face made him forget his embarrassment at doing this.
“Oh, bloody hell. Fine.” He snatched the cup away from Kate and headed toward the bathroom. Buffy moved out of his way as he slammed his way into the bathroom. The two women exchanged quick smiles at Spike’s behavior.
“Come on, Buffy. Let’s head down to the waiting room and give him some privacy.”
Buffy nodded as she followed Kate from the room. They headed in silence down the hallway. It was becoming a little overwhelming as they actually started to work on this. Buffy just hoped that she wouldn’t be pushing Spike too far with this. It was backing him into a corner and that scared her. The demon was still there in him even though it rarely made an appearance now. Spike had matured in a lot of ways over the years but there were still parts of him that were…not evil…but not quite human.
One day there would be a trigger that would release that side of him. She could only hope that it wouldn’t be for a very long time. And that he would be able to keep himself from doing any damage.
Buffy sat across from Kate in the small waiting room. She only half listened as Kate gave her further instructions for them to follow. Suddenly Spike appeared in the door refusing to look up from the floor. He told Kate that ‘it’ was done then he turned and walked away. Buffy sighed as she stood up to follow him.
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January 31, 2007 9:30 PM
Willow handed Spike a cup of tea. But it wasn’t any ordinary tea. It was a carefully concocted brew of herbs that were supposed to increase a man’s sperm count. Surprisingly the tests that Kate had done had come out showing that he did have active sperm but the count was so low that it was almost nonexistent. And Buffy’s tests had come out completely normal showing that there was no reason that she couldn’t conceive. The focus had then turned to Spike being able to produce more sperm.
“Drink this cup now. Then drink another cup every night before bed. Kate said that she would do another test in another week to see if it has made any difference.”
Spike looked from Willow to Buffy feeling like a lab rat as he took the cup from Willow. The whole thing had passed humiliating for him about a week ago. The urge to run was getting stronger every day as was the berating the demon was giving him. William wasn’t faring too well at this point either. Logic told him that as a vampire he wasn’t supposed to create innocent life but as Buffy’s partner he felt like he should be able too. The insecurities that he had almost banished were coming back with a vengeance.
With one long drink he drained the cup then turned to head away from them. The only solace he seemed to have these days was in the lonely comfort of his study working on his book. Buffy and he were rarely talking about anything but the attempt to have a baby. They didn’t even have making love anymore as that was reserved for special days of the month now. He regretted telling her that they would try. And on top of that he had given her six months for this. He groaned as he realized that they still had almost five months to go.
