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Read my writings, see my past.
~Drowning~
Walls surround.
closing in.
air becomes tight.
tight as choking hands.
glass shreds.
skin rips.
jagged edges bite me.
crimson falls like heavy rain.
red carpet surrounds me.
eyes heavy with burning droplets of glass.
they drop down my cheek to my chin.
i cover myself with the shroud.
and i .....drown.
~The hiding~
I wonder if he realizes that I am hiding
I feel his touch
I turn my head
I wonder if he sees what is there
that scarred piece of skin, the one that reminds me
everyday of what i am not and never to be.
I stare in that pool.seeing the refection,
god thats not me.
a monster with all that darkness
the eyes of blood
the skin of rough gravel
nails that pierce even souls
his touch awakens me
the one pure part of me
the one beautiful part
my heart cries out for him
fix me
mend me
but dont look at me
dont try to find me
I am gonna hide
and you cant see me
maybe if I close my eyes, you wont see me
to be able to fall in your arms without fear
to be able to search your eyes
to feel you touch my chin
I can stay in my world and dream
but always I will hide
~Mornings~
i look upon the crevace and feel myself falling
deeper and deeper the darkness seems to envelope me
my soul cries out
the yelling in my ears frightens me more
then i realize that it is my voice
my voice that fills the air with fear
i see my body below me
its as if i have become separate from myself
it shakes and whimpers
i look around and only see the void
my world has become surreal
i cant tell between the blood and tears as they mix
~Rage~
Rage under my skin
Pain in my veins
every minute strains my mind
Blackness, darkness....a kind of void
just beneath my fingernails...thorns of deep red
veins with sorrow running through madly
each long breath becomes longer and harder
visions blurred
my past....has a hold
fate had grabbed my arm.
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