My Life Before I Gave My
Heart To "Jesus!"

When I was young

When I was a young girl and in high school, my life was
Not the greatest. I was taken out of high school in the ninth grade.
I was taken out of school by my mother to help take care of my
Grandmother. You see, she was really sick and needed a lot of care.
My mother didn’t seem to have the time to take care of her, so the
Responsibility fell to me.
After my grandmother passed away, I started to hang around boys.

You see, my mother didn’t care if I didn’t go back to school.
So I was uneducated and could barely read so I was unprepared for
the coming events in my life.
I wound up getting pregnant at the age of 18.
Soon after, I thought I fell in love with the boy that
got me pregnant And agreed to get married.
I had my first son just before my 19th. birthday.
Everything seemed to be going OK.

A few months later, I got pregnant again. Another boy.
He was born One and one half years after my first son.
This time my in-laws Decided that they would take him
and raise him.
They knew I didn’t understand a lot about life so it was
easy for them To talk me into letting them take
care of my second son.
It didn’t strike me right away that they didn’t seem to
care about My first son.

Two years later I had my last son, and that’s when everything
started to go straight down hill. It was slow at first nothing
extravagant but soon it was apparent that my husband and
his parents wanted me out of their lives. At first they just
started doing things together and leaving me out of it.
I had to stay home when they took the boys out on the boat for the day.
They would tell me that when they got home they wanted everything
to be in order and that I had better not go visit my mother.

Most of the time that I was married to my ex-husband
We lived with his parents.
When we did get a apartment of our own, we would move
Our clothes and what little furniture we had into it and I
Would think everything was going to be OK.
But then something would always seem to go wrong
With the truck and the money that was supposed to go
For rent and food would go into fixing the truck.
We would get evicted from the apartment and be back
Living with his parents.

In all the time I was married to him, my children never
had a Christmas.
Finally I had taken all I could take and I took my children
And we went to live with my mother. It wasn’t easy there either,
I shared an apartment with her and was on welfare.
Every month when my check would come in, she would take
As much as she could, saying she was trying to keep me from
Spending it wrong.

I wasn’t divorced from my husband yet and he came over
and wanted to take the kids to see their grandparents so I let him.
Then he asked me if he could talk to me about our marriage.
I asked him what about our marriage and he said he wanted to
Get back together because he loved me and he missed me.
So I agreed to talk and he promised me that if I would go back
With him we would go to Florida and he would get a job, an apartment
And we would send for the kids.

I accepted and I have to admit I was excited about going to Florida
Well I told you when I started out that I never was made to
Go to school. I couldn’t read, I couldn’t do anything accept
Try to make a man happy sexually. I wasn’t smart at all.
Well, we left the children with his parents and they had me
Sign a paper before we left. They said it was to give them the
Right to take the kids to a doctor or hospital if anything went
Wrong. I believed them and signed it.
And we were off to Florida!

Well, when we got to Florida, the first place we stopped was
the Grayhound bus station. We lived in the GMC truck
because we had no where else to live. For a whole week
My husband never looked for work. I didn't have an education
But was able to get a part time job at the resturant
in the bus station. My husband had a High School Diploma
but all he would do is hang around the bus station
and play vidio games. He wouldn't even buy me anything to eat
for days on end. After a while when he wouldn't
even look for a job or a place to live, I decided that I
would come back to Toledo to be with my children. He said
he wouldn't bring me back to Toledo.

Everytime I would ask him if he was going to look for
a job he would ignore me and go back to playing vidio games.
I just got tired of it and called my mother in Toledo,
she said she would send me a ticket to come home on a bus.
When the ticket got there, he wanted to turn it in
for the money so he could play more vidio games.

Well as you may imagine I did come back to Toledo on the bus. After
arriving here I raided my mothers refridgerator
cause I was so hungry.
To cut a long story a little shorter, The next day
I went to get my children, only to find out that I was
tricked. Those papers I signed that was supposed be for medical
Wasn't. No they were guardian papers. My husband
had conspired with his parents to turn guardianship
of MY children over to his parents.

I tried as hard as I knew how to fight them keeping my
children. But because of my not being able to read
I couldn't get them back. The courts called
me an unfit mother.
My husband didn't want them back so I left him!
He stayed with his parents and the kids did to.
One day they let the children visit me. While I had them
my oldest son said his butt hurt. He was only 5 years old
When I checked him, he was all red around his butt.
I took him to the emergency room, and when they
checked him, they said that he had been molested. The Doctors
ask my son if anyone had touched him there and he said
"yes". My Dad put his thing in there.

Well needless to say, not only did the hospital report what
my son said to the police, I did to. He was arrested and put
in jail. After his trial he was sentenced to 7 to 25 years in
prison. I started divorce proceedings and it was granted a few months
later.
If you have read this far,
please be patient and read next page.

"NEXT"