Everyday is Exactly the Same

WhisperedgoodbyeandshegotonaplaneNevertoreturnagainButalwaysinmyheart

    *Sakura*

    I peeked out the window real late at night. I hid under our summer sheets near the closet so Katsuya wouldn’t see me through the window. I feared him every second. Even when he was sober he was a dangerous man. But his drunkenness, that’s what I feared the most. Katsu-kun would beat like a dog and then claim he never touched me when he was sober again. On the surface, Katsuya and I were the perfect couple. But we fought constantly. He even rapes me every night when he is drunk.

    Why did I date Katsuya in the first place? After Sasuke-kun left, I was heart-broken. Even though Katsuya was worse than Naruto at the time, he and Naruto comforted me. In time, I realized that Katsu-kun was just like Sasuke-kun and that’s what attracted me at to him. Naruto and I often argued about me new closeness to him. Naruto told me countless of times that this was a bad idea and I would suffer greatly for it. I told him he was just jealous and Katsuya was more than what he would ever become. Now, I wish I had never said that. Because now I see Katsu-kun for his true nature. I live in fear everyday.

    Then, I saw a figure swaying closer. My heart raced in terror. Katsu-kun was home now. I knew to stay away from him when he was drunk. When he was drunk, Katsuya was a different person. One time when he was drunk after an argument, Katsu-kun came upstairs to our room, yanked me out of bed, and threw me to the ground. I pushed myself to sit up in pain. When I opened my eyes and saw him, Katsuya’s eyes were blood red and glassy. Soon, we were fighting.

    “All right, bitch!!!! Tell me the truth! You’ve been with another man, haven’t you? HAVEN’T YOU!!!” he slurred out. “I don’t know what you are talking about!” I yelled back. “DON’T LIE TO ME YOU WHORE!!!” Katsuya yelled. “I KNOW WHEN YOU’RE LYING!!!” “I’ve been faithful to you for three whole years!!!” I cried out. “Why would I cheat on you now?” “LIAR!!!” Katsuya screamed. Then he threw a bottle of sake at me. I ducked quickly. Katsuya stepped closer and I crawled away as fast as I could. I was finally able to stand up and run. But, he began to chase me around the house. “GET BACK HERE, YOU SLUT!!!” Katsu-kun yelled. Then he grabbed me by the shoulder, pulled me down, and beat me until I was out cold. He was more advanced into skills than I was. Katsu-kun could pin his prey down as long as he liked and beat them to death. The last thing he to me before I fainted was, “Stupid whore!”

    Why do I stay with him? I love him and I want to save him from his self-destruction. Where others see a monster, I see a man begging for help. Naruto still tries to help me, but I try to keep him away from Katsuya because I don’t want him to die. Naruto almost died to protect me from Katsu-kun. I just can’t have him risk his life again. I just can’t! I would never forgive myself if either of them died.

    “SAKURA!!!!” Katsuya yelled from downstairs. I kept silent and still. Maybe he won’t find me. The footsteps grew louder and louder. I grabbed my dragger and held it close. I hate to use it on him but it’s going to be him or me tonight. I refuse for it to be me. Then, the footsteps stopped. “SAKURA!!!” he yelled again. “COME DOWN HERE NOW!!!!” I won’t go down there; I’m not getting beaten tonight. “IF YOU DON’T COME DOWN, I’LL GO UP THERE!!!” he slurred out. I clinched the dragger tightly. Here he comes! I heard him thumping loudly up the stairs. I just had to lie still and then ambush him.

    But then, it all stopped. I froze. What was going on? I slowly crawled out from the sheet… only to find him standing over me. How did he get up the stairs unheard by me? He was too drunk to use any skills to do so. Now, I was terrified to move. Katsu-kun just laughed and beat me repeatedly with the sake bottle. All I kept do was beg for mercy and try to duck. My love just laughed and kept beating me. I finally blacked out again. This is how most of our nights together end.