I dreamt of a boy with blue eyes like his father,
I never even saw the color of your eyes.
I dreamt of warm hugs, snuggles and kisses too,
still the coldness I felt in my mind never dies.
I dreamt of my arms being full of this bundle of joy,
I left with empty arms and heart,
I dreamt of happiness, completeness, and contentment,
instead a chasm that was so far apart.
I dreamt of baseball, soccer, and basketball too,
but the game called “death” was dealt in my hand
I dreamt of plans for my boy to grow up,
but something happened I may never understand.
I dreamt of sleepless nights, yet the reward of a smile,
the sleepless nights came; no rewards were assured.
I dreamt of soothing the cries I so long had expected,
yet silence instead was the loudest noise heard.

Lots of plans and hopes and dreams were mine,
And for those dreams I sometimes pine.
But things I never dreamt before
Have come into my life ....and more...

I never dreamt of peace of mind
It was given with warmth, love and joy.
I never dreamt of sleep before
without dreaming of my little boy.
I received a rest so complete that
each new day is one fresh start.
I awake to see new blessings for me
The biggest one now in my heart.
I never dreamt of hope for tomorrow
I didn’t think there was such a thing
But now I have a hope secure
in Jesus, my Lord and King.
I never dreamt before of a love so great,
no, all I could imagine was the love I thought I could give.
I received a love from Jesus that is so immense-
and without it I could never live.
I never dreamt of more children...not that they will ever take his place,
But God has blessed me with three others
joys received ONLY by His compassion and grace.
See, all the dreams I had were mine
before I came to know my Lord.
The dreams I had were in the context of “me,”
But oh how I now have more.
More than I ever imagined..more than it will ever seem
because these are in His realm of thought...
I have more than I’ve ever dreamed!
He’s filled my empty arms with His,
And for His love I now long
He gave to me a new meaning in life,
He filled my heart with His song.
How I wish this tragedy never had to happen,
And now I know He does too.
But out of bad He can always bring good
Out of old He can always make new.
That is what He’s done for me
throughout the time that’s passed
He gave to me a purpose in life
On Him every burden I’ll cast.
I know now my son is not a loss,
no that could never be.
For he’s living in Heaven with Jesus
and them both one day I’ll see.
He is slowly stitching my wounds together
I am healing from the inside out.
He is putting my life back together again
and His will I won’t ever doubt.
The why’s of life may never be answered,
but then life is not a test.
I’ll just search His word, try to do His will,
and leave to Him the rest.
With my focus on Him and not circumstances
I’ll press on as a part of God’s team.
He will bless me in ways that I never imagined
In ways that I never dreamed!



The following is a song that was popular a couple of years after Logan's death, and reminded me of him. The music is playing in the background for this page.
LULLABYE
(Goodnight, My Angel)

Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark
And deep inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will be
Someday your child may cry
And if you sing this lullabye
Then in your heart
There will always be a part of me.

Someday we'll all be gone
But lullabies go on and on...
They never die
That's how you
And I
Will be.

Written and sung by Billy Joel.



ROSEBUD
by Helen Steiner Rice

The Master Gardener
From Heaven above
Planted a seed
In the garden of love
And from it there grew
A rosebud small
That never had time
To open at all,
For God in His perfect
And all-wise way
Chose this rose
For His Heavenly bouquet
And great was the joy
Of this tiny rose
To be the one our Father chose
To leave earth’s garden
For one on high
Where roses bloom always
And never die.....
So, while you can’t see
Your precious rose bloom,
You know the Great Gardener
From the “Upper Room”
is watching and tending
This wee rose with care,
Tenderly touching
Each petal so fair...
So think of your darling
With the angels above
Secure and contended
And surrounded by love,
And remember God blessed
And enriched your lives, too,
For in dying, your darling
Brought Heaven closer to you.


FLY

Fly, fly little wing
Fly beyond imagining
The softest cloud, the whitest dove
Upon the wind of heaven’s love
Past the planets and the stars
Leave this lonely world of ours
Escape the sorrow and the pain
And fly again

Fly, fly precious one
Your endless journey has begun
Take your gentle happiness
Far too beautiful for this
Cross over to the other shore
There is peace forevermore
But hold this mem’ry bittersweet
Until we meet

Fly, fly do not fear
Don’t waste a breath, don’t shed a tear
Your heart is pure, your soul is free
Be on your way, don’t wait for me
Above the universe you’ll climb
On beyond the hands of time
The moon will rise, the sun will set
But I won’t forget

Fly, fly little wing
Fly where only angels sing
Fly away, the time is right
Go now, find the light.
-Celine Dion



RELEASE
by Beth McKenzie
Release the pain,release the tears,
Release the hurt from all the years
Release the anger-it’s past the season
The answers are, there is no reason
To hold onto this only keeps me bound.
By releasing it, what was lost becomes found.
Release the chains, undo the lock
Let the Savior mend the fear and shock.
By releasing, know you don’t forget
But the focus of your life is yet
to be in God’s eyes-He can make you free.
He will use your testimony,but you hold the key.
By holding on, you choose death over life,
But He came to save us from sin and strife.
He’ll restore those places long devastated
He’ll rebuild every part ones you feared He had hated.
He will give you comfort and peace to start,
He will bind you up, fix your broken heart.
He’ll give you beauty for ashes, praise for despair,
gladness instead of mourning, you see, He truly cares.
Give them all to Jesus, don’t hold on to even one thing.
Choose this day to come unbound-all of it to Him please bring.
Tear down those walls-He will make you ALL you should be
If you will release it today, He will make the captive free!



If you’re wondering how I can have peace amidst a storm and joy amidst sorrow, please read this . If you don’t know this peace that I have, if you don’t have a love in your life that is unconditional...if there’s something missing in your life that you just don’t know how to fill...a void that is empty...you too can have a peace that passes any understanding and a love that no human could ever express to you. It is only through JESUS that you can have this hope. What do YOU understand that it takes for a person to go to Heaven?

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