Fighting the Fear
By Kenneth R. Cabrieto

     And I know that I don't have anything to guide me.
     Everything that I've ever trusted in the past,
     Has only let me down.
     Even those things that I thought would bring me joy,
     Brought me joy and then took it away.
     Everyone has been shafted in this way before.
     It's so sad that we're always coming back for more.
     If I could find something else to go after I would.
     I would do all this but I'm too scared of failing something else.
     At least if I keep failing at one thing...
     It's only that one thing I'm failing at.
     But if I keep failing at the same thing
     And I fail it over and over again
     I think I'll only be letting myself down.
     I don't know if that will hurt more or not.
     I don't know if I really want to find out.
     I think in not doing anything,
     I'm failing myself again.

     Why can't I fight the fear?

     -01.21.03