so my backyard is all white and snowy and icy and Gorgeous, so i have officially given up chocolate for lent AND i'm gonna go see The Passion of the Christ, and we can call the snow miracle thing even. if you'll excuse me, i have some snow angels to make.
25 February 2004 1710
this just in:
ANDERSON TN-CAMPBELL TN-CLAIBORNE TN-GRAINGER TN-HAMBLEN TN- JEFFERSON TN-KNOX TN-LOUDON TN-MORGAN TN-NORTH SEVIER TN- NORTHWEST COCKE TN-NW BLOUNT TN-ROANE TN-SCOTT TN-UNION TN- 336 PM EST WED FEB 25 2004
... WINTER STORM WATCH IS CANCELLED... ... WINTER STORM WARNING IN EFFECT FROM 12 AM (11 PM CST) TO 4 PM EST (3 PM CST) THURSDAY...
THE WINTER STORM WATCH IS CANCELLED AND HAS BEEN UPGRADED TO A HEAVY SNOW WARNING.
A MIXTURE OF RAIN... SLEET... AND SNOW WILL BEGIN AFTER MIDNIGHT TONIGHT... THEN CHANGE OVER TO ALL SNOW EARLY THURSDAY MORNING. TOTAL SNOW ACCUMULATIONS OF 4 TO 8 INCHES ARE EXPECTED BY EARLY THURSDAY AFTERNOON. SINCE A HEAVY WET SNOWFALL IS ANTICIPATED... THE SNOW ACCUMULATIONS MAY DOWN TREES AND POWER LINES.
CONDITIONS CAN DETERIORATE RAPIDLY IN WINTER WEATHER SITUATIONS, SLOW DOWN AND ALLOW EXTRA TIME WHEN TRAVELLING. PRACTICE YOUR WINTER SAFETY RULES, KEEP AN EXTRA FLASHLIGHT, FOOD, AND WATER IN YOUR CAR IN CASE OF EMERGENCY.
if this follows through, i will be completely convinced that there is, in fact, a God, and i might even give something up for Lent. you hear that big guy? that's definitely a bribe. take it, you know you want to.
24 February 2004 1608
yeah for mardi gras, the day of the year devoted to getting 40 days' worth of sin and temptation and cravings out of your system. lovely day.
i have 18 days until spring break and then another 23 before i get to go play with katie and maybe supermatt. yeyyyyy. i'm so very excited. katie's awesome and i know the Supermatt Tour of Duke won't be anything less than spectacular.
oh man everyone go watch this. an "interesting view on how the world will end," indeed. i didn't stop saying "wtf mate!" for like two weeks after i saw it. i don't think the usc kids have stopped yet. they're just cool like that. ;-)
you know what i love? the pirates of the caribbean. and every movie johnny depp has Ever been in. i watched blow, that one about cocaine, because he was in it. and liked it, too, though he does get a bit grungy on towards the end there and it's quite tragic and it's a really really really good anti-coke commercial. forget all those "my anti-drug: parents" or whatever commercials... just show 'em this movie. it'll scare them straight. but... what was i talking about. oh! i'm going to go watch the pirates of the caribbean. be jealous of me, it's perfectly understandable.
23 February 2004 2209
in an unprecidented THIRD post of the day, i'm back to say a few things.... cryptically. (because i know that infuriates you, dear surrogate sister.)
it's not me anymore. and that's good because ... i never would have caused him anything but pain. and i adore him, really i do, i just never could date him. because that would have caused him pain too and i don't think he ever understood that. but it's not me anymore and suddenly i feel less loved and less wanted than i have all day, or ... in a long time. and with my ups and down down DOWNS recently, that's saying something. i saw it coming, and i definitely deserved it. i never did anything for him. and yet i selfishly still want it to be like it always was, with him just ... there. in case. i can't have it like that. no one should ever do that to another human being. but now i ... i'm going to miss him. it'll be strange without him. i haven't had to face the world like that .... yet. and so i'm feeling a bit lost and confused tonight.
23 February 2004 2038
oh i forgot! in other news, i'm back in style at the playhouse, apparently. i'm "the sound girl" again. i was actually called that twice today. so we'll see how it goes. i'm not holding my breath.
23 February 2004 2015
ahhh shit. i feel like every time i've opened my mouth today i've offended someone about something. the worst part is, i haven't actually *meant* to do it at all! i mean, i do have my contrary days where it is my goal in life to be A Bitch to everyone unfortunate enough to cross my path, but i was in a pretty decent mood today and so this has all happened by accident! i don't know what it is i do... oh wait, yeah i do. i'm sarcastic about everything and i'm really picky and elitist and kinda still that whole disgusted and jealous thing left over from saturday night but applied to more people now and ... i guess i should like more people. or at least stop pointing out everyone's flaws. i went to visit wiesty-boo today and she said "who do you hate these days" and i said "????" and she said "oh don't pretend, i know you'll never be happy unless you can devote some energy into despising someone." dammit, she knows me well, because i was definitely able to launch into a list of people i Do Not Like. i'm elitist. tony says it's okay, but tony's an arrogant bastard, so i probably shouldn't judge by that. i just wish i were less antagonistic to Everyone i know. it makes me sad, and i try to fix it while attempting to pretend it doesn't matter. and it's not working for me anymore. but all the negativity and the sarcasm and the ... everything ... it's so intrinsically ME now that i don't know how to go about changing it. and THAT, i think, is the worst part.
second point. RALPH NADER ARE YOU A REPUBLICAN OR AN IDIOT?!?!?!?!?! i cannot BELIEVE this man. he KNOWS he will not win and yet he has to enter the race to - what? to take away votes from the democrat candidate, whose support will be shaky enough as it is?!? he's either getting a payoff from bushie or he has a black and rotting heart of a republican. this makes me sick. he's so selfish, or something. i can't imagine what it is about him that makes him run when he knows he has no chance of winning and all he is doing is taking away votes from actual viable candidates. excuse me, i'm going to go throw a temper tantrum now. nader, i hate you.
22 February 2004 0142
so after an... um, interesting friday night and about three hours of sleep, i got to go get my nerd on with all my asians and my smart boys and meredith at maryville college all day. w00t.... or something. i have a very sprained ankle for reasons i am hesitant to reveal, as they are quite embarrassing, so i whined about that all day. and then took great pleasure in beating cbass's and dustin's asses in a math event set up for two people, where i only had meeeee. and one of the questions was to measure the height of the laboratory shower by dropping ping pong balls, timing them, and using the d=gt^2 equation. but i couldn't reach the shower, because i'm damn short and proud, so i was doing this gimp jumping guessing timing thing and it was comical to watch. and yet i still placed second, to the Math Duo's non-placement. score one for the white girl.
tonight i spent almost 20 minutes at meredith and kile's 16th bday party. that was .... well, really not anything i wanted to spend an entire 20 minutes at, and some of the time i was talking to erin. who was trying to mother me. heh, it was comical. not that i don't appreciate some mothering now and again, it's just that she's supposed to be such a bad influence and all.... yeah.... 'tis silly. i don't know where anyone would get that idea.... love you erin dear. but then i had to get the helllll out of that party... there were shrines to kile and meredith. SHRINES. kinda like at meredith's bat mitzvah, except that it was a little more pretentious and less appropriate. cute pictures though. i think i'm three parts disgusted, one part jealous, served on the rocks with a twist of lemon.
in other news, i have no other news. oh, except that sebastian is funny funny. i heart him.
cbass626: it's scary though, bush is supported by about 50% of the people
cbass626: now, coincidentally, 50% of the people score below 1000 on their SATs
cbass626: I'd venture to say that these are the same 50%
i'd venture to say you just might be correct, sebastian. and there ends my discussion of my political tendencies, because as i stated today, i don't talk politics, i fight them. mainly beacuse i only ever do politics with kyle and mike dey and both of their points of view are so painfully righteous and bush-loving and illogical that it actually hurts me. so i fight that, though it's pointless. i just see it as my duty to attempt to stamp out or at least make known stupidity where i see it.
so my schedule for next year is going to try to kill me. it is as follows:
calc 2
sr ap english
bio 2
physics c (let's note for the record that i have NOT taken physics b)
french 5 (gahhhhhh)
pyschology ap (the shining bright spot in my schedule, the class i've been looking forward to since i was 13)
kevin asked me the other day why i'm so intent on entering college as a grad student. i laughed, but i didn't really have an answer. it's never occured to me to slack... it's not something i think of to do. at least not in my choice of courses, anyways. the WORK i do for the courses is another matter entirely and not the point at hand. i just never even considered Not accumulating as many hours of college credit as i can. so i can - what? graduate early? i don't want to. take a really really easy course load? but that's so unlike me! take lots of random classes? that's probably what i'll do. maybe that way i'll finally find something that i just Love. so that's my reason for killing myself senior year w/AP classes. i want to love pyschology. and bio. i already love econ. man, me picking a major is going to be a comical thing. good thing i don't have to worry about it for four more years. i start worrying about stuff waaaay too far in advance; case in point, this entire paragraph.
so from scioly this year i have 3 second place medals. i'm trying to decide if i like these 3 second place medals better than last year's 1 first place one. it does mean that i have a much better chance of going to state. which i really want, and not even just to put on my resume. i feel like i'm brilliant, or lucky on tests, or something, and i have no way of applying it. because i never DO anything with my IQ (which,for the record, mother won't tell me because she thinks i'd get cocky. news flash....), it just Sits there and is Admired. not exactly impressive. i was talking to the asians today and i just jokingly said "dude, they should just give me a medal for my test scores. i'll wave those psat results around, they can decorate me with blues and golds..." but i don't DESERVE anything unless i DO something. maxing out a multiple choice test isn't anything special. because, though i obviously have potential, it's so dormant. and if i went to state... i'd feel like i was USING it. otherwise, it's all just a waste. test scores.... they really mean nothing. if life was a multiple choice test, i'd do damn awesome. unfortunately it involves process and analysis and application. and *that* is what i gotta be working on. it'd kinda suck to fail at life. i wouldn't like that much.
i think that's enough rambling for now. so i shall call it A Night. sweet dreams, kids. can i call you poppets?
18 February 2004 1527
do you know that how they're hurting you is exactly how you're hurting me?
17 February 2004 1647
so i wrote this big long post about valentines day and lots of other random-y things on sunday and just now discovered that it didn't actually save. thanks, angelfucker. right.
so let's see. what's new? well, valentine's day, obviously, but i think i'm gonna just let that one go. though it was the most entertaining night i have had in quite some time. ask me sometime. if you're special i'll tell you stories. they're excellent. and that is all i will say of THAT night here.
i miss the theatre. and dance. tony asked me the other day what the heck i do anymore, and i was like.... nothing. really.... nothing. i don't feel like i do anything. i go to school and slide by doing homework in the 7 minute class change and i'm always slipping behind slightly but surviving, amazingly enough, and then i come home completely worn out with all the last-minute work i've done all day and play music in my room. and on the weekends i go out and return on sunday. i mean, there's that irc thing and the scioly thing, but basically... i do nothing. hm. something must be done about this. i suppose i could indeed go to the playhouse and ask for the sound design job for the jp show. but the way my last two sound design jobs have worked out, i don't know that i really want to do that. i think dustin got the sound job for masquers since he asked so far ahead and ragan doesn't hold a personal grudge against him and that's okay, it just kinda leaves me with nothing to do. i feel like i should be accomplishing something. almost every day i go to bed thinking, hell, i really did NOTHING today. yesterday i wrote a page of french and hung out with tara for a couple of hours and that was a major achievement. this is so ridiculous. i gotta find a new activity. or else i gotta do a better job on all the stuff i DO do, to take up more time and leave me less for... well, dicking around on the internet, for one thing. so, speaking of which, i suppose i could stop dicking around on the internet now and do a couple of day's worth of calc. or some chem. it'll be fun. yeahhhh.
11 February 2004 2235
Are you gonna live your life wonderin', standing in the back, lookin' around? Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you've grown up, or how you've missed out? Things are never gonna be the way you want. Where's it gonna get you acting serious? Things are never gonna be quite what you want. You gotta start sometime.
-- jimmy eat world, praise chorus
it's like they're trying to tell me something.
10 February 2004 2151
i'm bored. and therefore, i'm going to post naimun superlatives. lydia came up with them all while we were kinda hanging out on the side of a highway waiting for someone to come fix our bus. oh MAN, i completely forgot to talk about that! okay, so, we've been driving for about 15 minutes when the bus.... turns off. and we just kinda chill on the side of the road for about 10 minutes. and then it starts again, and promptly stops at the next hill we come to. this continues. we pull off the interstate, and then back on, for fun i guess. and then stop for an hour and a half, waiting for someone to bring us a new hose for our radiator or some such nonsense. when we get the hose, the bus works just long enough for us to get to mechanic, which was fun because there were lots of other buses and dump trucks and fire trucks and ups trucks parked waiting to be fixed and prishy and laura noticed they weren't locked so we played in those. and we made hot chocolate and gossipped about blt and all was good. but in the first 5 hours of our trip, we traveled for 40 minutes. and then our bus flew low for the rest of the way home, must have, because the total trip took us only 13 hours when it by all rights should have taken 15 or so.
we still didn't have to go to school today. good thing, too, because it would have been quite a culture shock. naimun is short but it's so intensive... i'd completely forgotten what the real world was like by the time i got home. seriously. all this not talking international politics and not having to sound intelligent and not wandering dc and not covertly using the service elevator and not having to rely solely on rite-aid or 7-11 for all our random wants and desires... it's so odd. it's like leaving TiP or governor's school, almost, but weirder because it was in the middle of a school week. and now back to the real world. i just remembered i have to do major author and history. so as for those superlatives... i'll do them later. g'nite.
10 February 2004 1200
yeahhhh it's been a long time. shhh. i've been busy. thesis paper after thesis paper, and some of them written in french, and then position paper for naimun and memorizing polymers for moreno and... blah. it's been a pretty homework intensive month. but it's cool. it just reaffirms my decision that i HAD to quit ballet, and i'm okay with that now.
so i just got back from naimun at about 2 ish this morning. that trip was so much better than last year. i was tanzania in the african union and got to debate HIV/AIDS, Charles Taylor, and the corrupt government and horrid land reforms in Zimbabwe. and being a corrupt country myself, i got to support both Charles Taylor, and Mugabe in Zimbabwe. for the record, i remembered Mugabe's name because it sounds a lot like Mugatu, the guy in Zoolander. yeah for being cultured.... hah. anyways, so i actually got involved in committee and resolutions and stuff this year, as compared to last year where ryan and i played tic tac to, hangman, and told stories. oh, and he listened to me talk about peter. which, in retrospect, makes me feel quite embarrassed and stupid. therefore, this year, i attempted to keep my hopeless crush to myself. i didn't get the boy, but i also don't feel stupid about it. so hey, it's cool. i hung out with the puerto ricans, laura and i did, on sunday night. everyone laughs about them, but they're so cool. i'm so impressed that they are fluent in two languages, and fluent enough in english to participate in a conference like naimun, where a rudimentary vocabulary and a long thought process to translate words simply will not work. and they're all so friendly! well, except niger in the AU. he was kinda an ass. but it happens. and ooooh eritrea, congo, and uganda were SO cute. and of c ourse, i don't so much know their names or have any way to keep in touch with them.... ::tear:: i actually wish i had some way to keep in touch with some of the people i met... but i don't, so i'll just hope to see them next year instead. i mean, one of the guys who was algeria this year was also in SPECPOL with me last year. of course, i still don't know his name. but it happens. but yeah so i could always see some of them again next year.
hm... what else is new.... holly owes me a favor or something... and she just woke me up calling me. but that's okay because i needed to be up, i guess, or something. totally not going to school today, and ms albert can get over it. i'm just gonna sit here in my pretty blue naimun tshirt and ashley's pajamas and try to not move as much as possible. but first i want to eat something non-international. no more of this chinese mexican italian bagels s tuff all the time. i want a damn ... hell, what *is* just plain non international? i think poptarts. let's eat poptarts. ummmm... yeah. i'm sure i have more to talk about. but i'll worry about that after i've had some nice non-cultural food. back
