43 Miss Edith Tea Parties To Go…
It’d been two
days since she left her house for anything other than slaying. The only reason
she even bothered with that was because she was afraid someone else would die at
her ex-lover’s hands.
Unfortunately, in
those two days, all she found was one Faryal Demon.
Buffy didn’t
understand why there were no demons out; wasn’t the point of the Hellmouth to
attract the bad guys so she could slay them? Yet she barely had the newly risen
to deal with, let alone any other demons to kill. With Angelus roaming around,
making things less than easy for her, Buffy figured he’d be more than happy
when all his little demon friends overran Sunnydale.
“Why is that not
the case?” She muttered as she walked down the street to her house.
Then again, she
thought, as she got ready for bed, if there were no others to challenge his
power, then Angelus was the ruler of the Hellmouth. Disputed only by her, his
ex-lover who couldn’t kill him. (You
can’t kill me.) And people wondered why she was so depressed.
Still, if Angelus
was this undisputed ruler, then why did he bother toying with her? If he had all
the forces of Sunnydale at his disposal, it’d be a simple matter to overpower
her and be done with it.
So that probably
wasn’t the case, Buffy figured as she took one last look out her window at the
empty night. How safe was she here, really? There were ways to get to her; all
Angelus had to do was burn her house, take her mother on Joyce’s way home from
work late one night, or kidnap any one of her friends – or even those fellow
students she was sworn to protect – and Buffy knew she’d do whatever was
necessary to free them. But he hadn’t and that made Buffy more nervous than
not.
What was he playing at?
Lying in her bed
after another fruitless patrol, her mind finding no answers to her many
questions, Buffy turned on her side, looking out the window into the night. The
tree that grew near her window swayed gently in the breeze, hypnotizing her with
its movements. Her eyes grew heavy though her mind was wide awake, still trying
to understand the game Angelus was playing with her. She’d run herself ragged
these last days, knowing that everything she did was in defense from something
he did.
She wasn’t on the
attack; it was a joke to think so. She wasn’t fighting him; she was merely
running from him.
Because that was
better than running to him. (You’re
mine, lover, and you’ll be at my side soon enough.)
Buffy hated the
fact that he had such power over her, such control. Hated that whenever he said
jump, she did, whether she wanted to or not. There were things she cursed
herself for, still being attracted to the body (You think Angel and I are helpless slaves to passion?), still
thinking that there was a chance Angel was returning to her (You know why I killed the Calendar woman, I know you do), still thinking that there was something of her love in the monster that
wore his face (‘Had we but world enough
and time, then this coyness, lady, were no crime’).
Still wanting that
monster, still loving him. (Helpless
slaves to passion…hello lover…)
It was hard for
Buffy to differentiate between Angel and Angelus, hard to separate them,
physically, though she knew the difference. Knew that Angel loved her, treated
her as a princess, treasured her, wanted her forever, cared for her when she was
injured, and fought by her side. Angelus was the opposite. He stalked her and
taunted her, haunted her through dreams and gifts, he fought her, waged war on
her friends in an attempt to get to her.
(Had we but world
enough, and time, This coyness, Lady, were no crime. We would sit down and think
which way To walk and pass our long love's day.)
He sent her flowers and jewels, drawings and notes. He kept
her safe when she was sick. He professed love and passion for her in so many
different ways.
Angelus was such an enigma to her that Buffy wasn’t sure
she’d ever understand him.
Tears leaked from
her closed eyes, but Buffy never noticed. Her sleep was restless, haunted with
things Angelus did, things she hadn’t stopped (Theresa, Ms. Calendar, Ben, Brad, Ryan), things yet to come (Soon,
lover). Caught in those dreams and more, more where Angel berated her for
not being stronger, she never noticed the vampire directly outside her window,
having climbed the very tree she’d been watching not twenty minutes ago.
Angelus leaned against the window of his slayer’s room. She tossed and turned,
tangling the sheets around her lithe, delectable body. Tears stained her face
and Angelus’ grin widened. Ah, his little slayer, so torn, in such grief and
misery. He loved it.
And then she turned
back towards the window, opening her eyes as if she sensed him. “You already
know,” Angelus said to her and knew she heard him even through the window. He
let the smirk remain, locking eyes with her before jumping down and striding
away.
Everything was
coming together perfectly.
Tonight he had to
cut short his visit with his sleeping beauty; there was a new demon in town he
needed to take care of. There were advantages to ruling this little plot of
land; one of those was sleeping less than peacefully behind him. Another was the
energy that living here for so long imbued him with. He didn’t understand why
no other vampire felt the power of the Hellmouth the way he did, but figured
that if those energies were meant to be spread around like that, then his little
doorway to hell would lose some of its appeal.
Entering Willy’s
and letting the door slam against the wall, Angelus briefly scanned the room,
just long enough so that everyone knew he was there and not happy. Sauntering to
the bar, he didn’t bother to give Willy his order, simply sat on a stood and
waited for the owner/bartender to deliver his drink. Willy, ever the weak willed
human, did so with all due haste.
“Tell me,”
Angelus said in a neutral voice with a smile that belied his interest.
“Yes
sir,” Willy stammered, and looked around his bar. Most everyone knew Angelus
and knew he owned both Hellmouth and Slayer. The out-of-towners needed
reminding. Letting his eyes linger in a particularly dimmed corner of his
establishment, Willy hoped Angelus understood what he signaled. He valued his
life way too much for any other interpretation.
“The rumor is,”
the Twenties wanna-be gangster said, all appropriate fear in his voice, “That
the leader of the Intersife Clan has come to town. It is bad for business, all
that fighting, ya know what I mean?” Actually, Angelus was bad for Willy’s life,
but the bartender did what he could to survive in these ever changing times.
Angelus snorted in
laughter. The Intersife Clan was a not very clever play on ‘internal
strife’, which was what they caused. Among the demonic community, they were
commonly, and degradingly, referred to as the Bickering Demons. By touching a
being, they caused them to fight, usually uncontrollably, amongst their closest
friends and family.
All of which was
good and fine, but if Angelus wasn’t the one controlling the fighting, then it
wasn’t going to happen.
“I hear,”
Willy’s voice dropped even further, and he wondered if revealing this new
information was going to get him killed. “That they’re also after the
slayer; that they consider her tenure up and her head as a trophy.”
Angelus growled at the bartender, and Willy took a hasty step back. “I’m
sorry Angelus,” he said quickly. “I know how you feel about the slayer in
danger,” actually, daylight was only now beginning to glimmer, but Willy had
heard things about the master vampire and the slayer. “But I thought you
should know.” He shook his head, “Bad for business.”
Willy was right,
Angelus agreed as he shot back the rest of his whisky, tinged ever so slightly
with fresh human blood. Fighting on the Hellmouth was bad for business.
Specifically his. With more fighting, that meant Buffy was out more, and
therefore spending less time thinking of him, and more time putting herself in
danger she certainly didn’t need to be in. Sometimes, he sighed, demons were
just so dense: only Angelus put Buffy in danger. Everyone else was off limits.
“Her head as a
trophy?” Angelus demanded, watching as Willy paled. “Put the word out,
Willy,” he continued in that smooth velvety voice of his that sent shivers of
pure fear down Willy’s spine. “The slayer is mine. No one touches her, no
one harms her, no one even looks at her. Understood?”
“Ye-yes, Angelus,
master,” Willy nodded.
Standing, Angelus
nodded to Willy as the human moved down the bar to fill another’s glass.
Casually walking to the corner Willy indicated earlier, not bothering to pay for
either the drink or the information, Angelus slid into the booth and smiled. It
was far from a pleasant smile and the hint of fang didn’t hurt, either.
“This is my
town,” Angelus stated without preamble. “Leave.”
The laugh echoed
around the dimly lit, dingy bar; a loud grating sound that was meant to provoke
one’s opponent. Unfortunately, for the demon, Angelus was a master at
self-control. If he weren’t, Buffy would already be tied to his bed and
awaiting his pleasure, friends-as-collateral be damned; it was the chase, after
all, that he enjoyed, the game he played with his slayer.
(If
we had but world enough and time…)
“No,” the
larger green demon said, still laughing. Abruptly turning serious, he spat,
“You’re weak, Angelus. Everyone knows how you let the slayer walk all over
you, leaving you panting in her wake. This town needs a new leader, and I’m
it.”
Saying nothing
else, Angelus stood, still grinning down at the demon. He was tall, Angelus gave
him that. Muscled, too, and knew how to fight. All Intersife did, it was part of
their youth training; from the moment they were old enough to do so, all
Intersife offspring learned the art of the fight. If this truly were the leader
of the clan, then he’d be the best fighter, the most vicious, the strongest.
The Alpha-male.
Angelus was better.
The bar cleared out
faster than anyone ever thought, even Guy, the resident Sloth Demon, moved
quickly out of the way. Only Willy stayed, hiding behind his bar counter and
taking bets. Hey, a man’s got to make a living, after all.
“Wrong,”
Angelus said and yanked the demon from his sitting position, throwing him out
the still swinging door. Whoever the last one out was, it was nice of them to
leave the door opened.
By the time the
clan leader picked himself off the ground, crouching into a fighting position to
meet his attacker, Angelus was there. Rage made his face change, his eyes turn
golden, his voice snarl. It was, the vampire knew, partly because he touched the
Intersife leader. But that anger could be worked through on the leader himself.
All Angelus had to do was keep his mouth shut.
That was the other
part of their power. The fact that the bickering they produced usually was petty
in nature, and had a way of causing the recipient to spout out all his innermost
issues. Angelus was not about to let that happen, but needed to make clear that
the town and most importantly the slayer were off limits.
“She’s mine,”
Angelus snarled as he smashed his fist into the Intersife’s face. “The
slayer is mine, no one touches her, no one looks at her.” Rage, over Buffy’s
continued refusal of him, over her wavering between giving into him as she
wanted and listening to her stupid friends, her confused conscience, and her
torn heart added to his general anger that anyone, anyone thought they
could come to his town and simply takeover.
It was laughable,
but Angelus was in a fine rage and not really in the mood for laughing.
More punches to the
Intersife’s face, midsection, a sweep of his legs, causing the larger being to
drop to the ground. Oh, the leader gave as good as he got, landing his own blows
to Angelus. But the vampire had a lot on his side, the Hellmouth energies were
one, but Buffy was another. Anger over his slayer, anger that anyone had the
nerve to challenge him, anger that he had to take time away from watching Buffy
to deal with this latest threat. A threat not just to his position of power, but
to her, as well.
“Really,” he
told the assembled group. “How stupid are you? The message is already out; I
rule the Hellmouth. It’s simple enough.”
Blood trailed down
his face, he cold feel the stickiness on his cheek and down his neck. His ribs
ached and he knew his torso would be a mass of bruises later. None of which
mattered at the moment, as he let loose on the Intersife leader; Angelus’ only
goal was to kill the demon, and teach anyone else the same lesson.
“Sunnydale is
mine,” Angelus roared into the night. “The slayer is mine; no one touches
her. I rule here; my word is absolute law. Understand?” The clan leader
didn’t answer, but that was because Angelus was still pounding him against the
ground. “Understand?” He
bellowed.
Angelus hadn’t
realized Buffy followed him, too focused on taking care of the latest threat to
her life to focus on much else. It was, admittedly, a rare thing to happen to
the master vampire, but now he realized what that tingling sensation along his
skin was. (I just know when you’re
there, I can feel you.) Buffy’s presence. She stood a distance away from
him, watching silently as he dropped the dead body of the demon onto the street.
She didn’t say a
word, simply waited as he walked closer to where she stood. The patrons from
Willy’s who were slowly making their way back inside after the fight, paused
at the entrance to watch the slayer and the vampire. It was a star-crossed
romance even they appreciated, and if the slayer was occupied with her vampire,
then she wasn’t out hunting them. It all worked.
Guy felt tears
prick his large brown eyes as he imagined the slayer tending the vampire’s
wounds, praising Angelus for a job so well done. Taking care of her mate,
flattering him with words on his fighting skills…and later on his sexual ones.
He sniffled once or
twice as he continued to watch from afar, cursing his lack of advanced hearing;
he was sure the beautiful slayer was telling Angelus how strong and brave he
was. It didn’t matter to Guy that the slayer was meant to kill the vampire,
everyone in Sunnydale knew of their love.
It was more
interesting than the daytime television they often watched in Willy’s, and
much more romantic.
Just because
Angelus was back didn’t mean things changed; look at the care he took to see
to her safety, look at the demons he killed for her, look at the way he enticed
the beautiful slayer with gifts.
It was lovely.
Sighing one last time, the Sloth Demon walked back into Willy’s, deciding to
drink a toast to Angelus and his slayer, and to their eternal love.
“Come to give the
victor his spoils, lover?” Angelus asked with a knowing grin. He refused to
think on how all his aches disappeared in her presence.
“Who was that?”
Buffy asked instead. When she realized that Angelus was again outside her room,
she decided to confront him. But he’d already left, and so, not questioning
the impulse, she quickly dressed and followed him. Buffy was unprepared for the
scene that greeted her upon arrival at Willy’s.
Staying back from
the fight, she nevertheless heard all Angelus and that ugly looking greenish
demon said. It wasn’t hard. Angelus obviously intended for his voice to carry
to the circle of demons standing around the fighting pair. The circle of demons
who were betting on the
outcome…Buffy had sighed, “Only in Sunnydale would they bet on this.”
Confusion settled
heavily on her shoulders as Angelus pounded home his message. He was actually
protecting her, the slayer realized as her breathing stopped for a moment. Angelus
was protecting her, and Buffy was at a loss to understand why.
‘The
slayer is mine,’ he’d
said, repeatedly. ‘Mine.’
Things were
beginning to make sense, though why it’d taken her so long to figure out Buffy
couldn’t have said. Was it because she didn’t know? Buffy had no idea what
she truly fought, she was just beginning to realize. She knew good from bad,
even if they were of the demon variety. But she didn’t really understand the
intricacies of the community. She didn’t understand the particulars of Angelus
and vampiric society.
A slight inkling
often clamored in the back of her mind, but Buffy ignored it, hoping to suppress
it enough that she’d not have to deal with the fact that she couldn’t kill
Angelus. (You can’t kill me. Give me
time. You still love me…and to that, she had no reply.) Buffy couldn’t
stop wanting him, loving him, and that the line between Angel and Angelus was
just as blurred now that she’d met the demon as it was when she told Angel she
loved him, all of him.
And now he killed a
demon. He’d done that for her. He’d killed that demon – goo and all –
for her. Because Goo-Man was out to kill her. Looking at the group only now
wandering back inside Willy’s, Buffy wondered if it was the first he’d
killed…for her.
Angelus killed him
not because he wanted that pleasure, she was beginning to realize, but because
he wanted her for himself. Alive, whole, healthy – why else leave her in the
hospital when he had the chance to take her from there.
(Sleep,
my love, rest and get better.)
Figuring he wanted
her all for himself, from the many gifts he’d already given her, Buffy
wondered. So many questions finally made sense. So many things she’d wondered
about but couldn’t ask were finally beginning to make sense. Little things
Giles hinted at, things Angelus taunted her with, niggling thoughts she herself
had. Buffy wished they didn’t, for it was just one more understanding she had
of (her) the demon (lover).
“Intersife Clan
leader,” he told her, still standing within arms reach but making no move to
touch her. Why, Buffy wondered, why not touch her? He had in the past, that
certainly never stopped him. And whoever this leader was, it was obvious Angelus
considered him a big enough threat to take out himself.
“You killed him
for me,” she whispered, confused, torn, and looked the vampire in the eye, awe
and understanding clear in hers.
He did touch her
then, much to the mutual romantic sighs of several watching patrons in
Willy’s, Guy included. They couldn’t hear what the couple said, but body
language was so very telling, they decided. And look, look how the slayer raised
her hand to touch Angelus’ wounds. They sighed again at the resilient and
independent slayer comforting the vicious and sadistic vampire, and Willy could
only shake his head and pour them more to drink.
It was, he admitted
– but only to himself – sweet. But Willy had to wonder about the whole
thing. And worry. That slayer, she was a great gal, he honestly liked her. What
game was Angelus playing at?
“Yes,” Angelus
said as he pulled her closer (lover),
“Yes, I did.”
“Why?” Her hand
rested on his shoulder though Buffy was unaware of actually doing that.
“He was after
you. Wanted to make a name for himself by killing the slayer.” Shrugging in a
negligent way that contradicted the fierceness with which he spoke, the fire in
his again-brown eyes, Angelus growled. “You’re mine, lover, and I don’t
tend to share.”
“But…” Buffy
was so confused. She didn’t know why she was there, what she was asking, why
she hadn’t tried to kill Angelus yet. Why she was listening to him, why she
cared that he was hurt protecting her, why (lover),
why (love), why (his)…mine.
“I
thought…don’t you want to…I mean. And then there’s the gifts, and,”
shaking her head, Buffy gave up trying to understand. She was tired, so worn
down by the constant presence of the man before her that she couldn’t think
straight, let alone work something like this through in any coherent fashion.
Her hand moved to
the wound on his temple, fingers lightly touching the gash there. (When beauty fires the blood, how love exalts the mind! It was on one of
the many notes he’d left her before she’d blocked his entrance to her home.)
Jerking her flush
with his aroused body, Angelus looked into her eyes. Pressing his lips to hers,
he easily coaxed a response from her, reveling in the heat and passion she
buried inside. Her response was everything he hoped for and more. She opened her
mouth to his, meeting his rising passion with her own. He could smell the desire
and confusion on her, taste them in her kiss. The fluctuating needs between
giving in fully to him, his needs, his passion, his offer, and what she believed
to be the right path she should follow.
Buffy’s hands
tightened on his shoulders, and she whimpered in protest when he pulled away.
“Let me clear it
up for you, lover,” he smiled. Seductive, welcoming, comfortable. Loving.
“You’re mine and I protect what’s mine. I want you, and I will have
you, don’t ever think otherwise. Those gifts…?”
She nodded and
understanding brightened her eyes, still glazed from his kiss. “Those gifts
are my mark on you, an exterior showing to any who look that Buffy the Slayer is
Angelus’, and only mine.”
“I’m not
yours,” she protested heatedly, but didn’t pull back. Couldn’t pull back
because she didn’t even think of it, and the feel of his body was good, so
good against hers, the coolness, the hardness, the rightness
of his body against hers.
(Angel
and I, she once told Willow, We fit together. It’s like he was just waiting
for me to be born or something.)
Angelus simply
laughed and moved further away from Willy’s. He doubted anyone could hear
their conversation, but didn’t want to take the chance. By leading a willing
Buffy away from their prying eyes, it looked like he was merely moving her to a
convenient bed. He hardened further at that thought, but pushed it away in favor
of his long-term plan. He wanted to, oh, yes he wanted to; and he would he most
definitely would, because he never denied himself.
But that wasn’t
part of the plan just yet. She’d come to him willingly this night, yes, but
that was only the first step.
The second was to
willingly come to him in his bed. He’d have to wait for that, and he could. He
was immortal, and it was only a matter of time before he found a way to make his
feisty slayer immortal as well.
“You’re not
mine,” he mocked, “That’s why you keep my flowers until they’re wilted
and dead.” He leaned in and kissed her, softly, gently. “That’s why you
look at the drawings I do of you every night before you go to bed.” Those cool
lips made their way down her throat. “That’s why you wear the jewelry I give
to you.” A light nip at the base of her neck, quickly soothed by his cool
tongue.
Buffy shivered, her
body bending into his, her arms tightening around him. Pressing her body close
to Angelus’, Buffy wanted to beg for more. She’d had only that one night
with Angel, and it was nowhere near enough to sate the fire that burned through
her for her love. Angel. Angel was the one to quell that fire, even if only for
a night. Not Angelus, not the demon currently holding her, not…him.
“If I don’t,”
Buffy scoffed realizing, suddenly, that she was entirely compliant in his arms,
and that he was leading her to wherever he wanted. He’d done it so gently, arm
around her, his hand so solicitous on her hands. But…she had so many
questions, and didn’t really want to leave until they were all answered
and…why wasn’t he killing her? “You have this habit of killing those close
to me.”
“Yes, yes,”
Angelus dismissed, impatiently. “But they’re so very unimportant. Listen to
yourself,” he laughed as they slowly made their way down the street, Buffy
unaware she leaned into his side, his arm draped around her. “You’re angry
with me over deaths of people you never really cared about before, love. Yet you
haven’t thanked me for sparing the life of that pathetic loser, Harris.”
Silent, Buffy just
stared at him. Well, he had let Xander live even with unrestricted access to his
house for those few days…but that was no excuse. He killed Theresa just to
send her a message (Angel sends his love) and Jenny (Survival of the
fittest, baby) because she was going to give Buffy her Angel back (You
are mine, lover, and always will be. Nothing and no one can take you away from
me. Look what happens when they try.)
Buffy didn’t pay
attention to where they were walking as she thought of the past weeks and
everything that happened, and only noticed they arrived back at her house when
Angelus pressed her back against the tree, his mouth again ravishing hers. There
was no protest in her, and she hated herself for that. She kissed him back as
though she were starved, and truthfully she was.
Starved for contact
with her lover, demon or angel. Starved for understanding, which Angelus seemed
to provide her in abundance, though his methods left much to be desired.
Liquid desire
pooled low in her belly and flamed through her veins. Buffy wanted to give
herself to him, wanted to give into the desire that pounded through her and just
forget everything else. But she couldn’t, it wasn’t who she was.
He pulled away
again, and again Buffy cursed herself for her weakness in not doing so first.
Weakness in not staking him when she had such opportunity (You can’t kill me, lover, and you won’t). For not being strong
enough to kill him, no matter what he was really like behind the face she loved (Sleep,
love, and rest. Get better).
“Just remember,
Buffy, I own this town. I own you because I want you. You’re mine, little
slayer, mine to do with as I please. You’re mine, and you love it. I kill for
you, I hunt for you. I am for you. But
you, my love, are mine. Body, heart, and soul. And,” he leaned closer to the
silent slayer, lips pressed to hers for a bare second. “You know it. And you
love it.”
With that he was
gone, leaving Buffy alone against the tree that led to her bedroom, and one she
always thought of as leading Angel to her. What was happening, she wondered as
the first tears tracked down her face. Why was she allowing this? Slowly and
quietly climbing the tree to her opened window, she shed her clothes and wearily
crawled into bed, naked. She just didn’t have the energy to dress in her
pajamas.
Angelus
was…courting her. But she knew that, just couldn’t admit it. And Giles,
Giles knew but said nothing to her, always skirting the issue whenever things
like this came up. But wasn’t that why she never told him of the flowers that
even now decorated the surfaces of her room? Why she never said anything about
the jewelry Angelus gave her, why she never told her watcher or friends about
the visits, the drawings.
The courtship?
They wouldn’t
understand, because she hadn’t. But Giles had. Giles knew and said nothing, he
knew what Angelus was doing but didn’t bother to inform his slayer, the object
of Angelus’ affections.
A tingle started
low in her belly and spread as Buffy thought more about that. Angelus
affections. Angel and Angelus. Of being courted by the most vicious vampire
ever, the one who ruled, as he proved this night, Sunnydale. Who commanded the
forces and loyalty of the Hellmouth, and who made it clear this night as he
showed everyone at Willy’s that he had the slayer as well.
Buffy was his, Angelus said, and his alone.
The tears started
again. Oh, God, yes, she wanted to be his. But couldn’t; there was no way she
could. No way she’d be able to give up everything she believed in, everything
she knew, for him. She couldn’t, he was evil and made no excuses for that. But
she wanted to, a small part of her so very much wanted to. Wanted to know the
peace that was not fighting, wanted to be taken care of by him, wanted to be
back in the safety and comfort of his arms.
That night Buffy
cried herself to sleep, once more sobbing over the choices she made in her life,
and those that her life didn’t allow her a choice in. She wanted to curse her
destiny, but realized that if she wasn’t the slayer, then she’d never have
met Angel or his alter ego. She wanted to curse the gypsies, but realized that
if they hadn’t cursed Angelus with a soul, she’d never have met Angel.
So she cried
herself to sleep, never realizing that her lover watched over her from outside
her window, still barred from her house. She never realized that her mother
entered her room and sat with her until the sun rose, wondering how she could
help her child.
Upon waking, Buffy
found two fiery red roses twined together laying on her windowsill. She knew who
they were from; there was never a question of that. And now, with so many colors
and roses already sent to her, she knew what they signified as well.
Unity.
Marriage. Forever.
Her hand rose with
the joined flowers and Buffy sniffed their delicate scent. A soft smile played
on her face, and her eyes closed for a brief moment as the meaning of the
flowers washed over her. There was no note, there didn’t need to be, no piece
of jewelry, no drawing. Only the flowers. And the memory of the previous night.
Angel gave her a
ring, settled it on her left hand and promised to love her forever. Angelus gave
her a ring, similar to Angel’s, and vowed, promised, and threatened to her
that forever. Glancing down at her
right hand, Buffy was somehow not at all surprised to see that the ring was no
longer there. No, the claddagh was snug on her left hand, ring finger, ruby
heart pointing inwards.
That was his
message for the night, written right there for her to see and understand. Words
weren’t needed.
Stepping away from
the window, Buffy placed the flowers into the small vase she had – another
gift from Angelus – and added water before going to shower.
She didn’t think
about her reaction, or lack thereof. She didn’t think of the meaning of the
flowers or the moving of the ring. She couldn’t, because then her world
wouldn’t make sense, and Buffy would be forced to realize everything she
finally understood the previous night.
Angelus was
courting her as his wife (mate) and
lover. He wanted her despite the horrible words he’d spat at her the morning
after her (beautiful, single) night
with Angel. He protected her from demons and sent her flowers. He watched over
her and made sure she was safe throughout the night. He kept his crazy childe
away from her and the wheelchair bound psycho as well.
If Buffy truly let
herself think about it, she’d realize that Angelus was in love with her.