All I can focus on is that stupid observation I have to go through tomorrow. I’m making myself sick over it, which is really stupid considering how much I hate the whole thing.

The kid I’m tutoring is also freaked by it.

The two of us are a pair.

I tried to go through it all slowly and step by step with her this afternoon, so I think I eased her nerves a bit. She’s also concerned that I’ll look bad if she screws up.

How cute is that?

I just want it to be over!

I’m feeling really restless and down in the dumps again.

I haven’t heard from Michael in days, and this does get to me way more than it should. Especially because there is not a damn thing I can do about it.

The Pink of Perfection returned to work today after a two week absence (she had surgery on her hand) and so now I won’t have that easy access to the laptop and the internet, so I won’t be able to check my home e-mail to see if he’s written. I’d really been enjoying that luxury.

Work is overwhelming, and is getting to me.

I can’t find anything to read, or music to listen to that can distract me.

I have no urge to do any stamping.

And I can’t sleep, even though I’m exhausted.

Obviously the St. John’s Wort, vitamins and Ginseng have done zippo to help me out of this funk. And I take so many vitamins etc that I rattle when I walk.

I guess there is no solution to this dilemma and I’ve just got to forge ahead no matter how I’m feeling.

And thus ends a really pathetic entry.