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Poems
This page will be updated when i can find Evilfae's poems, she has so many! But shhhh... don't tell her i'm doing this, she doesn't know *wink, wink*... -Sally strikes again
*Stay Here, With Me*
When i wake up, will the dreams ever stop?
No need to worry, at least i won't pop
Remembering them are what's scaring me
I'm crawling on the ground, i can't see
Help me find my way back to the place
Handcuff me, but tell me what's my case
All i have was taken from me when they got you
I tried my best, tried everything, what could i do?
They told me to become the person you dream, too late
Is this all at the hands of my ill tempered fate?
One thing i must say before i wake, i'll be here
These feelings are too strong for me to not hold dear
Close to my heart, is where you'll always stay
I promise my eyes will look, but i will never stray
Because you are me, and i am you, we're one in the same
I apologize if you were violently thrown in my game
Now that i've said my peace, can i take you with me?
Or will you one day want to fly, and want to be free?
I need you here, protect me from what i hate
I want you here, listen to the voices of fate
I need you here, guide me and i'll follow
I want you here, with out you i feel so hollow
Cut my hand, i hear a faded heart beat
I fall again, how could i ever compete
With her... how could you go back to her?
Was it out of spite, are you that wicked?
Trickery will get you nowhere with me
And i won't say anything, you'll see
Since we broke up, i've seen a whole new side
This one you don't even try to hide
It hurt me to walk away, but it was for the best
You let me go, that was one of my little tests
And it worked, it showed me just how much you "Care"
*dream theatre of the blind*
Crawling on the floor again
Searching for a blind friend
Singing children's nursery rhymes
While watching psychopathic mimes
Reach for your hopeless dreams
In the funhouse you'll hear only screams
Find me behind the monkey bars
I'll show you my pain, my scars
Foam bridges and the ditch
Bet you thought i'd rhyme that last line with bitch
Reoccuring dreams haunt the blind
And you're a star, one of a kind
But you don't see what i see
You're blind, and alot like me
See the shadows cross the floor
they are real and i choose the door
With the blood smeered on the front
Forgive my confessions for being blunt
Cast away, dubbed a freak
Insanity rings when you speak
Through their ears like no other
But i understand you, my brother
Carry yourself with disrespect
I'll find you, what'd you expect?
*This poem was written more recently, while i'm in my "angry" stage of life... blame it on the metal that i listen to if you must, but i can't help but give in to it either... go figure... anyways, this poem is about the creepier things in life. Everyone can see it, all you have to do is dig way back in the back of your mind and think about all those skeletons you got in your closet. When you've reached that point then you'll understand where this poem came from...
*Alone*
You're individualism has now grown, you're true self
has been shown. Can't expect me to be there when I
don't think you care. Loneliness still lingers in my
heart, we're definately too far apart. There's always
something more important you have to do. You haven't
changed, nothings new. How could you jump in and out
of my scene, and then get all mad when i say you're
mean.
You're a hypocrit, and you treat me like shit
I see the wall, with my fist, I hit
You've left me crying int he rain
I'm all alone, I've been left with my pain.
*This is a poem about how i wanted more affection from my guy, and a normal relationship... It didn't work out, so now i'm back to square one, i hate being single... but the ironic thing is nothing changed really after that realtionship, i did my own thing then, and i'm doing my own thing now, things never change... people never change...
*Star For A Day*
I don't understand this world like you
Out in the soptlight i was thrown into
But now i've removed myself from your scene
I want to be nice to you, never be mean
There's so much more to me than i let them see
You tell me to open up & that would be the key...
The key to unlock the door that has shut
This is the way i like to live, what?
Try and put yourself in my shoes
No one likes to admit it when they loose
But maybe this is what i need, to get it all out
It should unlock the door, that's what its all about
I'm too jaded to turn the knob
Instead i lash out, give up, curse & sob
I want to be who you want me to be
My make-up is running, its hard to see
I've got to staighten out, it was my fault
Except the truth, it was what i was taught
I choose my battles the road is long
I just hope this time i'm not wrong...
*This one is one of my favorites, it was written a while ago... no date was put on this one so i can't remember when i wrote it. But by the look of the pen i'd say it was my Freshman year of high school. It was about choosing whether or not to swallow your pride and say it was your fault...
*Standing On My Own*
real thoughts are hard to explain
and they're as crazy as the rain
why'd you ask me if i was still pretty?
Is it that you've always felt pity?
That i wasn't pretty enough for your perfect life
But now that i am you want me to be your wife
Kill the radio, we need to talk
If you laugh, then i'll have to walk
Away from you, my love, my everything
I don't know if i can, but its worth a try
Because i never want to see my baby cry
I wish i had money, so i could take us far away
To an island or a new city, we could leave any day
I want to give you everything, and get nothing back
Is this real love? If it is then i think i got the nack
Of how you put someone before yourself, that's it
There's really no instructions or a survival kit
So we gotta figure it out by ourselves, boy does it suck
because i seem to be doing it wrong, guess this is bad luck
Hand me that rabbits foot, i need to change this
and yes that was me who put the hole in the wall with my fist
Thought i was calm about all this, well look who's psycho now
I look to the full moon for help, and to the stars i always bow
As for the god, he seemed to have given up on this protege
And now i'm all alone, and all i wanna do is go play
Barking up the wrong tree, seems i'm not welcome here
In your all boy clubhouse, i'll walk away with each tear
In my hand, because that's where i keep them, all ten
And i'll go home and rip the head off my barbie and Ken
Because i can't play in a man's world
If each of them still look at me like a little girl
Fuck you and the high horse you rode in on
For all i care you can ride back into the dawn
I don't need you as much as you think i do
I can survive without you, that is the truth
So don't mistake me for a helpless bird with a broken wing
I can stand on my own and you already know that i can sing
With or without you, i'll always be able to breathe
So with or without you i'll always be able to leave
With a smile on my face because this is a joke
And i can always drown my problems by taking a toke
But how long will this escape from reality last?
How long can i run from the nitemare that is my past?
All i want is for you to understand me and my words
All i want is a perfect life, is that too hard to understand?
*I have no clue... really, you decide. I just cut and pasted this from my notepad, it was written more than six months ago, that i'm sure of...
*You Want Too Much*
You want me to give up my life and go with you
Into hell and see that everything they said was true
You want me to be your bride, your dead one
And ride with you staight into the hot sun
You want to show me what pain really means
by ripping me apart by my sally like seams
You want me to give up and let you take over
And never see the good, like my four-leaf clover
You want me to descend from my position in life
Just so you can have your pure hearted evil wife
You want all this, and i have no say so in it at all
Just as long as when i become an angel i'll kindly fall
You want me, want me to hate everything i see
So that one day i'll give up, drop down to one knee
You want me to do all the bad things i think about
so that when i think of god, my mind is filled with doubt
You want me to stay angry, you want me to always cry
you get happy when is say all i wanna do is die
You want me think about the people who left my life so quick
so that when i think about their gruesome death, i get sick
You want me to think that i'll never be sane
That'll give resoning to the images i see in my brain
You want me to smell the stench that emit from cemeteries
and you say "i like how she always has the crystal that she carries"
You want me to hear your laughter when i beg for you to stop
Well, you want to much! You can't have me, you can't keep me, you can't
have me, you can't keep me... keep me... away from me
*This one came to me after i woke up from a dream about five months ago. The dream was me talking to Seth (satan's son). I don't care to elaborate anymore on that subject so i'll stop right here...
*Evil*
He goes through me like i'm nothing, but i know i'm something
Cause he chose me to be the one, to see him so he can have a little fun
Know's my thoughts as i write them down, i feel him start to frown
He wants to be my little secret shh.. he wants to be my crush
And when i tell him to leave, he never does, and i greive
Tormenting my every move, when i'm in the groove
Of life and everything's great, except he fills my plate
With the fate crap, and all the promises of an evil empire
When what you really want is my soul to burn with yours in fire
Demons to play with, everyday a new hell
And to your ruler my soul you'll sell
Contradict my every word, twist it to what you like
Say you found me on a mountain during your daily hike
Don't forget to tell him i was lost without you
And that to the angels my soul was pure and true
Now i've given up, i've lost the game
And i'm the one you can now blame...
*I found this one hidden in a drawer... waaay back in the back. I needed to have it on my website because its not talking about a person in general, its about a demon. Surprise, surprise... well if you went to my Halloween page and then to my scary story, you'd be writing a lot about demons too...
Water Wall
I look towards waking up next to you
When you're sick, i'll help you through
Whatever is mine will also be yours
And i tell you your smile seems to cures... all the pain
***Sundance with me towards the sun
***When we look for problems, there will be none
***Skate with me through the stars
***We could split up and meet at mars
***Or we could explore together
***Never heavy, we're light as a feather
***Never grow up, not now, not ever
I look towards spending Halloween with you
And one day we'll have that beach house with a view
Evil cadillacs parked side by side
Motorcycles & jet skiis, everyone wants to ride
***Sundance with me towards the sun
***When we look for problems, there will be none
***Skate with me through the stars
***We could split up and meet at mars
***Or we could explore together
***Never heavy, we're light as a feather
***Never grow up, not now, not ever
Promise me you'll always be there
Tell me you love me and show me you care
Kiss me once during rainy weather
And i'll be yours now and forever
*yeah.... right, now i realize that the "water wall" poem sux, no really... i wrote it for a person who used and took advantage of me. I also wrote it when i was young and nieve. Just goes to show that you can't always expect someone to rescue you, you need to rescue yourself first. Sorry hanson, i was mislead by your smile, this poem holds no meaning to me anymore.
*Longing For Your Soul*
Look what happens when you start to believe
You'd give anything to prove yourself, even bleed
Hold out your wrists, i wanna see the scar
It's disappeared but it couldn't have gone far
Back to the point, where was i?
Oh yeah, why did you wanna die?
***Longing to lay next to you
***Wronging every was i go
***Longing to lay next to you
***But my heart says no
Overrated jealousy is a green eyed hoe
Why would you stoop to something so low?
You lied, oh how you lied, straight up in my face
I'm angry, i block out my pain by turning up the bass
That's it, i won't help, because this is too funny
You hate the light outside when its too sunny
I was a fool to think you would change
When you come at me too fast, i move outta range
Everytime I look over my shoulder, you aren't there
But you swore up and down that you did care
That was it, your last chance with me, i got all the info i need
Please don't be surprised when one day a girl will make your heart bleed
*This one i wrote while i was angry obviously, and maybe you're thinking that all my poems are depressing or angry, well i have to say something about that... You see, i don't "vent out" my feelings, i keep them all bottled up so they don't bother anyone else. Hence, the anger and sadness must come out through my art and poetry. If not, i could very well spontaneously combust into a billion pieces, you wouldn't want that now would you?
*Love Can Kiss My Ass Because She Screwed Me Over*
I fall, no one's standing below to catch me
I call, but no one's there to hear me
All alone is not a feeling you should get
Especially when you're in love with someone you met
A Long time ago, when things were cool
We were together back when i was in school
My friends tell me we don't belong together
Now i'm wondering if they're right, we're
Two birds, one is holding the other's feather
I feel like shit, and i certainly look it
When i'm so angry i just want something to hit
This isn't right, we shouldn't make each other cry
This isn't right, i wanna give up and hope i die
This isn't right, i shouldn't have told you a lie
Figured it out, we're meant to be together, but not in this life
I want a happy relationship, and i eventually want to be a wife
But not right now, i'm having too much fun
I reach for my guitar, you want the gun
Kill it, Kill everything you know
Spill it, we can go toe to toe
No more excuses, i'm simply starved for attention
All i wanted from you was a little affection
That's it really, i never would have strayed
Hell if i got that from you i would've stayed
Don't be surprised when i've got someone new on my arm
At least he would protect me, nothing could do me harm
Not right now, i'm having too much fun
I reach for my guitar, you want the gun
Kill it, kill everything you know
Spill it, We can go toe to toe
Cry for you're angel, she's crying for you
Nothing is okay, what can i do?
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying,
is the person who made you cry?
*Brand spankin new one i received from Evilfae ten minutes ago... she told me to put that extremly long title there, i thought it was clever. Anyways, its about how love can out of no where hold you in her arms and the next second she drops you and starts kicking you repeatedly in the side, and you scream to stop, but it keeps kicking, and kicking, and KICKING! Sorry, i got a little excited there... yeah so anyways love sux, fuck a bunch of love, and i suggest you not get tangled in her web, she's not so forgiving if you accidentally step into her trap.
*No Title*
This paranoia you taught me sank in
Now i'm forever with you living in sin
But its okay because you taught me to love
And i'll be forever with you living in sin
And with the Celestine Prophecy on my lap
I'll sink into the pillows and take a little nap
That's where i met you, my perfect guy
I'll run and seek you, hide and spy
Then wait for the perfect moment
You shine with the lightest irredescent
of the shrine that holds you
And i pinch my arm to make sure its true
Then when you turn, i'll recognize your face
And realize it was you all along, my heart begins to race
I see him everynight after the lights go dim
Oh wait, what was your name, yeah that's him
*That one is new, its about this guy i see in my dreams. I know its my one true love and stuff but i can't make out the facial features. I never can. But i know he's real, he's gotta be...
*Dream*
I scream out to you with tears in my eyes
But you ignored my shadow and my cries
Running at top speed to protect what's mine
I fall and the only thing i hear the clock strike nine
Blackness descends and now i can't move
Slowly my actions will once again prove
That everytime i love, its taken away
Negativity gets to me but i won't let it today
So i remove myself from that self-pity scene
Look for something to hold me up or a wall to lean
Wipe the tears quickly because there's something more important to do
And that would be... to find you
I stagger in every direction unitl
Something catches my attention
Your body lay limp on that concrete ground
I sigh in relief for you are now found
As i gather my strength i notice you stare at me but never blink
Now i wonder if you even breathe
Panic takes over as i get near
A world without you is what i fear
I scream in horror when i see the blood
And so may memories of you begin to flood
As i hold you close i whisper life's not fair
Two doves fly by and i realize... they're a pair
This one i woke up out of a dead sleep and wrote. The dream was so impactive that i could half awake, half asleep write. Its one of my favorites because that dream is still in my mind, vividly. Wow, 6:12 am... gotta go and stuff...
*Incomplete and Waiting*
I'll meet you in the moonlight, follow me angel
Right now i'm waiting for you, come to me love
If you fly away, I'll follow your path
Find me lying in a rose peddle patchoili bath
When we meet we'll be together, my angel
For now we're apart, I'm shedding my tears
One day we'll be together, I'm sure
Until then I'll sit in the cemetery, so pure
Why does it feel like I'm incomplete?
Why does it feel like my heart has been beat?
I'm falling so fast, will you try to catch me?
Please don't drop me, I'm blind, I can't see...
I'll be complete again, happily living in sin
Shh... I hear something in my ear...
She says I Love You & there's nothing to fear
Come to me angel, I see you hiding
Bring back the other half of my heart
Come to me angel, I see you hiding
Swing back my way, its definately a start
Come to me angel, I see you hiding
See the heavens with me, explore the way
Come to me angel, I see you hiding
Then with you i could always seem to stay
*This one is really cool, i just like it a whole bunch... i hear the music in my head actually and the way i'm singing it. So this one is actually a song. Most my stuff is, but this one is definately...
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