I don't know why I feel the way I do;
I don't know why I feel so close to you;
I don't know why it hurts this much;
I don't know why I miss your touch;
I don't know what I did for this;
I don't know why all my attempts did miss;
I don't know what to do or say
that would put an end to this way;
I don't know how to stop and think
because I'm afraid I'll sink
back into you and your ideal wonderfulness
and away from this real mess;
I don't know where I am or how I got here;
I don't know how to deal with the actualized fear
fear that I've always had to see
fear that you said just shouldn't be;
I don't know who I am, I don't know what is true;
All I know
Is I miss you.
-Chris "CMC" Lubinski