A Thousand Words.
by Allison K. East.
 
Note: I came up with this story at 1:30 in the morning after watching
the 1st season Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode "Angel." That
lovely poignant moment where Buffy and Angel stare at each other after
Darla is slayed... That and listening to the Savage Garden song, A
Thousand Words.
 
You could resurrect a thousand words to deceive him more and more.
A thousand words will gave the reasons why I don't need you
anymore.
It was over. She was safe. Darla had been turned to dust and all was
right with the world. Well, almost. There were still vampires out there
that needed to be slayed, and she was the Slayer. And there was a vampire
just standing in front of her.
Not just any vampire. A good vampire, if there was such a thing. Giles
didn't think so. Xander certainly didn't think so. Did she? Did she
believe Angel's story about a Romany Gypsy curse? It sounded so
unbelievable...but then again, nothing in her life sounded believable.
Vampires, demons, living on the Hellmouth, that was her lot in life now.
We stumble in a tangled web...
Her life. Angel just saved her life. Just like he saved her the other
night, when the Three ambushed her on her way home from the Bronze. The
night he stayed in her room. The night before she found out the truth.
That he was a vampire. The night before they kissed for the first time.
Time manipulates your heart Preconceptions torn apart
Begin to doubt my state of mind.
Everything changed in that moment. She had the most memorable kiss that
seemed to last forever...and the truth reared its ugly head. Literally.
Was that only last night? So much had happened since then. The horror and
betrayal of finding out what Angel was really was. The sick feeling in her
gut when she realised that she would have to kill him. The realisation
that she still loved him. The shock of seeing him standing over her
mother, of believing that he had been feeding off of her. The guilt of
feeling that it was her fault for inviting him into her home. The
determination in her decision to face him and bring him down. The
uncertainty when she actually saw him face to face.
She was going to do it. She really believed that...up until the point
she saw him. Oh he taunted her. Told her how bad he was. That he was just
an animal. Goaded her into firing the crossbow, that first shot that went
wide. Then he told her his story.
His story about his killing his family, their friends and family. He
told her about killing a young girl, like her...who was a favourite
amongst her clan. Her Gypsy clan. Then the Gypsies' cursed him by giving
him a soul...and making him remember every soul he killed or destroyed.
Making him remember them in with remorse.
I see the truth inside your eyes...
She didn't believe him at first. She couldn't. But he said that he
hadn't fed off another living human since then...and eventually she
believed him. She put down her crossbow and offered her neck to him. Why
she did not know. To test him? To tempt him?
He didn't rise to the bait. He couldn't. Like she said, it wasn't easy
killing someone you care about. And he cared about her. He loved her,
according to that vampire bitch, Darla. Wasn't there a saying 'Hell hath
no fury like a woman scorned'? Well that goes double for a vampire
scorned. It seemed that Darla was the vampire 'made' Angel, and they
shared rather a long-term relationship...several generations before Angel
was 'cursed' with his soul and left her.
The Willow distracted her by calling out, and the fight followed; and
Angel killed Darla before Darla could kill her. Angel, who truly was a
good vampire. Angel who saved her life, who wouldn't feed off her even
when she offered. Angel, who loved her... But did she love him? Could she?
Could the Slayer love a vampire?
I may perplex, but I'm not blind.
All these thoughts and more were swirling through her mind in that long
moment as she stared into Angel's eyes. And there was only one thing she
was certain of then...the same was going on in his mind too. Then he left,
a thousand words left unsaid between them. |