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Distorted words for your reading pleasure...
Fallen Angel
fallen angel, falls from her cloud
cast from heaven, as she cries out loud
"where were you, when I died?"
where were you?", she cried...
broken angel, desperately in need
"so sorry", quietly she pleads
forgiving heaven, forgetting all her sin
eternally, we'll be with her again...
cause nobody loves, a fallen angel
nobody needs, to see her cry
nobody loves, a fallen angel
no one wants, to watch her die...
she's flying, she's falling
she's alive in my head...
to receive is nothing...
but to give... is all.
Bleed
disenable suicide
in the sinners you confide
dying silence on the streets
euthanasia... mercy for me
paper cuts grow paper-thin
using guns for life
life never wins
feeling patient dying slowly
waste your life away
no waste to go
Fear
broken bones
shattered dreams
my tangeled life
torn at the seams
raging fire
burning bright
destroys our day
and our night
it burns the thread
that keeps us whole
spread the ashes
from pole to pole
it hears our plea
yet sees us not
it remembered us once
but has now forgot
the criminal
that was once a friend
steals our heart
to complete our end
it will never leave
so why do we wait?
as we bolt our doors
we seal it's fate...
Daisy
I tried to love you
love is too strong
now I forget you
remember too long
you were the apple
alone in my eye
had to be positive
the day that we died...
now that I love you
love is so weak
you were so negative
though you didn't speak
portayed by the demons
inside us all
you were the angel
who wanted to fall...
you were the daisy
that withered and died
you weren't forgotten
the day that you died...
Apple Syringe
in a world so bleak
there is nothing to give
in a world so bleak you will die
you give your ashes
give your all
save your breath
when you say good-bye...
why do we live to leave so soon
why do we kill to survive
send your war to another moon
for this may be your last flight
my syringe
apple...syringe
in a world so caring
yet nobody cares
earth so hungry it cries
save your strength
for the ones you fear
they may hurt you now
but they'll die
Child
a child died the other day
his face you did not care to know
he should have lived to see this world...
child lived in another way
poor and alone
he should have seen a better world...
you don't care
never will
lie to me with your anger
and let them be still...
For Baby
unexpected
yet loved
the world is yours and ours
we will give
and do our best
plus more
you are a sign
that love is blooming
unable to choose
we have chosen
our earth may crumble
yet you will raise us to Heaven
and together
we will be loved
unexpected
yet loved
why?
why is the world so bitter?
a world that once cared
does no longer so
you are not at fault
the wars
the death
are great to bear
the caring people
who never care
lift your head
up to the sky
...and pray
God hears you
His love for you
is as great as ours
and more
you
unexpected
you
are loved...
Not Yet
we thought we were ready
we prepared for the pain
our hearts were both singing
our minds were insane
we agreed to consider
we would take what we get
we prayed to be ready
but God said, "Not yet"
so now we can wait
and prepare for the test
if today was our day
we would give it our best
maybe we are
not totally set
God knows we weren't
He said, "Not yet"...
ARH
with our Amazing
Unexpected love
That draws us close
to stand Under the brightest
Moon
commanding us Never to let go
...we are strong...
Remember
the Oddness of a hug?
Seeing not what
wE now have almost taken
...for granted...
we are Happily in love
Uncontrollably
Growing forever in
our Honesty
Eternity is
ourS to keep
now and forever
...I love you
Against All Odds
my life
formed out of tragety
the world around
is sick of me
the one who i love
is the one who still don't
doesn't now
and probably won't
finally set
my heart out to find
after being told
to leave them behind
the guardians lead
when afraid of the cost
drowning the kindness
of the one i have lost
i am alone on the ground
where i stand
my feet planted firm
but i still need a hand
maybe one day
if the stars all agree
i'll find a heart
to stand here
with me
Crossroads
the crossroads of a winding life
thoughts of what could be
a life unlived
a life untrue
love that could not see
walking paths that no one knows
growing short with greed
the family is angelic still
loving when in need
Antz
you are not the same
never were first to blame
now you're shaking
feeling wrong for your way...
stand aside and pray
you just can't play this game
the antz are charging
but you won't ever change...
now the world is dead
caring not for it's crime
people dying
feeling hate for your ways
I Awake
i awake
to the night
alone
thinking of you
wanting to dream
but not knowing
how to feel
...love?
.....confusion??
should i send you a rose?
one from my heart,
or one from the ground?
i fear what i feel
love
i fear
yet i do
love
you
Phobia
I'll die, tonight
while you're a-sleep tight
you need, to rest in peace
I'm not afraid of you...
I'm not afraid of you...
I'll cry, tonight
while you abuse light
you'll see, I'm just like you
I'm not afraid of you...
I'm not afraid of you...
I'll see the ocean
you'll drown in fear
I'll fight for ages
You'll fight away tears
oh my god
there is nothing left here
no one to suffer
nothing to fear
I'm not afraid of you...
I'm not afraid of you..
With Me
hundreds of people stand here
nobody even cares
will you stand for me always..
are you happy who you are
will it get you very far
'till the last day that you stand
is the best day they had planned
take me with you when you go
alone, with me...
millions of people out there
everyone stops to stare
why won't you let me be free
Before the Apacolypse
turn away from the night
when shadows look appealing
the darkness shows a bitter waste
a world which has been stealing
spirits cry unto your death
as you leave your mark to all
living high among your friends
until your star must fall
runaway from evil things
that haunt your everyday
leave this life to live above
to hear what angels say
After the End
venomous ashes
that once had a name
someday you'll fall
to forever remain
they'll dig you a grave
they'll bury your soul
display all your pictures
above the great hole
there birds will nest
flowers will grow
your grave will look "pretty"
but you'll never know
Lost Soul
I've been lost before
but now I see
trampled tragety that
once was me
I'm not guilty I just
need to know
why was I left here
why didn't I go...
save my soul for the man
who rests inside of me
we may some day be one again
but how could that be
we could bury our past
to find our way
we should follow our dreams
what will they say...
now I'm lost again
how can this be
child fantasy
torn at the seam
I'm not helpless I just
cannot glow
if my world was dark
would your light
still shine through
Star
long ago not so far away
he was with you everyday
the world is pulling you apart
he's still with you in you're heart
looking forward to see your past
your time alone will never last
you see his star as it shines above
dream of his face and of his
love...
we have our stars
we won't get far
we have our ways
to get close to you...
on this rock where we reside
always be right by your side
the distance seems so far away
a piece of him is with you to stay
you say you love him and now he knows
the light inside you of him grows
look to the heavens to see a star
always with you wherever you are
Insect King
insects that fly
and insects that sting
all of the insects
led by a king
as strong as a demon
but as small as an ant
the insects will go
wherever you can't
they're armed with a poison
and they present fear
they can rip through your skin
invisibly clear
so the next time you meet
a small insect king
remember the poison
and kill the damn thing.
Rain of Fire
spin in a circle
while laughing out loud
confide in the sinners
to make lovers proud
firey raindrops
that fall to your skin
the angels aren't happy
not like satan's kin
they dance in the shadows
and hide from the light
for the angel of mercy
is a child of night
Scent of a Rose
the sound of her name
is a rose that smells sweet
she speaks with no words
and she walks without feet
her eyes deep with passion
as they stare into mine
she floats in my dreams
like an angel so kind
she whispers few words
yet there's many i hear
she's the scent of a rose
that i hold to so dear
Broken Hearted
broken hearted people
in all their broken ways
hiding all their feelings
wasting all their days
rise above the empty
let your spirit fly
higher than an angel
in the brightest sky
Corner Store
one more time i'll run
along down to the cornerstore
one more life i'll lead
until that life
i need no more
i'll never see you
but i'll die in your arms
gold-plated clovers
and fairy charms
Corpse
like the corpse that you are
i've taken your life
by shedding no tears
you bloodied my knife
i run in a distance
to the deep of the earth
where you ruined the world
on the day of your birth
but now you are gone
and the world is all bright
by killing the darkness
we are born into light
Flowers of the Dead
soft said words unspoken
now my heart is broken
say what you never said to me
smile now but still i'm sad
empty space for the love i had
filled with pain that you
will never know
float away to a sea of black
we will follow and never come back
send a flower to me when you go
Hate
i hate to live
i love to die
i'd watch the angels
pass me by
i won't see heaven
yet all the above
i wouldn't feel anger
i would only feel love
He
will he fall unto his death?
to be followed by his children
will he cry about his past
or live around his future
he alone can set his goals
he alone will pay the toll
if he fights he might succeed
in this life he doesn't need
Hypocrite Son
my father has told me
to forget and forgive
but he won't forgive me
for as long as he lives
my friends havebeen punished
for the wrongs they have done
yet he won't be happy
until he has won
he steals and he lies
while i'm sworn to truth
he's made my life hell
throughout my whole youth
Mirror World
reversing the image
of a word so untrue
a mirror will reflect
a more gentle you
opposed to what
the others may see
the mirror shines light
in the darkness of "me"
an earth which is dying
with ashes and stryfe
yet the mirror shows a planet
full of flowers and life
the famished and hungry
of the world may look in
to find a great feast
for themselves and their kin
the wars will all stop
the bloodshed will end
a man with all enemies
will now have all friends
diseases all die
as a cure is released
the mirror knows a world
that is happy
and pleased
Orphan Boy
forgotten thoughts
at once misleading
memories
on which hate was feeding
never lost
but forced away
to the darkest corner
of the mind to stay
forget me now
as your chid so dear
i had loved you once
with nothing to fear
but now your dream
is as plain as can be
you wanted your family
but you didn't want me
Mother Ocean
a young boy stands
by the edge of a vast ocean
waves crash on the beach
reaching out to him in silence
pulling him closer
he stares in deep thought
remembering his past
dreaming of his future
as the sun falls
and moonlight fills the heavens
the boy drifts to sleep on the soft sand
the shoreline then grows
reaching toward the boy
devouring him in his dreams
with eyes still heavy from sleep
the boy awakes to find himself
floating on a cushion of water
far from any sight of land
he begins to plea for his life
afraid of the ocean's power
but as the time passes
his sorrow turns to glee
realizing the ocean is caring for him
carrying him along
as if he and the great ocean were one
now
in the loving arms of the ocean
the boy dreams again
becoming closer
and closer
to his new mother
mother ocean
Myself
take a breathe
take your time
there is no need
to be so blind
if you still need me
then why did you sell me?
i'll walk away
and stand alone
simple nightmare
pull me behind
my tear stained pillow
that asn't so kind
if you still love me
then why did you kill me?
i'll run away
and stay by myself
Pocket Full of Dreams
reach into your pocket
to look at all your dreams
some of them are lonely
others come in teams
a few of them are scary
yet really aren't that bad
two or three are hateful
they really make you sad
most of them are happy
with smiles all around
these are the one's
you love and need
to keep you on the ground
Remember Everything
time to walk away
time to say goodbye
i was happy when
i had learned to fly
yet now i'm lonely
and you are glad
forgotten lifetime
of being sad
reach up to the stars
you can touch the sun
remember everything
when it's said and done
you've spent a lifetime
running free
remember everything
forget me
Shadow Man
deep, dark stranger
who lives by my side
follows me daily
and knows when i've lied
he mimmicks my words
and is led by my steps
for all of my life
behind me he's crept
stay with me always
till the day that i die
yet even that day
beside me he will lie
She
she lays in the dark
of my crucified mind
put down by others
but to me she's so kind
she's done nothing wrong
yet they all mock and stare
she's always been hated
by those i thought cared
she's been there for me
in dark and in light
while others are there
just when they are right
i need a great friend
in who i can confide
they can all run from her
but i won't let her hide
she will always be
so close to my heart
even when they try
to pull us apart
You
i will follow you
till the end of time
the end of earth and space
just to smell
your hair of roses
to see your loving face
may heaven look upon us
give us strength to fly
you are my song of angels
without you i would die
Song of Angels
i will follow you
till the end of time
the end of earth and space
just to smell
your hair of roses
to see your loving face
may heaven look upon us
give us strength to fly
you are my song of angels
without you i would die
Release
truly you
can see the pain
in my eyes
the dying flame
my heart beats shallow
yet still i wait
for the spirits around me
to reveal my fate
release me now
from your world
so black
i will slip away
i will never come back
for better or worse
we may never know
but if my time were now
i would be ready to go
Father
paper man
made of clay
comes and goes
but never stays
perfect image
of a father
for me
someone i
don't want to be
Scapegoat
friends will come
and friends will go
the stories are all the same
he said she said
bullets fly
i'm the first they blame
please just go
and fuck yourself
they will follow in your lead
perhaps a total refocus on life
is desperately what you need
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it's been said
there's more to life than this
show me, show me
got an angel
sitting on my shoulder
she is
the world to me
pain in life
comes strong
as a soldier
she is
everything I need
loving voice
soft as a whisper
her love
sets me free
til the end
always getting stronger
my angel
is all that I need
Who Am I?
she walks along
the beach at night
fog rolls in
who am I?
paper men
man of clay
takes a life
without shame
she dreams about
another life
full of love
for her and I
but they won't let
the light shine through walls
it won't break us
down this time
who am I to fill those dreams
who am I to cast out the demons
I Learned
I learned a lot
from myself today
learned to tell
another lie
all the dreams
fading memories
left unused
until they die
toss away the ones
I led astray
feed them answers
until they're right
found myself upon
a shelf today
given up without
a fight
I Found Love
it wasn't under the bed
or in the closet
it wasn't in the walls
or in a crack in the floor
not found in the dark
nor in the light
it wasn't in the narcotics
that filled my viens
and made me spin
nor in the needles of desire
that once pierced my skin
it was unseen...
yet felt...
now I've found it
it was here all along
chained inside
but she set it free
it was her that set me free
untainted...
uncontrolled...
I have found what every
person on earth is
searching for, yet has
never found
the treasure is her...
with her
I am sucessfull
with her
I have found it
I found love.