Acting as my own shrink, I think my fears have made me
sick. At 5 a.m. this morning I woke up with a need
to sprint to the only bathroom in our apartment that had
toilet paper this week and get sick. OF COURSE, I thought
morning sickness, but that's not very likely.
If so, the birth control pill company, Alesse, will
be getting a nice fat letter in the mail. It's very curious that an apartment of six girls and one and a half baths would have only one bathroom with a toilet paper supply. We're a different kind of Girl's Nest. We're very lazy, but quick to complain if no one else does their chores (Oh, we have a chore list). Thank God I'm never around. Tonight's an exception. I feel like shit. I'm overworked, overtired, and all gastrointestinal functions have been paused with no prior warning to me. So, I'm home instead of at work, where sometimes I think I'd rather be, even though I'm in my room with my flannel pajama pants and a sweatshirt on. I can't stand listening to these Ants fluff around this place, watching 90210 and Party of Five. I might as well broach the subject: I'm scared out of my skin about the blossoming war in Kosovo. J. is in the Marine Reserves, so naturally I fear that I could get a call within the next week or month or year saying that he has 2 hours before he boards a plane at Westover Airforce Base. I wouldn't know when he'd come home, how he was doing, and if he was ok. I tried to explain my fear to the roommates/Ants and they said a blank, "Oh." Then it was back to 90210. J. tells me not to worry. Not to be concerned. Let him do the worrying. But there have been many nights where I pray for God not to take him. It would kill me.
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Listening: The poor dialog of 90210 |