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People need to lighten up
July 3, 2004
Every time I end up talking to one of my friends, the topics of how depressed they are, why their life is horrible,
whether they're going to kill themselves, and how much their heart is aching almost always come up... Ok, so most of the
friends I actually talk to on a regular basis are girls, but that's not my point. My point is that these people are taking
life way too seriously. Everybody these days is so tense, I just don't get it.
Now, this is coming from someone that's manic depressive with a chronic anxiety disorder. I don't claim to be above having
the same problems as everybody else, but I do seem to be one of the few that try to step back and look at the big picture
objectively. I'm sorry if I sound insensitive, but you people need to lighten up and stop acting like you're worthless and
you don't deserve to live.
These days, I'm having recurring nightmares concerning final exams, which I don't actually have anymore if you're dumb
enough to think that. Aside from that, I've started to loose my sense of reality... I'm having trouble trying to figure out
what memories were dreams and what memories were real. I'm pretending to be ok with how attached the girl I'm obsessed
with is with her boyfriend, even thou I've been trying to get her out of my head for so long.
The only other girl I'm interested in is in love with somebody
that so far has only been using her (along with a bunch of other girls), and she already hypothetically rejected me two
or three times... at least she feels bad for me... And to top it all off, a lot of this developed about the same time as
when my cat died...
That's more or less it with me, I'd like to spare anyone who actually reads this of further
details... Anyway, my point is that even with all this going on, I haven't yet panicked to the point of threatening to slit
my wrists or jump head first off my roof into the rocks of my stone terrace. I may seem somewhat cold hearted or
insensitive to people, but the truth is that I'm just trying to keep the world from getting to me.
Even what I just said sounded too serious to me. Seriousness is bad. If you're a serious person and you threaten to kill
someone, they might call the cops on you. If you aren't, thou, they'll never suspect a thing... Of course, all this is
coming from somebody who hides from the world in videogames. I wouldn't take him too seriously if I were you.
What was I talking about again?
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