Elemental Fire
Embers
Heel Beat
Insanity of Choice
Nakedness
You Left
Once More
Wanted
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Heated passion
fires die
Heart beat
Locked away
Feelings striped
you left
Can I close my eyes
Wanted
The clock is dripping
Blistering bitter scorn
Always
Waiting
I feel it hide
Burning infernal torment
If I should die before I wake
I can’t sleep
Time works against me in all things
I don’t write poetry
It’s hard to pick up the pieces
When you lay with him
Pay attention to me
Things are always changing
She is here
I would like the piece of mind
Can I borrow some change
Is it Natural
Am I doomed to dwell
Come with me to the other side
Time goes by
Shadows fall like autumn leaves
Swirling Chaos
Can you be as hope filled
Oh pen
I write to help me sleep
And in the end it all must seem
Burning
I hear you say them
Screaming confusion
There’s always a place
Bitter shadows falling down
My eyes can be a looking glass
Pain isn’t something to live with
Why do I wait for forever to come
While talking to the moon I put my arm around the sun
Driving
Darkness
Creativity is the Ability to express yourself
Stupefied
Turn turn
Cat thumping
Tears ring out in clear bell tones
Pain is just a memory of pleasure
The battle between good and evil
Dark Clouds roll away
Lies more lies
In a dream
An empty page has been said
You’re not home
I feel like screaming
Why can’t I trust you
It’s late
A time remembered
Fly my little butterfly
The pain I often hide
I heard a cry
Angel look at me
Burning spirits
Twined together
Locked
Loving
Caressing
Hands griping
Eyes clinched shut
Lips seeking touch
Franticly searching
Whatever suits their fancy
Tears falling
Tears of pleasure
Of pain
And a multitude of other emotions
Wrapped into one blissful moment
Where time has no meaning
Only each other
Their arms
their body
And the union shared
Hot breath
Sweat pouring
Exposed
Then sheathed
The scabbard flesh
The sword flame
Burning as such
Felt by both
Scorching heat
Deeper
Hotter
Fervor rising
Twisting sheets
As passions collide
The fires roaring
Burning bright
Together blazing
Bodies moving in harmony
Timed perfection of motion
The dance of flame
The peaking moment
Fevered fitful thrashings
Bodies tense
Passions played
Hot joy springs forth
From throbbing loins
Elemental fire
Into waiting pleasure
Released
Freedom found
~the end~
leaving me cold and empty
passion burned
joy spent
reality seeps in
leaving the warmth that was my world
A few short moments ago
i leave that pinnacle of pleasure behind
back to earth once more
as empty as I was before
this night like so many others
spent searching
another wasted trip
when will i learn
that without love
and with passions spent
all we're left
is embers
the fires died
~the end~
the sound of forever
together we march as one
a brotherhood like no other
We serve
We die
all for the sake of others
with this in mind
we tighten ranks
Not a group
but one strong body
for this our country
for this our pride
in a disciplined march
as the colors fly
~the end~~
inside my self
safe from you
the world
and all enemies within
locked inside
the turmoil and chaos
that I call a soul
a heart
that never beats
but throbs
with pain
here I stay
locked away
call it insanity if you will
but from my perspective
its a safer solace
than the world in which you reside
careless minds
thoughtless words
killing deeds
that is the world
that is where you dwell
but I
choose differently
My insanity of choice
~the end~
emotions raw
eyes blood shot
the tears still come
what pain is this
that leaves me bare
exposed
open
to vultures of humanity
they pick me apart
feast on my being
so vulnerable
they dine on the spirit
leave me empty
empty and alone
alone with my nakedness
~the end~
the door closed behind you
for forever
the shudder of the door frame
signals the finality of your departure
now
I reside alone
in this house of tears
more so because of your absence
why
did you leave
I say to an unanswering door
but your spirit still dwells here
I can feel it
haunting me
memories like shades
flutter before my eye
you're here
but
you left
~the end~
And have you there once more
Lying beside me in the dark
Your breath a whisper against my flesh
An ache in my heart
To have you there once more
So close but so far
To reach out a hand and touch you
To touch you but not to feel you
And my soul, a void, still aches
To have you there once more
Moonlight creeping through the window
Striking silhouette against the sheets
Blinded by your beauty I gasp
And even now my eyes still ache
To have you there once more
This sundered soul still shudders
To be that close to you
And forever's not too long to wait
To have you there once more
~the end~
A feeling
Like no other
Someone to hold
Always and forever
Wanted
A love
Someone to share
Always and forever
In an endless dream
To walk beside
To fight the demons
To share my pride
To be united
Two hearts as one
Undivided
Always and forever
Wanted
~the end~
It’s reckoning time
I’m slowly slipping
Just drifting by
Life erosion
Until we die
Our decomposing
As the sands blow by
Feel that pressure
It’s like a high
There is no cure
Its do you die
Until you do
But don’t ask me why
I’m wondering too
~the end~
Why does it always come to this
What I do is never enough
To fill my own sense of vengeance
I could do more I think
I still have questions though
When is too far not enough
When is my fire fueled by your defiance
Twisted fetal hunger
Devouring the very placenta
Through which life flows
To choke before you’re born
To die before deliverance
~the end~
I make the wrong choices
Look left instead of right
Always listening to the voices
Here it comes, Should I fight
One more time
Feel the pain
Its not mine
It’s not the same
When will I find
That cold rain
To cool this burning spirit
Always
~the end~
For a moment to come
Anticipating
But dreams come undone
Final waking moment
Hoping you will be the one
Waiting for atonement
But the dreams, they come undone
Continue on alone
This road will lead me home
When the fantasy’s forgotten
And the dreams come undone
~the end~
When I try to reveal
The pain inside
That never heals
I’ll let it ride
That’s what seals
This tomb I reside
This tomb that kills
~the end~
Twisting up my soul
Will She come … I don’t know
Will it matter if I show
The things I hide inside of me
Will she be scared
If she could only see
What darkness lies
Inside of me
~the end~
I thank the Fates for taking me
And if I see the morning light
I’ll curse them till the fall of night
~the end~
For I know that when I wake
You will be here
Is it the anticipation that keeps me up
Or is it the fear of waking
I can’t tell
I can’t sleep
~the end~
One enemy I can neither destroy or manipulate
~the end~
I merely express
With pen and paper
What my jumbled thoughts tell me
To read them is to hear me
To understand them
Is to know me
Probably better then I do
I just write them
~the end~
Of a broken shattered life
No matter how careful you are
The sharp fragments draw blood
The wounds are slow to heal
Putting it back together
Is twice as difficult
But with patience
You can reconstruct the old
With imagination
You can create a new
Either way you will need a friend
~the end~
Do you think about me
When you reach that peak
Does he see
The love I saw
When you laid with me
~the end~
You say
To me
To what I do
To what I say
To the dagger
That’s turning
By my own hand
~the end~
In this ever changing world
What was at one time
Will not always be
What has come to an end
May begin again
If we walk forward with are eyes open
We can see the changes coming
If we walk hand in hand
We can work them through
For even a gift that has been lost
Can always be given again
~the end~
Elation
Regret
Anger
Or is it fear
I feel
~the end~
That I could rely
On what I hear you say
~the end~
So I can give you a call
I’ll tell you were to meet me
When you make it here to Hell
~the end~
For us to hurt the ones we love
Or is something we do
To smite those
Who we are most vulnerable to
~the end~
In this world of insanity
Can I take a hiatus from the cold reality of life
Or maybe
Something a little more permanent
~the end~
Where all we know is do or die
Will walk this land of misery
Mirrored by the Hell inside of me
Together will walk eternally
~the end~
Life moves on
Except for me
When you’re gone
~the end~
The cold descending all around
Blowing through the empty trees
Along unhallowed ground
Exhume that with time has buried
Memories I’ve tried to forget
Unload this pain that I have carried
Let go that which I regret
~the end~
Bubbling turmoil
Why must I endure
When so many
Have crumbled before me
Why must I endure
This little death inside of me
Spawned by fear and jealousy
Why must I endure
~the end~
As my imagination has made you out to be
Can you breathe way up there
On that pedestal
Which my mind insist you ride upon
~the end~
What a cruel burden you bare
For it is your job
To give form
To these insanity’s
Which I call thoughts
Oh pen
What cruel burden you bare
~the end~
To give my mind an outlet
For the raging thoughts
On which it dwells
I sleep to help me live
To carry on with this life
At least for one more day
A truly tortured existence
I live to help me write
To give me new insight on humanities darkness
So that I might capture that evil
And expose it to the world
I write to help me sleep
~the end~
A faded, forgotten, fairy tale dream
But in the end who are we
To criticize the only means
Of which we have to communicate
~the end~
Turning
Misty words filled with half-truths
Careless hands
Callused heart
Be careful with this fragile spirit
~the end~
Those little words
But how empty they feel
In light of your actions
With a heart as cold as steal
~the end~
So loud I can’t think
You find it amusing
As you watch me sink
Into the dark
Away from light
It’s cold and stark
Within the night
Walking in nightmares
Of love and of hate
It claws and tears
Like twisting Fate
~the end~
Where darkness abides
And love can’t erase
That which fear hinds
This constant pain is torture to me
Why most I always endure
I want to run, to live, and be free
But my affliction has no cure
~the end~
Shrouding all in eternal night
With blind eyes I look around
Look to wrong look to right
Until the verdicts found
~the end~
Into the very depths of my soul
But before you can view such pain
You must say the magic words
~the end~
It’s something to relish in
For nothing is in more abundance
~the end~
When forever has left me for forever
~the end~
As I walk through this hell I have my head in the heavens
I form the clouds with my hands while standing in the sea
This is my world
Here I am king
~the end~
Insanity
Careless of thought
Reckless in life
Traveling down
Endlessly
Wrapped in chaos
Like a warm blanket
It comforts me
As I lay curled on the floor
My mind screaming in silence
It’s so quite I cant think
Retching my response to the world
And to everyday life
Spinning
Spiraling
Twisting dreams of passion
Careless love
And above all
Reckless abandon
~the end~
Dancing
The twist and twirls of shades
Sadness
Ever abundant
They feast upon there prey
And hell with no remorse
Comes down upon the soul
The twisting pain of pleasure
Divulging the final course
And laughter mocks my pain
From the neat and tidy rows
Of those who've gone before
And made the same choice
In a party of shadows
~the end~
When all you feel inside is screaming confusion
~the end~
Plastered
Stuck here on the floor
Double-vision
Dry-heaving
Stumbling through the door
Can’t see to write
The bottles block my view
They’re lined up around me
Empty
Like a row of dead soldiers
The did their job
May they rest in peace
~the end~
The pages of my life
Can I read ahead
Or are there just blank pages
Is it written as I do
Or do I follow some unknown script
Can I rely on foreshadowing
Or is there such a thing
Or is there such a thing
If I only had a pen
Then I could write you in my arms
~the end~
She’s jumping
Reminds me of your footsteps
But I know
Deep down
You’re not coming back
Hope hurts sometimes
~the end~
As they’re running down my cheek
Each one racing to reach my chin
And fall down to my feet
~the end~
An echo of joy
A reflection of peace
A longing for love
~the end~
Resides within us all
But I hope the rest of my comrades-in-arms don’t mind
If I sit the rest of this war out
~the end~
The transformation have begun
My bleak night turns to day
As I watch the rise of a new sun
The pain slowly fades
For what is done is done
And my tears abate
Today I walk my own way
At last I am at peace
So Mote it Be
~the end~
In every stinking breath
Smell the putrefied decay
Of your selfish morality
Your heart and soul belong to me
Or at least that’s what I was told
It’s all sacred till you feel lonely
Or when your bed gets cold
White knight on tainted ground
I know you feel lost
When I’m not around
But you’ll find your ways
To get along
In another place with somebody else
Whose arms you don’t belong
But it doesn’t matter does it
You’ll rationalize it somehow
It’s just a part of you fantasy
Like how you said you cared for me
You do what you have to do
To make it through the day
But damn it all to Hell
Can’t you smell that decay
Looking at your picture
I can see the innocents
I realize now that’s its just the mask
Of a cold and selfish bitch
It doesn’t matter what I do
Or even what I say
You can justify your sins
Because I’m so far away
~the end~
There’s a wealth of fantasy
Caught up in a whirlwind
Falling into a prison of our own minds
No one wants to leave
Who can afford to stay
Reality is the guard
We are the wardens
Our souls the prisoner
Will there ever be a pardon
In a dream
~the end~
To spark the need to fill
An every line that has been read
A product of that desire until
There is nothing left to say
~the end~
Big surprize
There is someone there
Behind your eyes
You’re hiding it away from me
I feel the cold reality
A new adventure just begun
Now I’ve felt it come undone
~the end~
As I move in slow motion
My god is like dreaming
Except I won’t wake up
Will I
~the end~
Is it the things you did
That fuck with me
Is it the women in my past
That makes me disbelieve
Anything you say
~the end~
You haven’t called
I’m tired
But I haven’t solved
This last little mystery
Conflict unresolved
I’m so very tired
~the end~
Some things left unsaid
Look into my eyes
Step inside my head
We are torn asunder
By grief and by pain
Now alone I begin to wonder
Will we ever meet again
Lonely souls will often travel
Great distances they roam
When the cords of sanity unravel
The turn and head towards home
~the end~
Stretch your delicate wings
Your home lies
In the springtime skies
There is no room for me
I often wonder
Down that dark road
And I know that you are watching me
Somewhere in the tranquil sea
Your light leads the way
~the end~
Will not be satisfied
By the mere passage of time
~the end~
Deep inside
It reminded me
Of a lullaby
~the end~
Why don’t you heal my blind eyes
So I can see
You soar with butterfly wings
How nice it must feel
To be set free
I’m held down now
See the chains around me
And what a heavy burden
Is this, my sanity
And how I long
To be set free
~the end~
