Reminiscences of Carl Schurz
Margarethe Meyer Schurz
NOW
something happened, that
infused into my apparently gloomy situation, a
radiance of sunshine, and opened to my life,
unexpected prospects. A few weeks previous to Louis
Napoleon's coup d'état, I had some business to
transact with Johannes
Ronge,1 and visited him
in his residence in Hempstead. I vividly remember
how I went there on foot through rows of
hedges and alleys of trees, where now, probably
is a dense mass of houses, not anticipating that
I would have a meeting of far greater importance
than that with Johannes Ronge. He lived in a so-called
“Villa,” a small house surrounded by
a garden. My business was
soon disposed of and I rose to go, when he opened
the door and called out into an adjacent room,
“Margarethe, come in, if you please, h. Here is a
gentleman whom you would probably like to know.”
A girl of about eighteen years entered;, of stately
stature, a dark, curly head of hair, something child-like
in her beautiful features, and large dark,
truthful eyes.
Ronge presented her to me as his sister-in-law.
I had already heard her spoken of in the drawing
room of Baroness Brüning, but without paying any
attention to it. She had, as she afterwards
told me, heard of me as the liberator
of Kinkel while she was a student at
the female college in Hamburg. As is usual
with young girls, she imagined all sorts of
romantic things about me, and also hoped to become
acquainted with me. The meeting had now really
come, and it did not pass over without some
embarrassment — on her part, because she had in her
fancy attributed to me all sorts of
great qualities, and therefore been a little
afraid of me; on my part, because I had not quite
overcome my youthful bashfulness in the presence
of women. Our first conversation touched only
such ordinary things as common acquaintances, and
we parted with the expression of the hope that we
might meet again. We did indeed meet again; not
very soon, but then very often. Aand in not less than
a year, I was to be joined to this girl for life.
In order to narrate how she had come to
London into Ronge's house, I must go back again.
She belonged to a remarkable family. Her father,
Heinrich Christian Meyer,2
(whose stirring life has
been compellingly described by his eldest son in a
biography,
which is unfortunately only too
short), had in the first quarter
of this century, saved himself through diligence
and an active spirit of enterprise, from
abject poverty. He had founded a little canewalking-stick
factory in Hamburg, which, under his prudent and
energetic management, developed itself rapidly
into a large business. He acquired a fortune
which, for that time, was considerable, and his
workingmen, who revered and loved him like a father,
soon counted by the hundreds; b. But histhe successful
activity as aof the business man did not satisfy the
public spirit of the citizen. Plans offor enterprises
devoted to the public good, occupied gradually
gradually occupied
the latergreatest part of his time and his
strengthenergy, and his patriotic endeavors,
earned him,
with new struggles, also earned him
a largewidespread popularity. He
possessed a strong mind, which itself missed the
education denied to him by his early poverty, more
than others missed it in him;, and that
he had a joy of
doing a creating thingscreation
which indefatigably contrives
new enterprises and does not rest until the
scheme has culminated in the achievement. He was
also one of those cheerful, luminous and warm
natures, one of those sun-children of the sun,
who radiate the
happiness which they find in themselves among
their surroundings, and gather the happiness which
they scatter around back in themselves, in joyous
contentment. He had married when he was eighteen
years old, and there could not have been a
happier family than his, until in the year 1833
, in childbirth, his beloved wife died
in childbirth. AShe was
a beautiful like-minded
woman, who in all things had seemed to be made for
him, but. But
the magnificent flock of his children, —
two sons and five daughters, — remained to him, and
they cherished in all their lives, an enthusiastic
love and almost religious
veneration for their father. Four of the daughters were
married, and when he was still a comparatively
young man, he saw a splendid troupe of grand-children
grow up around him.
The social intercourse of such a man,
could not be confined to his family circle, even
if this consisted of personspeople ever so gifted. All
his views of life were broad and liberal; his
whole being felt itself as belonging to the
people. While nothing could be further from him
than to be a scoffer andor a demagogue, still
every freeliberal movement appealed to him on the
religious as well as political field. It was his
natural tendency, as much as possible, to shake
off all prejudice and undo all fetters, mentally as well
as materiallyphysical. Nothing could therefore be more
natural than that the house of this well-to-do,
enterprising and large-hearted man, was open,
without special regard for the traditional rules and considerations
which governed societal interactions in other
patrician Hamburg households,
to all who in some praiseworthy manner had distinguished
themselves or made themselves interesting. So
it happened that among others, in the year 1846,
Johannes Ronge became acquainted with Mr. Meyer and
his family, and from this acquaintance, grew a
family tragedy of a truly distressing character.
Ronge's public career dated from the
year 1844. In August of that year, Bishop Arnoldi
of Trier, who, needing money for the completion
of his cathedral, exposed for public adoration, a
so-called relic — “The holy coat of Jesus.”
Hundreds of thousands of believers wandered
made the pilgrimage to
Trier, to kneel before the holy coat, and there
were soon an abundance of reports of wonderful
cures of all sorts of diseases, that had been
effected by the touch of the sacred relic. In
October of the same year, there appeared in a
public paper,the Sächsischen Vaterlandsblättern
(a newspaper) a letter from a Catholic priest, who
denounced the adoration of the holy coat as a
gross superstition, and protested in the most
emphatic terms against the conduct of the Bishop
Arnoldi. That priest was Johannes Ronge. He was
a chaplain in Silesia, and, after havinghe refused
to recall his letter, the Bishop of Breslau excommunicated
him. The letter attracted general
attention, and the little Silesian chaplain found
himself suddenly in the roll of
the popular worlda folk hero,
as not seldom happens to those who have the courage
to express at their own peril, that which many
others are secretly thinking. There were not a
few words praisingMany like-minded people praised
Johannes Ronge as a second Luther,
and associations of Catholics who had revolted
against the rule of Rome, and called themselves
German Catholic Communionscongregations,
were formed under
his banner. The movement, which also found much
sympathy among liberal protestants, —
the “Friends of Light,”
&c. —, grew rapidly
and apparently threatened to become very formidable
to the Catholic church, as this Apostle. Ronge
travelled about in Germany as its apostle and was in many places
enthusiastically saluted as the liberator from
“Roman superstition.”
So he came to Hamburg in 1846, and Herr
Meyer, who recognized the courage of the young
reformer and believed to owehe owed his aid to his
enterprise, received him with warmth in his family
circle. Ronge had then reached the zenith of
his popularity. He was thirty-three years old,
had a handsome head, vivacious dark eyes, and a
flow of language which, so long as it turned on
the denunciation of “Roman superstition,”
captivated
susceptible souls, by its facility and energy of
its expression. Here there was a soul only too
susceptible. The most beautiful and high-spirited
among Herr Meyer's daughters, was Bertha, the wife
of Mr. Friederich
Traun.3
She was, although only
twenty-three years old, already the mother of a
charming little flock of children;. She was
a fiery, poetical
nature, not of profound or comprehensive
education, but eager to learn, of quick perception
and easily inflamedenthused for what she considered good
and beautiful, energetic, bent upon doing and
creating something useful in the world; but, and withal a
good mother to her children, devoted to her father
with profoundest love, and she herself, loved and
honored by all who knew her. Her married life
had, until then, been far from an unhappy one, but
it had perhaps not satisfied the wants of her
heart and mind. Only seventeen years old, she had
entered into matrimony. Her husband, fifteen years
older than she was, had received his education
at the Court of Hanover, and brought with him from
there his fine manners as well as his principles and
views of life. He was of a most honorable, but
apparently all too quiet, cold and reticent, nature.
His way of keeping aloof from very disagreeable
things, and even conflicts and excitements which
he had perhaps owed to his education at court,
was apt sometimes to expose him to the suspicion
of ambiguity and involve him in apparent contradictions.
I have heard his brothers-in-law, who
knew and understood his peculiarities, often tell
all sorts of droll stories about this. Although his nature
was certainly not without warmth, it did not
radiate any, and all animated expressions of feeling,
all passions of enthusiasm externally at least,
seemed to be foreign to him. From the court, he
had brought with him his conservative instinct and
opinions which did not chimelittle accorded
with the cheerful
sympathetic, progressive liberalism of Herr
Meyer's circle. I do not know how far this wedlock
had originally sprung from profound mutual
attachment; at any rate, in the course of time,
a perceptible contrast had developed itself between
idealistic tendencies and the mental vivacity of
a large-hearted woman and the all too quiet and
reserved man.
The haloaura which surrounded Johannes Ronge
when he appeared in Herr Meyer's house was well apt
to have an effect upon the imagination of Frau
Bertha. Ronge was probably the first popular hero
with whom she had come into contact. That here
confessed himself soon fascinated by her, and the
respect with which her honored father treated this
man, would hardly fail to impart still greater
splendor to the picture created by her imagination.
Soon she saw in Ronge a real new Luther, who had
a great reformatory mission in this world. The
thought that it would be a grand undertaking to
share this worldly mission with him, gradually
grew upon her, and finally the probable necessity
of great struggles and privations which this task
would impose upon her, may have given to that
thought an additional charm. In short, relations
grew up between Johannes Ronge and Frau Bertha Traun
which indeed did not make her forget her duties,
but which increased her discontent with her commonplace
lot. That discontent may have weighed upon
her some time, but now became doubly impatient.
It is probable that already theneven at that time she would have
taken steps to throw off her fetters in order to
follow her ideal, had not her love for her father
restrained her; and this consideration was all the
more potent as the health of her father, although
he appeared to be still in the prime of life, had
for some time showed symptoms of uncertainty.
In fact his restless activity in various directions
seemed to have easilyprematurely exhausted his strength.
Being in the habit of taking an interest in everything
that was new and at the same time appeared
rational, he had submitted to a severe water cure
under the supervision of Priessnitz, who was at
that time a great celebrity. The result of that
cure seemed for some time to respond to his hopes;
but the disquieting symptoms returned and he had
to cut loose from all his business occupations
and to seek recreation in a long journey. So he
resolved upon a voyage across the sea to the United
States of America, where some years ago he had already
sent his eldest son to find a business
establishment, and where his wish to witness the
conditions and doings of the New World had long
drawn him. He sailed in October, 1847, but already
in July, 1848, he returned in a dying condition
to his distressed family. On the 26th of
July of that year, hardly fifty-one years old, this
excellent man closed his eyes, heartily mourned,
not only by his family, but, in the true sense of
the term, by the people of his native city.
It was probably after the death of her
father that Frau Bertha Traun made up her mind
to dissolve her matrimonial relations and to unite
herself with Johannes Ronge. The declaration of this
resolve threw the family into an excitement hardly
to be described. Herr Traun himself submitted
to his lot with calmness and composure. He
agreed that his wife go to Holland, and that
a divorce should be brought about on the ground of
wilful desertion. This was done, and other incidental
questions were regulnegotiated in a friendly way,
and in March, 1851, Frau Bertha was married to Johannes
Ronge in London. Ronge, who had in the meantime
become politically offensive in Germany, had to
flee the country like the rest of us. Frau Bertha
was therefore obliged to leave not only her children,
and her family circle, and her social position,
but also her native land, to share his lot. A — a
lot which contrasted sharply with the ease and
comfort of her former condition, for he was not
only an exile, but also a poor man. The proud
woman has probably never told any one what she
must have suffered in consequence of inevitable
discord with her family whose idol she had been and
to which she had been passionately attached. But
she bore all those sacrifices in order to fulfill
what she considered a higher duty at the side of
a man who had to perform a great mission in this
world.
But now a dreadful fate befell her. The
man whom her excited imagination had endowed
with all the qualities of a great reformer, to
whom she had looked up as to a new Luther, had
already for some time been recognized by others
as a very ordinary human beingmortal. For some time his
weaknesses were concealed by the renown ofwhich the
letter to the Bishop Arnoldi had won for him.
Then for a little while he may have blinded the
eyes of some by his facility of speech,
which however moved in a very narrow circle of
ideas, but this jingle of phrases constantly
repeating itself gradually betrayed the mental poverty
so desolate, that the rumor, that he had not been the
real author of the letter against the holy coat
but that the letter was in fact, the work of Count
Reichenbach of Silesia and that Ronge had only
given his name to it, found more and more credit
among his acquaintances. It was perfectly clear
to all unprejudiced and sagacious persons that
his role as a reformer was at an end, and that there
was no future for a man of his insignificance.
No doubt he also possessed some good qualities, but
these good qualities were of the most commonplace
kind. In Frau Bertha's delusion he had perhaps
still remained a great man after others had
already seen through him, but after her wedding this
delusion could hardly stand the test of the
constant union in everyday life.
She was mentally and morally, in fact,
in all things which constitute the real value of
the human being, much his superior. She had
believed to look up to him, but now she had to look
down on him. It was for her a terrible experience.
realization.
Long she struggled against it and tried to deceive
herself — in vain.
If even sheShe could not forever conceal the truth
from herself,. But then she wanted at least to
hide from others what to herself she had to confess;
others were at least to think that she still
believed in him. In the presence of others she
would still maintain and defend his greatness.
I have myself witnessed conversations in larger
circles at which both of them were present. It
was a painful spectacle how the high-minded woman
attracted by her utterances general attention and
led the exchange of opinions. How she suddenly
recollected herself and pushed her husband forward
to save for him at that opportunity
the honor of the argument,
and how then with anxious tension she listened,
lest some stupid triviality might escape him,
which indeed not seldom happened. She fiercely
resented as a personal insult every utterance
concerning Ronge that was wanting in respect, and no
doubt itthey deeply wounded her
heart, and. And of such utterances
there were many. For Ronge, as the
“personal enemy of the pope,” had gradually in the
eyes of his fellow exiles, become an almost comical
person, about whom the young people cracked
their jokes. While the Vatican knew well how
harmless he was and had long ceased to pay any
attention, and as hostile demonstrations against
the German Catholic movement had subsided, he
continued to vent his opinions about the detestible
tyranny of the Pope and tried to give himself an
appearance as if he would soon strike another
terrible blow against Rome.
Perceiving that the work of the new
“reformation” under the guidance of her husband,
was no longer sought, Frau Bertha sought to
silence the feeling of her grievous disappointment
by a new activity. She had studied the
Fröbel4
system of the Kkindergarten in Hamburg and made
preparations to introduce this method of educating the
little ones in London by instituting a Kkindergarten
herself. To — to be sure, at first on a small
scale. This indeed was a much more modest field
of actionendeavor than she had dreamed of; but she was at
least doing something to make herself useful.
Ronge, who knew nothing of this subject, could do
little more than little chores in connection
with it. She succeeded in making so good a beginning
sufficiently good preparations
that a graduatedcertified Kindergarten teacher was
called in from Hamburg, and the school
tookmade a good
start.
In this way the grievously afflicted
woman helped herself along during many months of
her London life, but,
even in the midst of her
Kkindergarten
activity, she was interrupted by the first fruit
of her new matrimonial union. Her confinement
was expected, if I remember rightly, towards the
end of December, 1851, or the beginning of January,
1852, and various threatening symptoms of disease
preceded this event. Her household in Hempstead
was somewhat scantilyuncomfortably provided
for — if not downright impoverished. The woman who
had grown up under the most agreeable conditions
and had, when formerly similar crises occurred,
been surrounded with all imaginable comforts, and
by the most affectionate care of the large family
circle, found herself now almost solitary in that
great human desert of London, being obliged to
struggle to husband her means, alone with the man
who had caused her the most terrible disappointment
of her life. For months she was troubled
with gloomy anticipations of death. Her family
in Hamburg had been estranged from her by the
scandal which her divorce and her union with Ronge
had occasioned, and the elder members of it could
for a long time not bring themselves to it to
visit her in the house in which they would have
to meet Ronge too. She on her part was too proud
to confess the recognition of her error or to
ask for aid by a frank acknowledgment of her
lamentable condition. But rumors of all this had
come to Hamburg, and then her youngest sister,
Margarethe, moved by the old love and thea new
compassion, resolved at once to hurry to her, and
to stand at her side during the time of danger.
In vain the older sisters and brothers sought to
convince the eighteen years old
eighteen-year-old girl, whose own
health was at that time not of the firmestthe most robust, that
she alone could not undertake a journey to London,
and that her inexperience in those unknown and
difficult conditions would expose her to the most
trying embarrassments, she. She did not waver in her
resolve, and so she appeared as the good angel at
the bed of her sister, took the conduct of the
household in her hand, supplied with her own means
what was wanting, and gave with her love and care gave
to the sufferer, new courage to face the
coming crisis.
In this way Margarethe had come to
Ronge's house in Hempstead when, as above
described, I met her there. I did not see her
again until after the confinement of her sister,
but I heard from the BaronessFrau von Brüning, who frequently
visited the patient, how the young girl,
with rare courage and admirable circumspection and
energy, was nurse, housekeeper, aye, whenever Ronge
showed himself inefficient, the man of the house,
in one person. The good Baroness had evidently
taken Margarethe in her heart and spoke of her
in words of enthusiasm. The confinement of Frau
Bertha was hard and perilous, but she survived it
and slowly regained strength. ThenSince at last one
of her brothers and her elder sister also arrived,
Margarethe, who had likewise studied under
Fröbel the Kindergarten
method,5 undertook the
conduct of the little institution founded under the
auspices of her sister in St. Johns Wood, and. And to
have some rest and recreation from the troubles
and excitements of the past weeks, she and a kindergarten
colleaguetook with her
a friend who was also engaged in the Kindergarten
moved into two rooms, on St. Johns Wood Terrace,
not far from the
house of the Brünings. Now we met again in the
drawing room of the Brünings, and after all I
had learned about her in the meantime, I looked
at her with a far higher interest than before.
Soon we became more acquainted. Margarethe
had had a somewhat checkered youth. Her
mother had died while giving birth to her. Never
to have known her mother, was to her
a sad thought through life. Her father, in his
various activities found, as frequently happens In his various activities, her
father found little time to devote to the children, as frequently happens
with men of energy and such situations. The care of her
devolved upon her aunt, a sister of her mother, who
presided over the house of the father after the
mother's death. But the aunt married a worthy
man connected with Meyer's business before Margarethe
was old enough to go to school, and her education
therefore fell to the control of her elder
sisters who themselves had children. When at
last,
with men of energy andin such situations, little
time to devote to the children., the father also died, —
Margarethe was then
not yet fifteen years old, — there was
really no
more stability andcoherent authority over her. Each one
of her brothers and sisters felt him or herself
responsible for her, and, as her nature may not
always have been rightly understood, she began to
feel as if she did not really belong anywhere,
while her brothers and sisters believed that it was
really their business to superintend her education
and to insure her well-being. She has frequently
told me how indignant she sometimes was when a
brother, only a year and a half older than she
was herself, sat in judgment over her.
Thus her childhood left behind for her very beautiful impressions, but also all sorts of gloomy ones. The time she spent in boarding-school she described to me as especially depressing. And such were her feelings when a family council was convened for her case. The feeling of homelessness — which in her case probably touched on many misunderstandings which such situations frequently bring with them — cultivated in her temperament a need for independence and for recognition of her own wishes, and although these needs led to many conflicts, they also yielded good fruit.
Her youth was also many times overshadowed by disturbed health, and she had to spend a not small amount of time in curative spas. To some of these, she took along as a companion a friend from Mecklenburg, Charlotte Voss, an excellent sort who she attached herself to with all the warmth of youthful friendship. (Charlotte later became the wife of a friend of my youth, Friedrich Althaus.) This brought her into contact with the liberal women who had founded the Hamburg Women's College. She belonged to this college for awhile, with Charlotte, and there made the acquaintance of Malwida von Meysenbug.
Certainly her sisters devoted much caring love to her, and for this love they were repaid with usurious interest. No one was dearer to her than her deceased father. Her most beautiful memory was that of her father clasping her to his breast shortly before his death and saying “My splendid child!” And so it remained for her throughout her life.
Many of these things I first learned about later, mostly from her own lips. But it was her nature, as I found it, not her story, which drew me to her. Her education was somewhat spotty. She had not gathered a lot of knowledge, but nonetheless spoke English and French tolerably well, had read much, played the piano, and sang simple songs with one of those beautiful full alto voices which can be so touching. In the process, she had built up a character which was of infinitely more value than all the knowledge and finishing a more complete education could have given her. To the uninhibited truthfulness of her nature could be ascribed that all with whom she spoke, old as well as young, superiors as well as inferiors, accepted judgments, censorious remarks and admonitions which coming from another mouth would have been rejected as arrogant or insulting. In the judgment of people and relationships, her healthy understanding and clear vision got things right, often with astonishing certainty, when more qualified and experienced people were in doubt. Her feelings and sympathies were so genuine and deep, her kind-heartedness so warm, that she was daunted by no effort or sacrifice when these things required such. Her underpinnings with regard to right and wrong, and good and bad, were noble, certain and true in the highest degree, and she possessed an instinct for propriety which never seemed to err or be in doubt. She immediately won the trust of anyone she spoke with. Although by nature a little melancholy, she had a precious gift for seeing the funny side of things and delighted those around her with her bubbling humor. Over and above the genuineness of her nature, an unconscious charm poured out which won all hearts, not only those of the men, but also those of the women, and so she easily became the center of any social circle she found herself in. Looking ahead, I might here say that all these qualities survived the bloom of her youth and remained with her to the all-too-early6 end of her days. Certainly there have been more cultivated, more intelligent and also more beautiful women — although she was truly beautiful — but very few who united in themselves so completely all the traits which make a woman noble and endearing.
When Margarethe and I met in the Brüning salon, it seemed to go without saying that we belonged to each other. We gravitated to each other. This was also noticed quietly by the rest of the gathering. When I stepped up to Margarethe and began to speak with her, the others regularly drew back from us immediately and left us alone, which we found not in the least embarrassing. I noticed a couple of times that then the eye of the good Baroness touched us with an expression of special satisfaction. When I needed to take Margarethe to the door of her residence one evening, and we walked by the door and strolled entirely alone on a solitary evening walk, we really did not have much new to say to each other. What we felt for each other we already knew even without having said it. We found in ourselves the urge to share with each other much from our pasts. And so we wandered for a good few hours through the still streets, even though a light rain trickled down, and we did not have an umbrella with us. We later often told our children how their mother that night wore a hat with a green veil whose color ran, and when we finally came back to her door and I said good night, I found the soaked veil had drawn speckles and stripes of green on her face. We parted with the mutual assurance that we were now engaged. Another day we each shared this with our close friends. Frau von Brüning heard the news with tears of joy. The Kinkels, who knew Margarethe very little, did not know whether they should be happy or not. Frau Bertha was very satisfied, and the good Malwida von Meysenbug rejoiced with us heartily over our happiness.
This happiness was by no means without clouds. At first, we did not think that our union would find opposition. I was certain of the consent of my parents since they had accustomed themselves to approve of just about whatever I did. But when Margarethe wrote to her sisters in Hamburg about her engagement with me, we found that there things were viewed quite differently, and, as I myself must concede after calm consideration, there were very good reasons for this. What did they know about me there? That I had liberated Kinkel. That was very good in and of itself, and had gotten me a good reputation. But it was no proof of my ability to make a wife happy and to support a family. Admittedly self-confidence was not lacking in me, but the sisters of my bride did not know me, and so I viewed their answer to Margarethe's letter with concern. One could really not expect anything different. Margarethe's older brother Adolph, a man of great ability and excellent character traits, with whom in later years I was hearty friends, explained to us in a friendly way that our marriage would be a somewhat hasty story, and he suggested that Margarethe should first return for a time to Hamburg, while I went ahead to America and laid the foundations for a secure middle-class existence. This was an undoubtedly well meant and completely reasonable suggestion, but to us young people it seemed only partly acceptable.
After very earnest thought, I found the idea that Margarethe should visit Hamburg not only acceptable, but even necessary. As I saw it, there, away from me, under the pressure of unfavorable influences, she could test the genuineness of her love and the viability of her determination to share her fate with mine. I had to admit to myself that she had already determined to hazard the leap with me into the wide world, and however much I loved her, and however great was the confidence I felt in my ability to prepare a happy lot for her, I did not want her to make this wager without having heard everything which could be said against it. If her feelings and intentions then remained fast, nothing further would stand in our way; and we could begin together our endeavors and toil in the New World. Her sisters persuaded Margarethe's excellent friend, Charlotte Voss, to travel to London, pick her up and take her back to Hamburg. So it happened. The two young women travelled by way of Bonn where they visited my parents. Then began Margarethe's difficult fight, so much more difficult since her sisters indeed had what is customarily called reason on their side in their dissuading her from a hasty marriage and emigration to America. And I did not make this fight easier. In my letters, I painted for her, in the liveliest colors, how I could offer her neither leisure nor luxury; that by my side she would have a life full of effort, storms and battle, perhaps full of deprivation; that the land where I would take her, if she intended to share my fate, was unknown to me, and I could in no way make any guarantees for our future.
I looked at her letters from Hamburg with such painful expectation! Since Kinkel's return from America, I had again occupied my old rental apartment on St. Johns Wood Terrace. The mail from Hamburg usually came around breakfast time, and when I heard the loud double knock of the letter carrier on the doors in my row of houses come ever closer to me, I felt as if a mysterious fate was pacing toward me with a heavy resounding tread. But this fate brought my happiness. Margarethe remained true. After a stay of some weeks she declared herself irrevocably determined to go with me to America. So she returned to London, and on July 6, 1852, we were married in Marylebone parish. There wasn't a big party. No one — except Frau Bertha and my youngest sister, who was living with the Kinkels — was present from our families. Kinkel, Frau von Brüning and Löwe were also present. The ceremony could not have been any simpler or more serious. There was a light shadow of sadness over it — a true refugee wedding. Quietly we moved into amiably laid-out living quarters in Hempstead, a bit removed from our friends, to spend our honeymoon. There I also wanted to make preparations for a quick departure for America since I felt pressed to look for a new home for us in the New World.
But there was still a great danger to face before this beautiful plan could be executed. Margarethe and I had spent only a few days in quiet seclusion when I felt sick. The doctor who was summoned soon let it be known I had scarlet fever. Soon after this was made known in the house, the landlady gave us notice. Her other renters would leave for fear of being infected, she said, if I didn't immediately move out. The woman insisted with a determination that didn't allow discussion. But where to go? Into a hospital? The thought terrified us, and Margarethe would not hear of it. My condition had meanwhile considerably deteriorated. I found myself for a large part of the time in feverish fantasies and was almost helpless. I could almost no longer speak. Then Margarethe made a bold decision. She herself had gone through a water cure and had great confidence in this method of healing. When her sister Bertha had recently been near death, she had summoned the proprietor of a water cure establishment in Malvern who, as she thought, had saved the life of her sister. Since I had to be moved in my condition, why not take me on the train to Malvern? “That will save you,” she said. “Let me manage for you.” Quickly resolved, she telegraphed Dr. Gully, and I was loaded into a carriage, and we soon reached the train. I must have looked terrible because, as soon as I was brought into a car, several people already sitting there immediately fled, leaving us alone.
That evening, we were in one of the houses which Dr. Gully had at his disposal in Malvern. When the doctor saw me, he shook his head. He spoke with Margarethe in English that I couldn't understand. When we left London, my body was completely covered with red bumps, but these bumps had gone down. The cure began immediately. I was wrapped in a cold wet linen sheet. After some two hours a bath attendant took me out, put me in a tub filled with cold water, had another attendant hold me upright, — for I could no longer stand, — and vigorously rubbed me down with a coarse cloth. Then I was put into bed to rest, and after a few hours the operation was repeated, and so on. The red bumps came back.
On the second or third day, I felt somewhat better. My tongue, which had been dry and stiff, became moist, and I could again speak. Margarethe had not left me for a moment. I was struck by a great concern for her. “In God's name,” I said, “won't you get this sickness too?” “Don't worry about it,” she answered, “we live together or we die together. But it will be alright. The doctor now thinks so too.”
It really was alright. The cure was vigorously pursued, and a week later I sat in an easy chair in warm sunshine on the veranda of the house with the happy contentment of a convalescent looking out into the wonderfully beautiful landscape and then in the much more beautiful eyes of my heroic young wife. A few days passed, and I stood sturdily on my feet. The cure was complete. The scarlet fever had not left the slightest
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Partly because it was somewhat cheaper and we wanted to be economical, partly also because we were promised more comfort than we would have on a steamer, we took passage on a large sailing ship, the City of London. We found very good quarters in its cabin and also pleasant company — among others a professor from Yale College and a pair of amiable New York merchants with their wives and children. So we made our first American acquaintances. We set sail from Portsmouth, and after a twenty-eight-day passage in continuous good weather, we docked on a cheerful September morning — it was the 17th of the month — in the beautiful harbor of New York. With hearts full of hope, we greeted the New World.