journal - november 2001
11.04.01 (sunday) 4:58 pmgosh darn it . . i just can't get over how dumb i sound when i write . . and now i'm kind of hesitant to say certain things because i know who's going to be reading this from now on . . i'm afraid that this may contradict the things that i say . . and i don't want there to be any confusion . . grrrr . . the inhumanitylets see . . i wrote last sunday . . which means .................. gosh, what did i do this week? . . monday . . uh . . well, screw it . . the only thing i can remember is wednesday . . that was joe and i's one-week anniversary . . it was also halloween . . guess what we did . . that's right . . we played pool . .. :) . . i love that game . . and oh, yeah, joseph bought us some martinelli's . . that's good stuff . . but that was earlier . . before we played pool . . during visiting hours . . . ummm . . so, after we played pool we went for a walk to the temple . . that was nice :) . . when we got up there we sat on the hill right behind it and talked . . joseph was a little on the nervous side . . i knew exactly why . . but i dragged it out of him anyway :) . . i'm evil, i know . . hehehehe . . yeah, so anyway, i'm not gonna say anything further about that :) . . not that it wasn't important . . but i'd rather not discuss it in such a public forum such as this . . . needless to say, it was a very enjoyable evening . . every moment spent with joseph is enjoyable . . even if i'm freezing cold . . :) and . . friday night . . we played pool, ate food . . watched tv . . and we weren't freezing . . well, until they kicked us out the morris center lobby . . grrrr . . . i just love spending time with that boy . . i was neglecting my homework, of course, but i had a long annoying day . . and i wasn't about to do evil physics . . . or calculus for that matter . . and last night . . we played pool (has anyone else noticed a pattern arising here?) . . and finished gladiator . . even though it was frickin' freezing! . . and . . well . . i'm not gonna say anything else . . that's for me to know . . and for y'all NOT to know . . . anyway . . that's been my week kind of . . well . . the parts that i spent with joseph anyway :) . . i apologize to those of you who are just about ready to boil my head in acid . . yeah, you know who you are . . later 11.17.01 (saturday) 11:32 pmwhat the hell is wrong with the people here, anyway? . . why are they so freakin' anal? . . i'm sorry . . but i've been pissed off this week . . because people are stupid . . why does everyone feel that it's their frickin' right and responsibility to impart their crappy wit and wisdom upon myself and/or joseph? . . i'm especially upset because they're all going after joseph . . and they won't leave him alone! . . it's none of their damn business . .personally, i'm not one to go against the grain on a regular basis . . but i can't do what these people say .. simply because it doesn't make any freakin' sense . . i would gladly follow counsel that was justified . . maybe if i'd actually done something wrong . . . but NO!!! . . i haven't done anything!! . . joseph and i aren't stupid! . . but everyone automatically thinks . . well . . i don't know what the hell all of them are thinkin' . . we're, like, heathens or something . . "oh, no . . they're playin' around . . being all touchy-feely . . they must be having impure thoughts!! . . and we can't allow love either . . that's just wrong!! . . dating one person! blasphemy! . . we'd better do something before they ruin their lives! . . oh . . let's shove all the counsel down their throats that they can stand, short of asking them to break up . . and watch their lives improve because of our concern and superior counsel!! . . " . . i could go on . . but i won't because it's pissin' me off just thinking about it . . okay, so maybe that's a bit extreme . . and maybe the fact that i don't understand where these people are coming from . . agitates my view of the situation . . ANNOYING!! . . i just want them to leave joseph alone . . it saddens me that he gets "attacked" all the time . . i don't want him to have to face that alone . . i don't want everyone on his case . . harrassing him . . ehhhh . . i'm a curse . . . 11.23.01 (friday) 4:30 pmi went to ephraim yesterday .. that's about 2 hours south of provo .. my, what an interesting time was had by all .. it seems as if everyone in my family is a little ecentric .. both sides .. should i have expected anything different .. probably not .. anyway .. i was there all day yesterday .. and the food was very good .. mmm .. thanksgiving dinner .. hehehe (sorry joseph .. i had to ..) and we went to see harry potter in a GHETTO theatre .. i have never seen a movie house that was so ghetto .. the color scheme says it all .... yellow and red ... nasty .. and the floor was all sticky ... it had ugly yellow curtains .. and it smelled like burned popcorn .. the movie was good though .. that outweighs the inpleasant-ness of the theatre experience ..after the movie .. i called joseph .. the highlight of my day .. and i mocked him a few times about how he didn't get thanksgiving dinner (for those of you who don't know .. he's from canada .. and the canadian thanksgiving is in, like, september, i think .. so anyway, no good thanksgiving food for him .. just head for the chuck-a-rama, joseph!) .. we didn't get to talk very long 1) because my calling card was running out of minutes and 2) because this other girl (her name's rachel) had to use the phone (might i just add that she was calling to talk to a guy that she's never even spoken to before! she met him on the internet! she crushed my quality time with joseph into a measly half an hour just so that she could talk to someone 2000 miles away that she's never even seen! i .. am outraged ... so, i spent the night in ephraim at my cousin's apartment. i came home around 10 .. went to take a shower and the water was freakin' freezing! i wanted a scalding hot relaxing shower .. and i was denied .. not to mention the fact that the internet didn't work until 4 today .. and they turned the frickin' heat OFF last night .. and today for that matter .. so it was COLD in my room when i got back .. it's still cold .. my poor numb fingers .. and imood's not working right now .. but just so you know .. my mood is SICK .. i have a stuffy/runny nose .. and a sneezing problem .. and my thoat's all scratchy .. and my head hurts .. and my face looks evil because i went off my anti-biotics for awhile and then went back on them .. so my face is a mess .. i just feel terrible and i look horrible .. and i just want to do nothing again .. but i can't .. i have to actually do some work tonight .. after i talk to joseph of course :) that's all the complaining i'm going to be doing for now .. until next time ....
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