“Oh. My. God!” I exclaim through my giggles as the latest TV movie ends.
“That was sucky,” AJ laughs.
“That was BEYOND sucky!”
“Uh huh! Ok, lemme get this straight. The guy murdered his wife to marry some rich chick and then she murdered him to get the money he got off his first wife and the detective married her in the end cos they were partners and she was his adopted daughter’s real mother?” he says in one breath.
“Yup!” I giggle.
“Oh boy,” he rolls his eyes. “That was at the back of the plot queue.”
“WAY back at the back,” I agree and lean against AJ as we both laugh. He slips his arm around me and I snuggle into his warmth slightly. We sit like this for a while.
“Was Ali going to tell Nick about the baby tonight?” he suddenly asks.
“Uh huh, I think so. You think it went well?” I move so that I can look up at him.
“I hope so. They love each other. It would be dumb otherwise.”
“Yeah,” I agree and sit back from him so that I can study him carefully. “I wish somebody would realise just how amazing YOU are.”
“I do too,” he chuckles lightly.
“Because you are. I don’t deserve to have a friend like you.”
“You don’t,” he agrees with a grin, refusing to get serious.
“Aje, why do you always joke about things that hurt you?”
“It’s the way I am,” he shrugs.
“You don’t need to joke. You could just yell at me instead,” I tell him.
“Why would I yell at you Jady?”
“I’m the one fucking up your life.”
“I’m doing that just fine by myself. You didn’t MAKE me fall in love with you.”
“Maybe I didn’t exactly help though,” I mutter. “I mean, I’m staying here with you. I should’ve gone anywhere else – given you a little space from me.”
“I’m still your friend Jady. I wanted to help you.”
“Thank you Alex.”
“Alex? You hardly ever call me Alex,” he laughs.
“I call you Alex,” I tell him, “when I’m bein’ serious.”
“Ah, I see. It’s like when my mom calls me Alexander James I just KNOW I did somethin’ wrong.”
“Exactly like,” I giggle.
“Well I’ll make sure I take you seriously whenever you call me Alex,” he chuckles.
“That would be good,” I smile at him, our eyes locking.
He flashes me a smile and then looks back at the TV. He starts flicking through channels. I stare at his face. When I had looked into his eyes, I had felt as though I wanted to kiss him. It had been so strong. He has beautiful eyes and whenever he looks straight into mine, it’s weird but I feel a kind of connection. I had felt it just then, but stronger than ever before. I look at his lips and feel my body stir slightly. I wonder what it would be like to kiss him. I’ve kissed him before but I was drunk then. It didn’t count. I really want to kiss him, to feel his body against mine… But I shouldn’t. I would be encouraging him. We have no future together. I know I’m in love with Brian. But AJ’s eyes make me doubt it. They make me doubt everything. Maybe if I kiss him I will know. Just one kiss and it will solve everything. I make my mind up to just give in to my feelings. I stand up slowly, feeling incredibly nervous and excited at the same time.
“Where you goin’?” AJ looks up at me.
I take the remote off him and put it on the couch beside him before gently pushing him back against the couch and sitting on his lap. I face him and run my fingers along his face. His eyes look into mine, a little shocked. Ok, a LOT shocked. I bend my head and gently kiss his lips. They feel just like I imagined and I deepen the kiss, winding my hands in his hair. His hands wind around my body, pulling me closer into him as my tongue licks at the corners of his mouth. His mouth opens and his tongue touches mine, sending sparks flying through my body. I open my legs wider so that I can press against his groin harder as our tongues fight it out in each other’s mouths. He’s already so hard. I really need this. We both want to get closer than we are already and his hands hitch up my skirt, pulling at my panties. He pulls hard and I feel them rip away from me. His hand presses against me and I feel myself get wet against him. I break off the kiss to tug at his pants, unzipping them and reaching inside to free him. I look into his eyes and move my body over his hardness. He grabs onto my ass and holds me tight as he thrusts inside of me. I gasp as I feel him enter me and arch my back, throwing my head back. He starts to kiss and lick his way down to my breasts, tearing open my shirt and taking each nipple in his mouth. I moan as his tongue matches his rhythm inside me and straighten up to kiss him again. I move my hips against his, feeling him fill me. AJ holds onto me tighter as he pulls me even harder against him. I wriggle my hips with a low moan. He gasps against me and his hips thrust up, deeper inside me as I grind my hips down onto him. He moves his hands up to caress my breasts as I arch my back and rest my hands on his legs, feeling him hit my G-spot again. I moan loudly and move back up to control his rhythm. AJ gasps as I grind my hips down on him again and moves more urgently inside me, feeling his orgasm build and then burst out of him. I moan loudly and close my eyes as his hands slip down my body and join his penis inside me. It feels so good and I move against his hips, feeling my orgasm building up. AJ moves faster and faster as I orgasm with a scream and fall forward to lie panting against his chest.
“Wow,” he whispers.
“Good word,” I whisper back.
“God Jady…” he murmurs, resting his head against mine.
“I know," I whisper and close my eyes, feeling his soft breath on my face. I want to stay like this forever. But I can't. I need to face up to reality. "I’m sorry,” I tell him and move off of him. This shouldn’t have happened and I know it. I just wanted somebody to love me. I thought I wanted it to be Brian. I'm not so sure now.
“You leavin’?” he whispers, looking up into my eyes.
“I need some sleep,” I look away from him and walk away as he lights up a cigarette.