There's something about speeding down the freeway in the backseat of a dark car with music blasting in your ears that just makes you think.

And it was like there were so many things I wanted to do suddenly and I didn't know if I could do them all and my body ached with all the thoughts of people and things I wanted that I would never, could never have.

And I never know what is going to happen or what I am going to do, so I just want to stay in that car with the pavement rolling under my feet when the music crescendos and I know I'm going to be allright.

I thought I wanted something new and exciting but it scares me that my future has just become a huge blank hole that is sucking me in.

Now I know it's never

going to be the same

again.