may 14, 1998
~ 9:00pm ~

never was a cornflake girl

istening to: n/a
album: n/a
fave song: "playboy mommy" by tori amos
feeling: odd
weather: really warm

so, it's been a while, eh? to bring you up to speed~nathanael and i are "official" and he makes me so very very happy. i love him dearly.

life is life is life, and i've realized that next year, i am going to have to drop something in order to stay sane and also do my best in what i need to do. and, i think, *sighs* i will end up dropping soccer.

that's not a fun thought, because i love soccer. it helps keep me sane, because all of my agressions are released and i get a chance to be active, but next year, i'm not going to have time. between work, school, friends, SGA...if i get the position i'm running for for SGA (president) that is going to take up all of my energy and time, let alone school, work, and a social life.

i think i will do swimming, because that's only twice a week practice, and then saturday meets. and hopefully, over the summer, if i get a car, i can join a pool, and i will do that when i get the chance during school, too.

*sighs*

sometimes i wonder why i'm involved in so much in school. i know i love all of it, and i just care too much. but, that keeps me where i am.

i need to kick my butt in gear in school~i'm not doing as well as i once thought i was doing. i've been slacking so much recently, and it's partially nathanael (i get flustered and forgetful), but the other part is, i don't know if i care quite as much as i used to.

scary thought.

i have so little time left, and i can't just start slacking now. miss 4.23, 4.48, 4.48...i can't do terrible this quarter...it's fourth quarter and FINAL GRADES are at stake here....

gah...

i'm gonna go upload this stuff...and then chill for a while..