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To Gem from Mom |
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My Dearest Gem,What happened to us Sweetie? One day you were fine.......then terribly ill.....then so suddenly plucked from our hearts and gone from our lives....but never gone from our hearts.
I miss you so much my heart aches to hold you, to love you, and to kiss you again. I'm sick with grief. I wonder where you are? Are you alright? Is someone there to care for you? Each night I call out to you, but you don't answer me. I've looked for signs that you're spirit is still with me, but I don't see anything. I hope you'll show me a sign, but maybe you're angry with me for holding on too long.
I wish I could have done more for you. Maybe I did wait too long? I pray that you didn't suffer. I wasn't brave enough to let you go, forgive me, my love, if I caused you any pain.....I just didn't want you to leave.
I hold your picture close to me always. You know....that one of you and Andy? They miss you too. It's been so quiet here without you. I hope you have some friends over there across the bridge. I made some friends here during your illness, hoping that their dearly departed fur angels would be there to greet you at the bridge. They tell me that it's true, and it comforts me.
There's a shelf in the bedroom with lots of things I bought for you. Angel's and things like that. It's beautiful and I wonder if you know about it. The can is there too. It has your name on it and I wonder if that's really you in there. A wooden kitty angel sits on top. Each night I kneel by the shelf and pray for your soul and for your forgiveness.
We grieve, but we'll try to move on......until we meet again in heaven.
Dear Lord,
Bless my little Gem who has joined you now
in the Kingdom of Heaven.
May my dearly departed be at peace
and find everlasting life
in a place of comfort and joy.
Here on earth my boy will be deeply missed,
.......but perhaps in heaven
he will make Jesus and the angels smile
Amen
A Letter to Gem
