august 28, 1998
~ 6.00pm ~
this diva needs her stage baby - let's
have fun
listening to:
mix it up mix
album: various
fave song: all of 'em
feeling: pretty good
weather: hot and muggy
i can't believe that i go back to school on monday!
i'm so ecstatic, and i dont' know what else to say about
it! i'm just really really excited about this year.
i've gotten a few "letters" from nathanael,
and i don't know what's going on with him. in a sense, i
wish that he'd give me time and space, as i'm
trying to give him, because that's what he said he
wanted. i mean...gah! if you're gonna tell me to do
something, don't be a jerk and turn around and do the
exact opposite.
i went into my mom's school today and helped her with
some stuff, and it was pretty cool. i met some of her
co-workers, and some of them who had met me earlier were
like, "have you lost weight" and stuff like
that, and it make me feel all gushy inside. i think it's
the fact i'm stressed and i don't eat as well as i
should, but that's just me. i live on water and granola
bars...*grins*
and i know i'm gonna get hurt by some people for
saying that. NO, i'm not anorexic, i
just don't eat as much as i used to. man, i used to pig
out all of the time. but, i DO need to start exercising,
and i need to ask dena (my sister) where her jane fonda
video is, because when school starts, i'm gonna get up at
5.30pm and exercise for 1/2 an hour, then get ready for
school...so...
what have i been up to? this page, which i think is
pretty cool. i revamped all of it, and just changed the
way some of the things were set up (instead of thoughts,
beliefs, prose, and poetry all in one place, i split 'em
up into two)...i know i have tons more stuff in
the bio section. yes, i think i'm narsisstic - i love
talking about myself...no one knows more about me than
me...
last night was freshmen orientation, and i had so much
fun. it was really chaotic in the beginning and i thought
we weren't going about things correctly, and that we were
missing stuff and i didn't know what i was supposed to do
or anything, and in the end, everything fell into place.
then, afterwards, i got a ride home with beka, and we
talked on the way home and then sat in my driveway
talking for about an hour. i swear, she goes to drop me
off at home, and we end up parked in my driveway talking!
it's so great. her and i bond a lot. i just wish i could
get the chance to do that with all my friends...i would
love to bond with them...and the fact that i'm not
playing soccer...i don't have that time to bond or
talk or even see them!!!
*pouts* i stopped by and watched a few minutes of the
scrimmage yesterday and i was sad. i mean, i love soccer
and i want to play, but i can't unless there is a 48 hour
day! i have so much other stuff going on. beka was like
"i miss my girls out there! you're ms. sga
president, angela's at work and janet's in vermont!"
and my heart just dropped. *sighs*
but, i guess i can't dwell on that too much, because
if i do, i just get a long face.
oh! there's this guy, the one i talked about
the...mmm, the night i broke up with nathanael...andy.
him and i have been talking more online, and he's pretty
much the only one i talk to much, except for jennifer,
but i haven't even talked to her that
much...*pouts*
anyhoo...just thought i'd mention his name because
he's made me smile and laugh more than anyone else the
past week. he's a great guy...if you're reading this,
andy *huge hugs*
wow, this is pretty long, so i guess i'm gonna get
going...
adios.
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