How I plead and beg for somebody, anybody
to come and help me. The depression and
pain seem to suck me in, like quicksand.
I don't seem to find a way to help myself
out. Sometimes I feel like I am too weak
to keep struggling. Often, the more I do
struggle the deeper I go. I get so tired.
Physically and mentally drained. I don't
see a way out. Where is my help? Does
anyone care enough to help me out of this?
Can anybody really understand what I'm
saying? What is happening? Everybody
seems to go on with their own lives, like
nothing is happening. It hurts to hear
laughter and cheer all around, when I feel
like I am fighting just to survive! Where
is the hand of God? Why won't he save me?
DOES ANYBODY EVEN CARE?
DOES ANYBODY KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE
TO FIGHT JUST TO SURVIVE?
I do. Everyday I pray for strength. I
know that God does provide or I couldn't
continue the battle. I also have a good
support system. You see, I am fighting
oppression. I am fighting satan and his
fallen angels, every day.
Many people deny that they exist. Whether
you believe it or not, is your choice. I
hope you do come to the realization though,
because they do exist and that they are
apart of your life whether you want them
or not. The bible "God's Word" says that
you will be in battle with them all of your
human lives, until the end of time. See,
they want to take you to your death, in
their eternal place, in the fires of hell.
You think I'm a little bold? I don't
think I can get bold enough! I am talking
truth and life. I am talking heaven and
hell. I am talking about who you are and
who I am today! I'm talking about today
and eternity.
The dictionary defines oppression as: 1 a:
unjust or cruel exercise of authority or
power. b: something that oppresses esp in
being as unjust or escessive exercise of
power 2 a: a sense of being weighed down
in body or mind: Depression.
Sounds like satan to me. Hmmm, you know,
when I started the beginning of this page
I had not looked up the word oppression.
I just had a vague idea of what it meant.
It definitely defines everything that I
said before!
The hardest part about this is knowing that
the closer I get to God, the more some of
my pain, etc increases. You see, this is
Satan's way of letting me know that I am
doing right. He would not struggle with
me as much if I were not doing God's will.
Heck, if I weren't writing this page.
No this is not easy, it isn't even fun.
I'm Mercy. So you know, I'm not just a
normal person off the street. I have had
a background in satanism. I think the only
difference between you and me is I accept
and believe all of this 100%! Sure, he
tells me that this stuff is in my head.
That there is no reality. Why would I
expect any difference from the one who is
full of deception and lies? Who else
would tell you that there's not a real
devil. Just that cute cartooney little
guy that sits on your shoulder and whispers
in your ear. Can he do that? You betcha!
Remember when somebody accuses you of
something and you get that funny grin
on your face that says "the devil made
me do it"? You meant that to be cute
didn't you? Maybe you are more right than
you knew.
Wake up people! This is as real as real
gets! I talk to others, who send emails
that have many of the same battles, I'm
hoping that some of my own pain will help
me help others deal with their own.
Satan can cause physical pain & illness,
as he can cause mental and emotional
illness. Even if you are a man of the
cloth (as they say), you are susceptible
to the pain!
I know that there are some people that do
understand what I am going through, just
as there are some who know what you are
going through.
Do you beg and plead for someone to help
you? For someone to understand who you
are? For someone that knows the pain that
you're in? For someone to help get you out
of a painful life? Abuse? A demonic
lifestyle? Satanism? Wicca? Mormon?
The list goes on and on.
I do know your pain. I do know that it
can be difficult to get through the moment,
let alone the day. It can be hard to walk
away from a certain lifestyle. From a cult.
From whatever lifestyle imaginable.
You see, the strength isn't in you or in
me, it's in God the Father, Jesus Christ
the Son and in the Holy Spirit. Even when
we feel they have abandoned us, they are
there. Often we will hear them through
another person's conversation or in a good
deed. Hopefully, you know that they are
with me. Otherwise I wouldn't be talking
to you right now.
Here at God's Page, we can help you find
the Trinity of the Father, Son & Holy Spirit.
If you need someone to talk to, we are here
for you. Is an intervention needed? Are
you wanting to walk away? Are you willing?
You see, it's up to you!
I walked away and you can too. Help me?
Yes God, please help me! And help you too!
On the God's Page, main page, there is also
a cult questionaire. If you would like,
copy it, fill it out and send it back to us.
