The trigger has been pulled, and the bullet has flown. Trent is dying. As he dies, he thinks. He thinks of everything he did wrong, and he thinks of Annie and all the people he has known and loved. This song is directed at them.
I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything
He shot himself in the head. He had become numb, and he wanted something else. The physical pain he gave himself reminded him that he was alive. The pain in is head is all he can think about. Apparently someone is trying to revive him, but he doesn't want that. He wants everything to just go away. He's so sick of it all.
What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end
He reflects on his life, his failures, and his friends who betrayed him. They've all left him.
You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt
It's as though he told them that he was no good. They would regret coming close to him because he would hurt them.
I wear this crown of shit Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stain of time The feeling disappears You are someone else I am still right here
Trent resigns to the fact that he is a bad person. Everything that has happened is his fault. He has influenced and corrupted everyone he's encountered, and he cannot change that. Over time, though, they'll forget him. They'll move on and become better people. He will be the same in their memories.
What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way
If he had to do it all over again, he would have done it differently. He would never have allowed himself to be corrupted and destroyed. He would have found a way.