To

Chekov

I watch you two together. You and Landon, I mean. Holding hands...cuddling...

kissing... do you have any idea how much this hurts?

I know how much you love her. Because that's how much I love you.

But there's a difference. You love her because she's female. A pretty female too. I love you because you're my best friend. Because you're funny. Because you're you.

Landon could never understand it. She told me herself.

Yeah, she knows.

I didn't tell her; she guessed. And told me to back off.

I'm sorry if it looked like I was trying to make an advance on you.

Because I know you can never love me mutually.

Because I am me,

Hikaru Sulu.




Sulu looked down at the letter in his hands, then back up again at Chekov's door.

He knew that Landon was in there.

He turned away, dejected, then, in a sudden anger, tore the letter into little pieces, scattering them on the floor, and running away, tears brimming.