What? Me?

Since you asked.... (Figuratively, of course). Well, I'm 18, turning 19 on December 9th of this year (2001). I just graduated from boarding school, which I went to voluntarily, on June 3rd of this year. My interests are theater,  which I am going to college for and leave at the end of August, music (listening, not smart enough to make it), poetry / poetry writing (though this works better when I'm in an extreme mood and so may never be posted here or anywhere at all) that some people like and most can relate to, fiction/fanfiction writing and reading.

I have also recently fallen in love with my new laptop, a refurbished Dell Inspiron 8000, am an anime nut, am way too into computers (even though I started this page using MS front page, but that was a time constraint thing). Or at least I was until I left school. Last summer I was in San Luis Potosi for seven weeks immersed in the culture and food and I loved it. The summer prior that I worked at Blockbuster Video and had such a kick ass time it wasn't even funny, and for two or three summers before that I slaved away at this youth program in my church that soured me on the organized religion thing beyond words.

(Or perhaps it would have soured me beyond words if I weren't a writer.)

Like the quote on the index said, 'I'm anytheistic, whatever works works.' I like to apply this in as much of life as I can. (Being an interracial mutt doesn't hurt too much in that department either. *I only call myself mutt on interesting days, normally I'm just maladjusted and weird.) I don't believe in organized worship, and I frankly don't care how many gods there are or aren't. I think there is something out there, I just don't have the foggiest clue, currently, as to what or who that power is.

I believe in some of the basic beliefs of Wiccans and other such 'pagan' religions. (I use the term loosely. I know some so called 'pagans' that are closer to the Judao-Christian ideals than ministers or pastors.) I also understand and accept some of the founding beliefs of the Christian and Catholic religions. (For instance, whether this is relevant or not, I don't think that some priests should be married. If the intensity level required of them is higher than maintainable with any other concerns, I believe that the holy interpreter or representative or whatever should give up the other concerns in favor of their so-called life's work.)

I believe in the ability to see the future, and do it quite regularly. That might just have to do with being a woman, though. I've never met a male psychic or prognastor that got good, reliable, consistent results. This is not to say that they don't exist. I just haven't met them, or come into any kind of contact with them. I also recognize the pain and the burden that comes along with seeing the future or knowing future events. I am not too big on current events for this reason. If you read something that gives you a premonition and you call the police and they ask you how the hell you know what you know, what do you say, 'I was reading the paper and the image of this guy getting killed just came to my mind?' Do you know how... ridiculed and berated and disregarded you'd be treated? So you're trapped with this vision of some horrific event (I had nightmares about the Oklahoma City bombing for two months until it happened, and then I ended up not being able to eat for a while) and no one listens to or believes you! Now... how happy does that make you feel? I believe in the Tarot... in love at first sight... but I can't be sure if I believe in the Ouiji bit until I actually try one.

For all I know that might be better than all these damn dreams I get.

Uh... is that enough rambling for now?

::Muses confer.:: "Quotes," they say together.

Ah... you liked those, did you?

Then,  as I promised, here are some more.

"How 'bout this: You couldn't repulse me more if you were made out of equal parts of shit and maggots!" -- Rachel, 'Disturbing Behavior'

" ' I will not watch more than four hours of anime a day, I will not glue the playstation controller to my hands anymore.... I will look at the sun without the benefit of my blinds at least once a day' ~my new mantra~ or so they tried to tell me."

 "I'm just not black enough for my dad's half of the family, not white enough for my mom's and I'm just not as straight as I should be."

 "I'm too dark to be white and too pale to be black, but I heard that the pedigree races are getting red eyes anyway, so I'm fine with it."

"I love you more than yesterday but less than tomorrow."

"Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life." --Terry Pratchett.

"... I will face my fear... and it will pass through me... and when it's gone there will be nothing... only I will remain..."

"You belong to your time. And I was bred to my destiny. Even if I were to go back and choose, I would change nothing."

"Do not count a human dead until you've seen his body. And even then, you can make a mistake."

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