Everything I touch I break
I scratch and tear
Until it bleeds
I do not want
I only need
I only need
I only need...
Everything I touch I break
So how can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to...
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
Sex made me feel alive but now I'm
So bored with mindless passion
Drugs were someplace to hide but
They've left me feeling cold and empty
So how can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to...
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
I thought you were my friend, that you
Were someone I could turn to
But now, I realize you were a
Friend when you needed something
So how can I hold on
With nothing to hold on to...
Why should I hold on
When there's nothing to hold on to
How can everything be justified by you?
You get off on watching me bleed...
You get off on feeding my disease.
This time will be perfect you explain.
Your tongue is deadly as a needle in my vein...
How can everything be justified by you?
How can my demise be justified by you?
I'm so tired of living for your touch.
I'm so tired of needing you so much.
How can everything be justified by you?
When did I decide to be crucified by you?
How can evyerthing be justified by you?
By you...
Only you
Can make me whole
Just one touch and
You complete me
Rescue me from this black hole
That's sucked me in and left me dying
You're the truth that I've been seeking
'Cause my whole life I've been lying...
Only you
Can make me whole
Just one touch and
You complete me
God I pray you find me worthy
Of the right to stand beside you
And of your truth and of your passion
And of the right to sleep beside you
Only you
Can make me whole
Just one touch and
You complete me
I cannot save you. I can't even save myself
I know that you've been damaged
Your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you...
I cannot save you. I can't even save myself
Please don't take pity on me
My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
So if I must be lonely
I think I'd rather be alone...
You cannot save me
You can't even save yourself...
I cannot save you...I can't even save myself
These lies have torn my world apart
A darkness grows inside me in fading shades of grey
All the colors in the world are slowly sucked away
I'm sinking ever deeper to a place that's cold and black
I can't believe I've lost you and you're never coming back
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
These lies have torn my world apart
Sliently
Leaving this behind
Nothing left but me
I'm hating myself...
Hating
Everything hates me now
Everything has changed
Everyone has changed...
But me
Everyone has changed
So why does everything seem desperate now
I should be feeling so alive
But it feels like something's missing
Something's wrong somehow
It feels like something
Deep inside has died
So why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel like dying
Why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel desperate now
I keep breaking all the promises
That I keep making to myself
But the promises mean nothing to me anymore
Circling the drain...
Spiraling to hell...
So why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel like dying
Why do I feel desperate now
Why do I feel desperate now
So goodbye my friend
Goodbye
So goodbye my friend
Goodbye
I won't become the thing I hate...
I won't become the thing I hate...
I won't become the thing I hate...
I won't become you
You've treated me lie I'm a worthless piece of shit
You think you're in control but you make me sick
I want to watch you suffer,
The way that you've made me suffer,
I want to fuck up everything you've ever loved.
But I won't become the thing I hate...
I won't become the thing I hate...
I won't become you
It's kinda sad to watch you break down
You greedy fuck you pissed it all away
So who will catch you on your way down
You've only got yourself to blame
When all your worst fears...materialize
Will it be worth it?
There's nobody left who cares you're alive
Was it worth it?
I'll see you on your way down
At night I cling to you I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come,
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promise that you'd not abandon me
And kissed my fears away...
But I woke up to that day...
But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet
Reflected in the bathroom mirror.
And I memorized your naked silhouette
As you slowly brushed your hair...
I miss, God I miss waking up beside you...
I've been alone for so long...
I forgot how much it hurts to wake up so alone...
But I'd memorized how warm your body felt
As you lay half asleep beside me.
And I memorized the way the sunlight filled the room
And played upon your body...
I miss, God I miss waking up beside you...
(CHORUS)
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
As you lie silently beside me choking back your tears
I wonder if you recognize
That silence now defines us
Desperately I try to fight this overwhelming sense
That I may never find
The strength to change
How hopeless we've become
(CHORUS)
And every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
BRIDGE
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence
We need to find a way to break this silence that's between us
So I scream your name
(CHORUS)
But every time that I touch you
You feel so far away
And every time that you need me
I feel so far away
And every time that you reach out
You feel me pull away
And every time that I touch you, I touch you, I touch you
You feel so far away
(CHORUS)
Why can't it be
Perfect like it used to be?
Why can't we be
Perfect?
Perfect is how I
Once described our love
But that was before
We fell apart
So why do I feel
A million miles away?
Why do I feel
Like we're broken?
(CHORUS)
Why can't it be
Perfect like it used to be?
Why can't we be
Perfect?
It used to be perfect
Lately I've noticed
How much you've changed
Even though you swear
You're the same
(CHORUS)
Why can't it be
Perfect like it used to be?
Why can't we be
Perfect?
It used to be perfect
But it's been so long
Since I have known the truth
These dreams we've left abandoned
And I'm haunted by your face
And the memory of your kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcend space and time
These memories slip away
The ghost of what we were
Is fading
But there is no more pain
Which is funny 'cause that night
I was dying
I was dying
Now I don't even recognize
The girl I swore that someday
I would marry
But I can't forget her face
And I can't forget her kisses
Sweet kisses
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember always feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcend space and time
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
I still can't forget your touch
Or how we swore that we would never be alone
Do you remember?
I still remember so much
I remember never feeling so alive
Do you remember?
'Cause I still can't forget your touch
We swore that we would never end
We knew our love transcend space and time
Do you remember?
God I remember so much
And I die
Inside
When I think of all the people
I have damaged
And I'm tired
I'm so tired
And there's no one else
Except myself to blame
(CHORUS)
My life's been wasted
Everything is gone
My life's been wasted
And I am all alone
My life's been wasted
There is no one else
My life's been wasted
It's time I face myself
I've spent
My life
Trapped inside
A cycle of self destruction
And I've spent
My whole life
Trying to numb
The pain inside my soul
And furious
I cry
When I realized
I fought this war with no one
I'm tired
I'm so fucking tired
Gotta find a way
To keep myself alive
(CHORUS)
My life's been wasted
Everything is gone
My life's been wasted
And I am all alone
My life's been wasted
There is no one else
My life's been wasted
It's time I face myself
When I reach the end
Will anything I've done
Mean anything?
Will anything I've done mean anything?
(CHORUS)
My life's been wasted
Everything is gone
My life's been wasted
And I am all alone
My life's been wasted
There is no one else
My life's been wasted
It's time I face myself
(CHORUS)
Please tell me
Are you really happy?
Do you think he's really worth the pain?
Tell me
Are you really happy?
Or did you simply throw our life away
Just to be unhappy?
Does he worship and adore you?
Does he make you feel so
Beautifully complete?
Is your life so much better now?
Or do the same
Old demons haunt your sleep?
(CHORUS)
Please tell me
Are you really happy?
Do you think he's really worth the pain?
Tell me
Are you really happy?
Or did you simply throw our life away
Just to be unhappy?
Is he everything you've dreamed of?
I'd imagine he is
So much more than me
You know I tried to make you happy
But I believe
You thrive on misery
(CHORUS)
Please tell me
Are you really happy?
Do you think he's really worth the pain?
Tell me
Are you really happy?
Or did you simply throw our life away
Just to be unhappy?
All you need
Is the air we breathe
All I need
Is the air I breathe
There are so many things
We need so desperately
And the TV preaches
We can't live without them
You tell me what is neat
I'll tell ya what I believe
If I ever were without it
Then I'd be worthless
'Cause you are everything
The only thing that matters
You are everything
The only thing that I need
You are everything
The only thing that matters
Yes you are everything
You are the air I breathe
I wonder if some day
We took all their toys away
Do you think they'd find the strength
To go on living?
'Cause deep inside I know
If I lost everything I owned
I'd be a king
As long as you're beside me
'Cause you are everything
The only thing that matters
Yes you are everything
The only thing I need
My love means everything
The only thing that matters
Yes you are everything
You are the air I breathe
The air I breathe
I hope someday they find
A place to bid online
Where all lost souls
Can find themselves some meaning
I know we'll survive
All we need's more time
As long as we've got love, and art,
and the ocean
And we are everything
The only thing that matters
We are everything
There's nothing else I need
Our love is everything
The only thing that matters
Cause we are everything
You are the air I breathe
The air I breathe
You are everything
The only thing that matters
You are everything
There's nothing else I need
Yes you are everything
The only thing that matters
Our love is everything
You are the air I breathe
You are everything
You are the air I breathe
The air I breathe
(CHORUS)
But I've never been loved by an angel
I've never felt anything so pure
I've never been loved by an angel
Until tonight your heaven filled my room
She showed me love could lift me higher
With a kiss she reparied these broken wings
She revived my fading spirit
Restored my faith in everything
I have never felt I had a home
Even in a crowd I felt alone
I'd almost given up on life
I'm fully determined now
And never thought I'd ever feel again
(CHORUS)
But I've never been loved by an angel
I've never felt anything so pure
I've never been loved by an angel
Until tonight your heaven filled my room
I believed in nothing
But you believe in me
I thought that life was worthless
But you told me I'm a star
(CHORUS)
But I've never been loved by an angel
I've never felt anything so pure
I've never been loved by an angel
Until tonight your heaven filled my room
I wish that somehow
I could leave
My past behind
My fears behind
(CHORUS)
If I could only breathe you in
Every drop of you
I guess it's time to face the truth
And admit my past mistakes
Come to terms with all that's wrong with me
And all the things I'll never be
Why am I afraid to feel?
Afraid of what is true?
Why am I afraid to feel?
When all I really want is you?
To taste your skin
To share your thoughts
Would never be enough for me
(CHORUS)
If I could only breathe you in
Every drop of you
I've lost so much
Chasing the perfect high
I've lost so much
(CHORUS)
I've never been as high as I was with you
Never been so high
I've never been as high as I was with you
I finally realized love's a perfect high
Love's a perfect high
This hunger
It consumes me
I lost my soul as you came rushing
In my veins
A pathetic
Little junkie
But I'm the whore
That needs it one last time
I've lost so much
Chasing the perfect high
I've lost so much
(CHORUS)
I've never been as high as I was with you
Never been so high
I've never been as high as I was with you
I finally realized love's a perfect high
Love's a perfect high
Love's a perfect high
When I look around
I see numb empty faces
The world is waiting to die
And this apathy
Is so suffocating
The slow decay of my mind
I've searched the world
For someone with answers
To questions that are plaguing me
I scream in vain
To anyone who'll listen
But everbody's watchin' TV
Is anyone alive?
Am I lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Am I lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?
Are we lost in a world
Where nothing matters?
Are we lost in a world
Where no one cares?
Is anyone alive?