It blood keeps on dripping Black like the heart. It’s dead on the inside It has been for years.

Thanks to the world That has broken it down Like the smashing of glass Into empty sharp and painful pieces

The slower it beats The more life it ends Knowingly ending its terrible pain, The pain that is called life.

It’s reaching the end The end is near The blood is running dry Staining the glass behind Forever in our minds.

The waste of a life is never a gain Not for the heart It is empty It is gone But the pain is still there Forever it remains.

The whole reason for ending Is known only to the heart Why it just gave up its chance to live.

It’s too late to save this lost, empty, now soul less heart But maybe its not to late to save your own breaking heart.

STEPS It's ten steps to no where, ten steps behind, you will never change, be open mind, you hate me and you hate yourself so you try and kill me, but it's not gona happen, coz you're dead in my mind.

ASHES TO ASHES Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, burn all your churches into mush, fuck all your lies, fuck all your hate, out of my mind, out of my life, now you're the one that is lonely, the sheep, the follower, you are just another bitch, in this motherfucking world, burn all your chuches down to mud, your god is dead, your mind is dead, homeless sheep you now are.

KILL You can't kill me coz im all ready dead, dead inside, inside the head, numb to the world and the lies that is god, we will break free, we are coming, the new world domination will kill your god, will kill you sheep.

HELL ON EARTH Damned to hell, hell on earth, is this what we all deserve, grief and pain is all we get, we hate life but are scared of death, make the most of what you got, or make it something that it's not, rebel or sell, make it yours, fuck all the sheep that invade your sleep, break free to free your lives.

PINK ALIENS The pink aliens are coming, to take you away, they are diguised as lamp posts, so you better beware. They are big and their mad, and are ready for attack, to destroy and conquer your weak little minds. beware, they stare, they poke, taunt, and prod, not that disimilar from the race called the gods. MACHINES We are the walking, talking, living dead, dead in the body, dead in the head, run by machines, they tell us what to do as dead, kill the machines, kill the head, the head is your god and your government, the head is the trendies, you groupies you rockers and you popers. you have to be the same or be blamed, blamed for power, freedom and free minds. To the ones who beat the machines, the head is dead, the heart has opened to life, to happiness and closed to your machines in your head.

VAMPRESS The lonely vampress walks the night alone, alone she sleeps, alone she weeps, the world is so big and lonely. She lives in solitude, awaiting her fate that will not come, for eternity she walks alone. Night after night, day after day, will this neverending cycle ever end? Will she walk not just alone, but with the company of a warm heart, the soul is weak, it must be strong, so this lonely vampress will not walk alone, will not feel alone, and will not be alone.

FREAK We all have our own problems, And deal with then in different ways, You choose to take it out on me, Everyone takes it out on me. Fuck right off coz I don’t care, Fuck all your lies, Coz you’re fucked in the head. You don’t know me, Anything about me, You can’t touch me, in my heart You’ve ruined your own life, Now you’re trying to ruin mine. You all stand and stare, Like I’m a fucking freak, I stare right back, Why the fuck are you looking at me? I know I’m a freak I don’t care, If you have a problem with that, It aint my problem, So I don’t fucking care. In your mind I am different, Some how this makes me a muppet, A puppet to pick up and drop, Any time you want, But I’m not a puppet, I am me, me, me. I have my own mind, I have my own life, Why don’t you just fuck right off? And get a fucking life. I am a freak and I don’t care, If being a freak means being myself and having a life.

HIDE Her room is dark and as cold as the night, the walls are black, as black as her heart. It is time for work , she gets up and cries, yet another day with the mechanical animals of the sky’s. Alone she walks almost in slow motion, the corridors become longer, narrower and darker, like the day before, and the day before that. She realises even in space, She can not escape. There is no where to run, From the past that is in front, There is no where to hide, she will just have to face it, To rid it. To be strong.

NEW RELIGION We wana be different, Free from your lies, We are the freaks, Coming to take you by surprise. You wish we weren’t there, But we are on all sides. We are the new religion, So fuck all your lies, We are all around you, Growing on the inside, Getter stronger by the second, So fuck all your lies. You hate us, Burn us, Beat us, But can never kill us, You wish we weren’t there, but you cant help but stand and stare. black, white, male, female, we are behind you, beside you, on you , and over you. you can not escape, the new religion grows, the new minds are coming, we are different, we are not the same, each of us a fresh new mind. we don’t pray to fake gods, we do want we want, coz we are the new minds.

DESTRUCTION The soul is dark, The heart is lonely, The body is weak, And the mind is bitter, The angry creation, That life has made, Is starting to build up, To kill the pain. The sky is black, The air is cold, What is going to unfold? You heart is pounding, You mind is angered, Your ready to fight, What cannot be won. People stuck in their ways, Their ways of destruction, Of Themselves and each other, No one is save, Life is doomed, Misery is around us, Through us, And in us. Leave me alone, I want to be free, Free from your destruction, Your mind and your lies.

MIND I'm dying on the inside, if not already dead, I'm empty, I'm cold,no place but dead. Trapped inside my mind, there is no where to go, no way out, a never ending cycle of pain, what am i to do with this meaningless life? My mind is all i have but it is killing me inside.

(your world is a hell hole

STRANDED I am an alien to this world Stuck on this planet I crashed and burned All alone I now stand A monkey in a cage

I am surrounded by animals trying to kill me Trying to kill each other. I cannot escape from all these demons All so ugly on the inside They just point and laugh and stare They don’t care They just keep on coming, Hating, preaching, teaching, beating.

It’s a nightmare gone wrong, It’s not longer a dream, Now it is reality I am stuck here on this earth

What am I to do? What am I to say? Am I to run? Am I to hide?

I am a monkey in a cage Surrounded by animals trying to kill me Trying to kill each other They just point and laugh and stare They don’t care They just keep on coming Hating, preaching, teaching, beating.

Forever alone Am I to be as miserable as you? No not me I don’t want it to be.

I’m stranded in this hellhole No place of shelter No place I can be me Just be like them Its sad buts its true What am I to do? Where am I to go? Where i'm a suppose to be, this thing that is called me

I cannot escape this endless nightmare I’m trapped here on earth This hell on earth How could this be? Why did this happen to me? Surrounded by demons Please help me.

By Clare 26/7/2003

MIRRORS DON'T LIE I look in the mirror , But nothing looks back, But a blank empty mind, In a blank empty heart.

Day after day , this face is the same, The eyes are cold, The eyes are bitter, The mouth is low, And the face is pale.

There is no life in this empty face, The heart is heavy with nothing but pain, That wont go away, Just stays and gets heavier, The mind is full , Full of confusion, Of what life is for.

The mind goes round in circles, Of pain and distraught, What am I to do forever more? I’ve seen too much, Far to young, To much pain , Its fucked up my mind, And fucked up my life, Seemingly forever it will remain.

I cannot get out, I don’t know where to turn, The cycle keeps going, I don’t know where to learn. I stand alone, In the middle of the world, The days going by, In a blink of an eye.

ALONE

I just stand and stare, Not knowing what to do, With no place in this world, What am I to do?

The nights are so simple, I escape in my mind, Not caring, not worrying, not wishing, Just living a life with no comparing or staring.

The days go by, Leaving nothing but pain, In my heart , In my mind,

My life is a wreck, Shatters like glass, The only true fear, Is the fear of the mind, Tearing me apart from the inside, Day by day, My mind is here to stay, It wont change or , Or let the pain go away

I am alone.

Alone I stand, Alone I fall, Alone I am, Forever more.

By Clare 26/7/2003©

Poems by AzzA

Marilyn Manson Freak 2003 © Clare Manson