i have the cutest cousins *ever*. that's a factual statement. we just spent a day with family in clarksville... the only portion of my family with whom i can visit and not count down hours until we leave. there's my christmas spirit! now we're home and it'll be just mom, dad, steven and me for christmas. i'm not used to celebrating without lots of family but i'm sure the newfound quiet will be lovely.
so, if anyone wants a oak ridge wildcats xmas ornament, for god's sake buy one from me!! tara and i went all over briarcliff and people kept saying "i don't think i could use that." what's the deal, do they not have a christmas tree? i mean, i can understand the Jewish population of oak ridge, but i wasn't trying to sell to oren or katie! honestly. that and a visit to wal-mart to round up presents for my mother and brother and tara's pets were enough to completely kill any enthusiasm I ever had about this holiday. but a girl's night later, i'm better.
i think it's family time again. merry christmas!!
12/19/02 5:42PM
*yeah* i'm going to naimun!!!!
12/18/02 5:15PM
lalala... i'm slipping. i got up at 7 30 this morning and just barely remembered my backpack. actually i couldn't find it and almost started crying. somehow got through the day and passed a quiz and lived through a show (but forgot the name of the song and the movie that it was from during my intro bit...) and now i'm sitting here, perfectly aware that i have so many other things to do but with no desire to get started.
mother's making gingerbread. mmmm...
i'm hanging white xmas lights in my room but i can't figure out how to make it look right. it's so frustrating.
oh, and i have a rehearsal tonight for a show that's on friday that i'm running sound for and i've never even seen. how exciting, really. i need a holiday. *why* can't i study?? ::sigh::
yeah my thoughts are disconnected today. i'm rather getting used to it.
12/17/02 10:40PM
i'm sure i'll eventually edit that last rant. but as it is i'm still quite bitter. this is not helped by the fact that i don't have the patience to figure out how to html the angry music i wanted to put up. yes, html is a verb. deal with it. argh...
original rant removed.... this space available
12/15/02 8:34 PM
what an interesting show... on little or no sleep i actually managed to get through it fairly well until i just stopped dancing in the middle of the clockwork dance. I really and truly just stopped and stood there. and then kinda looked around wondering where i was. and then i picked up the dance. it seemed like a million years but was probably more like three or four counts. I've never done that before... weird.
monday i have my first-ever rehearsal for something playhouse that doesn't involve me wearing black and skulking around backstage. how very exciting. of course... it is a jp show. and after androcles, i swore that i would never do a jp show ever ever again. hopefully it will be better with reggie directing. lucas let those kids walk all over him and it made me want to cry.
*yeah* for finishing gov school apps!! now i'll just sit back and wait about six months before i'll know what i'm doing this summer. i'm so proud of myself. now for the suspense part....
i would just like to thank tony/brandon of the clarence brown... wait, where am i? and that is all
12/15/02 4:02AM
so i went onstage with a curler in my hair tonight. thank you, i was a bit hurried and i forgot. i was told it was not that noticable but it was bright yellow... hm. i think they were just trying to make me feel better. so the curler joined the sweet-n-low in my leotard... what? i didn't have anywhere else to put it!
i'm writing gov school essays. so far, i haven't started, but i managed to take two quizzes, this
i don't think that will impress them much but i just keep getting sidetracked! i should start actually typing words. but the questions are so difficult... i don't know what they want to hear. definitely not that the only reason i'm applying is beacuse it's free and at a college and will look splendid on any resume. i would, however, love to write a 200 word essay on how they should accept me because i'm intelligent, precocious, and beautifully discontent. like christina ricci. that'll work well.
ANYWAYS. the show tonight was full of little messups but they were mostly just funny and the only one involving me was that durn curler.
i wish i'd stayed for the cast party but i did not. i went to applebees instead. i guess i thought that that would be more enjoyable but now i regret it. rdt is kind of like family, and i shouldn't have skipped out. i wonder what i missed. *sigh*
12/14/02 1:14AM
*yeah* karaoke!! how fun was *that*!! happy bday sandra! (but johnny said it best.)
12/12/02 11:28PM
some people need to grow up, and learn to not only control themselves, but to be much less hypocritical. no names are needed here. said person will recognize his or her idiotic and immature self. thank you.
12/12/02 11:19PM
tonight, we had the most successful prank in all of rdt history. i must give some of the credit to tony for giving me the initial idea, but the bulk of it was my baby. i am so very proud. people loved it!! and laughed for five and seven minutes!! and went along with it!! and i got praise!! ::happy dance:: i don't care to explain it right now beacuse it would take too long to do a good job and i've a school show in the morning, but i will post pictures. good ones. until then... RDT THIS WEEKEND saturday at 8, sunday at 3, both times PM, both at the playhouse. come see me flirt shamelessly with all the boys and john.
incidentally, i auditioned for little women on a whim, because i was preparing for a rehearsal and had curlers in my hair and i really just wanted to show them to reggie. but he was in auditions, so to show him i had to fill out the form. i got a party guest... how exciting, right? lol. i'm actually excited though because i've never *been in* a show at the playhouse, and i could hardly expect to get a real character with my horrid audition. i get to be on stage!!
sometimes i wonder why i stay behind the curtain and say pay no attention to me.
12/11/02 11:34PM
it's kinda been a while. That's because i ran into some snags with that governor's school application thing (all three of them...) and then i entered tech week. So now i can be found at the playhouse for at least 23 of the 24 hours of the day, with tight corkscrew curls, trying to win the love of georgie porgie. or trying to build a clock, depending on which act it is. you would understand if you saw it.
just to give you a small sampling of the anomaly which is bruce, i will describe a scene. the background will make no sense but here it is: barnaby is breaking the toys and then realizes he is a bad person and cries and the butterfly princess fairy-like thing fixes them all and then jeremy and sara get married. ANYWAYS first, we were told to "die on the parimeter." Fine. We'll control our last moments as living toys and fall so that the princess has enough room to dance. Then he tells megan to just wave her wand in a few more "there's no place like home"-s. then he just starts randomly dancing around through the toys, narrating from backstage, and calling random words, such as "CLUMP!!!" i think you may have to be there. but this show is quite an entertaining experience. i can only hope the audience feels the same way.
tomorrow is the traditional day to pull a prank. it will be my first prank without rachel behind it and DAMMIT it's going to be a good one. but i can't tell you what it is. it's a secret.
i would, by the way, just like to share that the combined studies teachers have crossed the line. they have asked us questions on a quiz that truly were not in the book. to find the answers, you had to go look up mythical figures in the big dictionary. that's IT.
my hair is curly and stuff. damn well better be, because there were thirty-six curlers in my hair for three hours. i just typed thirty sex. what a freudian slip. my bad. it's time to go to bed, or something.
i think i take internet quizzes just to see the pictures and read the descriptions at the end. they make me smile, even if they tell me nothing about myself (excuse my innocence... who *is* bettie page?)
12/4/02 9:42PM
after all the seriousness, or at least attempted seriousness, of my last update, let's have some fun. feeling sacrilegious yet? oh, you will, you will... my favorite was that hot little elf costume. but it's tied with the mistletoe that can be hung at the top of the cross. i'm not a bad person, really. i mean, i felt guilty the whole time i was playing, especially with the diaper and the pacifier. not that that stopped me...
i think katie should go to this site. jewie jewie jewie... (no offense meant to those who actually are Jewish)
12/4/02 8:57PM
everyone needs to go outside and spin around and pray to the merciful god(s) that it snows tomorrow. of course, i wouldn't get out of school because Mr. Green would hold classes if the building had burnt down and we were all sitting on the ash-covered ground amidst remnants of whiteboards. but no matter, i want it to snow anyways. it's just so pretty. and if for some amazing chance we didn't have school, i wouldn't have to turn in my application which i have not completed. i don't know why it's so durn hard for me!
anyways, we have our first full run-through tomorrow. which should be *great* being as we know about 43% of the second act. but on that topic ::plug, plug:: everyone should come see Babes in Toyland, at the playhouse December 14th and 15th, at 8 on saturday and 3 on sunday. those times are PM, for you people who can't figure that out. and i'd be more than happy to sell anyone tickets. ::end plug::
so, i was taking down my bulletin board today. my huge one. this thing is fifteen or twenty square feet, and it's stuffed full of pictures. or it was. they were all such old pictures, from williamsburg and my first summer at tip. i felt like i was holding on to the past. and as much as i hate the chance that i might forget the wonderful fun i have had (and i need to remember that when i'm complaining that my life sucks), the pictures must come down if i'm to move on from that time period. because i have to move on. the people i used to be friends with... i don't even know what happened to them. some of my "really good friends" i haven't seen or spoken to in upwards of six months. so i had to take the pictures down and accept that i can't ever have the spirit of our eighth grade class back... and that was a while ago. i have new pictures to put up but i don't know if i have the heart to replace the old ones. i may just take down the bulletin board altogether and hang pictures and whatnot. framed pictures. or show posters. there's an idea... a room that's *not* entirely decorated with brazenly colorful pictures overlaid with movie ticket stubs, mardi gras necklaces, and christmas ornaments that say "joy". well, the ornaments may go back up. my name makes me happy...
but basically what i'm saying is that i violently cleaned house today... i ripped the thumbtacks out and threw the pictures recklessly into a pile, because i knew if i didn't attack the job i'd stop halfway through and start looking at the pictures, and then i'd think about how used to them i am, and then i'd never, ever move on. of course, once they were all down, i stacked them neatly because i don't want to fold, bend, mutilate or tear my memories.
i don't tend to do well with change, but it happens whether i can "do well" with it or not. so my picture removal was just my acceptance of that. next i should go through all the little cluttery items that i have out and evaluate whether i *really* need to keep things like a little pewter horse that i got in my horse phase, for selling the most girl scout cookies or something. (yes, i was a girl scout. yes, it's funny. no, you can't laugh)
then i turned the lights off and sat in my room and listened to "Songs for a New World", by Jason Robert Brown, which you should really seek out if you haven't heard it before. i just sat on my floor in the dark and shivered because my parents don't turn the heat on and sang along. and then i felt better. i recommend that method to anyone.
so really, i'm quite proud of myself for finally figuring that when an era has come to an end, it's over. and it doesn't come back. such a simple concept... and i finally understand!
that was quite a bit of rambling. i'm rather surprised at myself. and i was thinking i would try to keep from just mindlessly spilling my guts on the internet... yeah right. there's something comforting about talking to a webpage and knowing that someone, someone, will read it.
on an entirely different note... i *like* the book we're reading in combined studies!! how strange is that? of course, now i've probably jinxed it and i'll hate it tomorrow but what can you do?
was that enough of an update for you, jessica?
12/3/02 9:46PM
essay test #3, done. only two more. but i forgot to dress for this one... and i had a luther question too!! how sad!! (those of you not in combined studies may not understand what i mean. just think about dr luther...)
anyways, supermatt just made me quite happy: tuanomsoc: dude you are now Kid Awesome. i dub thee so. wow... i feel so special... i think that may have made my day. yey!
how bout some optimism because i'm in such a good mood.
second link is for all you aspiring hockey fans out there who just don't know it yet. want to fit in at the games, between the beer-guzzling painted-up middle-aged guy on your left, and the divorced bleach-blond wannabe-feminist mother of three on your right? suuure you do. learn the ice bears cheers! *yeah* you want to.
and now it's essay test studying time, yes yes it is. i plan on studying for a full fourteen seconds.
12/01/02 10:12PM
i'm trying to study for an essay test...lots of outline-y goodness. but i got sidetracked and this is why. word for word, from my outline #13. (in case you wonder, the question was "Explain how syncretism was a help and a hindrance to Christianity in its early history. Give examples to illustrate each aspect. -- Luther") from paragraph two, point three, detail E:
Women had a large role in Gnosticism because Mary Magdalene and Jesus were tight
i kid you not. the sad part is, if i put that in an essay, luther will accept it. hm. i've never used the words "tight" and "Jesus" in a sentence together before. mentioned it to cush and he says "Prish dies tomorrow" so i suppose prish is the culprit. damn asians...
12/1/02 9:22PM
i am officially a theatre geek. it's grand. i saw sound of music twice today... once w/jalopie and once with my mother, to sing along. it's painful to watch, because sound is so horrible and the sets grind and moan similar to what you'd expect to emit from a torture chamber. the captain came out of his house during scene... ahh, two or three, and the following conversation ensued:
me: does the captain know his house is two different colors?
joan: does the captain know his house looks like Snape's potions basement?
johnny: does the captain know his staircase doesn't line up with his landing?
needless to say, the audience members surrounding us adored us greatly. yup. my mother and i played a game we termed Spot Brian The Hinman. The point was to find brian as he shifted the set pieces, disguised in black but not quite enough. the slicked-back hair was distictive.
we all crashed applebees and it was like h2$ days... ::sigh:: and then katie was a jew and johnny talked too loud and joan got googly eyes talking about chris and i took her car keys and that was an evening. lovely, it was.
12/1/02 10:14AM
i *was* doing my homework but then i got distracted
