Sitting in the dark quiet
of a place so unfamiliar
I've never been here before
and I don't know if I like it
I was supposed to
this new concept called being single
I can't remember it at all
so here I sit
my decisions made
and now what?
I had to do it
had to jump
it seems every time I try to love someone
it's not me they want
it's the me they can create
and everytime
I lose a little more of me
and a little more of my reality
this time 
I came too close
to losing it all
treated like a child
beat down by thoughtless words
words that made me believe
I had no other choice
I became numb
forgot who I was
didn't care anymore anyways
until someone reached in
and pulled me out of the muddy waters
and I saw sky
so now I sit here
learning to breath again
for some reason shocked
but I know better
I keep dreaming and praying
that someday I will find someone real
someone who sees me
and not what I could be
I keep telling myself
"They don't exsist! Give it up!
The world has a frozen heart and your's is a dying breed."
but my heart won't listen
and so my search continues
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