Surrender began moments of sweet
expression, a listening and following directions, Great
Spirit Father and Mother Sacred Earth had always spoken
within me but it wasn’t always that I followed their
instructions. With the surrender I vowed to become the
holy vessel I promised to be when I volunteered to
incarnate on Planet Earth, I surrendered to the path that
would lead to the purpose for which I had come..
It was beautiful the way into my
dreams the Indians began to gather round as my outer word
reflected.. first summer huge black bird, may be
crow, sat outside my window for whole summer watching me..
second summer began in spring as I raked my yard and kept
finding golden feathers laying around, then other birds
dropping their feathers, and dreams call to me Indian..
More beautiful the song than I can
express here on my journey to Wakinyan, more than I could
have dreamed possible in my youth when my heart began to
weep for the Indians, or the questions I asked why did my
heart insist on an Indian walk, or why was it years ago
why I said that prayer, it was the Eagle that did appear?
My life seems destined to make an
Indian journey, for once I surrendered to the path that
would lead me to the purpose for which I was sent, all
movements and guidance from within took me to Sacred
Mountain to make Ceremony there
It was always about surrender
Oh how do I make the jump from here
to there?
To land with footsteps fair
Upon the place
Where my spirit danced to walk in
moccasin’d feet
Where I found no one to treat me
weird
because I hugged a tree or held
Earth sacred to me,
Or because I watched the signs
one Eagle going in
two Eagles going out
after I had spent a whole weekend
dancing in the shadows
Moving from tree to tree
Blowing them kisses
Touching my nose to their leaves
Til the message came in
that Great Spirit had a gift he
wanted to give me
that required the surrender
of everything I knew
felt
and believed
about how exactly it was going to
happen
that love would touch my heart
Dancing on waves of anticipation
I set out upon my journey
and noting 2 Eagles going out
I surrendered
to the path of being led
And listened carefully
to everything Great Spirit said
inside my head
while I was given very specific
instructions on what to do next..
I surrendered
To no longer walk the path
As I thought I was supposed to walk
it
But listening to the voice within
I laid aside everything
I knew as the way to proceed from
here
and surrendered my all
to the path I was given to take.
It was a picture,
just a picture
of a cloud so fair
With dancing lights within her belly
and one lone lightning bolt coming
down
To kiss the Earth with such a fury
the vehicle which it struck
A truck
became all engulfed in light
It was just a picture
Dancing lights within her belly
as I sat staring at
I hear a simple command,
“Blow her a kiss”
Two fingers upon my lips,
To lay them softly
Upon the picture
I sat staring at
While listening to the inner
instructions
Surrendering
My all
I hear again,
“Blow her a kiss”
So soft upon my lips
I make the kiss
And touch her softly there
Upon her belly
Of dancing lights
While one lone lightning bolt
Reaches down and
Touches the ground
With such a force
I can almost hear its
Thunder Song
And again
I hear the sound
of Great Spirit speaking within
Instructing me for 3rd
time
To kiss the cloud
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