i've only now decided to keep a journal of goings-ons, simply because i've begun to fear for my life. my second day of incarceration has been ten times as hellish as my first. it's only 11:14 a.m. and there have already been three attempts at my life.
must hide. will write more later.
i experienced what they call the "gauntlet" today. all the "vets" gather all the newly jailed "freshies" and go around asking what we're in for. then they decide which one of us gets to get buttfucked.
i knew my count 1 of 'sex offense against an elderly man' would bring me less than an enthusiastic response, so two nights ago i spread a rumor that i have oily discharge.
saved my life.
met a guy named Gonzalez today. turns out he likes to hide in the laundry hamper just like me. he kinda showed me the ropes, as in who to see for smokes, pornography, and breast implants. we hid in there for a couple hours, but i left after he asked me to spoon
so weak.
spent the last three days hiding under my bunk after i realized my cellmate likes to stare at me and masterbate.
can't wait for lunch.
not much to note today. spent most of the day outside doing tae bo with Casper.
good god. i've only been here twelve days, and i'm going insane. i need to break out.
heard a rumor the other day that these two guys from 18th street are planning an escape through the underground sewage system. i saw them with their usual crew and decided to try and get in on it.
"i heard you guys are bustin' out."
they stop all conversation and glare at me.
"what? i'm not gonna tell or anything."
they continued to glare.
"god...you guys are so clique-y."
my cellmate is driving me insane. i thought i'd try a little reverse psychology and start masterbating to him masterbating to me, but he just kept going. he just kept fucking going. he musta shot out a pint.
took part in my first gang rape today. i'm not gay or anything, i just gave in to peer pressure. it was supposedly robert downey, but i couldn't tell with that pillowcase wrapped around his head.
gotta break out. i don't give a fuck anymore. i just gotta get out. who's out there?!
got someone else's care package by accident today. there was a banana-nut muffin, a picture of a family, and a stuffed teddy bear.
i jerked off to the picture, fucked the teddy bear, and stuck my dick in the muffin.
what a banner day today. i managed to score some coke and weed off of this old man. i told him i'd blow him for it and he was all "dang nabbity, that sounds like a plan!"
just for fun i waited til he pulled his pants down and then beat him in the neck with my sock full of batteries. woo hoo!! i'm off to smoke!!
today's my parole hearing. wish myself luck.
