~I'll ALWAYS WONDER~

I'll always wonder my child
What you look like today
Do you still have that impish grin
That used to steal my heart away?

Did you grow up tall
What did you do for a career?
Do you now have your own children
On this day, do you think of me each year?

You're thirty-one today
It makes my heart hurt so
That we only shared five
Then you had to go

I'll always wonder my child
How often you see below
And see the pain I've endured
Since the day you had to go

I always get sad
On this special day each year
Wishing we still celebrated birthdays together
Instead, I stand alone each year

I can't celebrate this day
The memories stand in the way
Of years we celebrated together
On this our special day

I'll always remember that day
Back in '72
When the doctor handed you to me
And said, "Happy Birthday to you."

I was so happy
And what a gift to receive
A baby boy on my birthday
I never dreamed one day I'd grieve

I never dreamed I'd lose you
I never dreamed this pain
I never knew life could be so cruel
Until the angels came that day

So as I sit here with memories
That each year always flow
Remembering our special day together
The heartache is more than most know

But I'll always wonder on this day
If you think of me
And the few short years we had together
Those birthdays were so special you see

Happy Birthday Andy
My gift was given long ago
A love never ending
I love you more than anyone knows

Love,
Mom