In 1986 I was sitting outside one Sabbath day, watching the clouds pass over the sky, I looked up.. and there was God passing over my heart in a completely earthen experience... At that moment I looked around my life and realized what an impure vessel I was.. and from that moment, even though I felt far from perfect, I set my eyes on a journey of becoming pure in heart... I called that year TRANSFORMATION.. and as it was my.. quest.. to pass through the Christian sector, I soon found myself being given the instructions that I was to now go to the physical church... I will admit it was a struggle, but for me to not surrender would have taken me on a journey I did not want to travel down, so I surrendered, went to church and discovered that this earthen experience of transformation had a name within their faith, and it was called conversion,, and I discovered there were more earthen experiences coming... like baptism.. and sanctification..

after that I slipped quietly into the realm of traveling down my new path... lead by dreams I agreed to undergo some horrendous happenings on the promise that when I emerged from the depths of despair, in which my creators said they did not know if I would survive, they said that then I would vibrate in the pink ray of Love... so I agreed, and in time I disappeared into the nightmare.. (in a book called Journey to the Edge of the Precipice, a book about a journey to take a leap of faith).. through the stalker, through the carbon monoxide poisoning, through the junkie, through him taking the knife to my throat, through the cop standing there repeating, "Ma'am, you need to put a restraining on this man before he kills you"....baptism on a spiritual level.. lasted 5 years... to re-emerged in the year 2000, it was the year of my surrender..

I spent the next 4 years being refined, in an Indian way, feathers falling from the sky around me, the largest black bird I have ever seen (may have been Crow as they kind of like me) Indians coming into my dreams, come into the medicine of the Swan, sweet surrender..

and so it came to pass that in the year 2004 I saw the prettiest picture of a cloud. She had all these lights dancing within her belly, and converging at a single point lightning came out of her and kissed the earth.. so I touched my fingers to my lips and kissed the cloud... put the picture on my desk top.. and on the 3rd day, 3rd kiss the heavens opened up and and slowly the cloud merged with me, in a download that took a whole week, to move through my body and into the earth, then back up again where it exited through my belly button..

I was in the way of Spirit.... and on that night I heard drums begin to beat calling me to a Full Moon Ceremony. I was completely in spirit as I followed the sound of the drums that were calling to me... got out to the street, and there in the sky, in the clouds were my Ancestors dancing before me... On the night that they reclaimed me was Harvest Moon... and Harvest Moon is Sanctification....