august 2, 1998
~ 10:45am ~

without that sparkle in her eye, she's just not the same girl

listening to: nothing
album: n/a
fave song: n/a
feeling: strange
weather: nice

well, i leave in about an hour. i'm not sure how i feel...it's such a strange feeling, and i really don't know what to say. it feels like i'm lost, like i'm a "stranger in my own life." everything about it seems surreal - the fact i'm leaving in a little while for a week...the fact i'm the girlfriend of such an incredibly wonderful guy...the fact that i'm a senior...the fact that...well, lots of things just don't seem real...

i think i'm feeling better than i was last night...but i'm not sure.

i talked to nathanael for about an hour last night, and things were so weird. it had been the first time we had talked in like, three or four days, which is a lot for us...i know how we feel about each other, but sometimes, i look at my ring, flipped with the heart towards me, and i think "it IS real..."

i dunno - i'm a confused little girl...i think i'm gonna write some poetry on here really quick before i leave...

bye...