Letter Number 3

J Simpson
 

   
       My journey through life has been one of much turmoil and frustration.  Even my childhood was embellished with words of failure.  Not a happy time growing up as a Boy!

       Went into the Army at age 18 and became an Airborne Infantryman. Was then that I became somebody. Not all had done what I had done. Went to Vietnam in 67-68.         

     Already knew what hate was and anger.  Just fell right on into my niche.  Issued me an M-16 with which to kill with and survive the War!  Learned very young not to get close to people for it meant being hurt! Yes, the pain of a good Buddy getting wounded or worse yet killed. One was like a Brother and he died in my lap as I and the Medic worked so hard to stop the bleeding.  I saw the life run out of him and choked back my pain and tears!

     On coming back home all was different and I felt different, nothing was as it was before I left.  Was lost in all of it and married quick thinking that was it, still nothing seemed to fit!  Months and years past as I drank and done a lot of bad things not caring who or what I hurt.  Just like search and destroy as in the War!  Things finally came together for me after a long period of time.  Am not where I would like to be but am working on where I want to be!

    Hope...never really understood what that word meant until I met you Hope!  You took time to listen to me and time to ask me how I was doing.  Never did I trust until you Hope, came along.  Your name is what Hope means. Reminds me I've got a chance to change my life and not be afraid of sharing and caring for another.  Your Heart is so good and warm, makes me feel welcome home in a special way, Hope's way!  Learning from you allowed me the pleasure of meeting Mike and he has a very big heart also. I may not make it to see my ultimate goal but know in my heart thanks to you and Mike that I will see it whether on this earth or not.  I trust in Angels and feel them by my side at this very moment, the reason I know this is that I'm not mentally capable of writing things.  All comes from my heart and the Angel's work through my heart.  Just as they do yours Hope!  Have found peace by knowing you and sharing with you.  Thanks for your page and I come to it often.  I'm very humble in your company.  God be with you and like always I know you're there for me in my time of need!  As well I'm here in your times of need also.  In Loving Friendship that is as real as rain.
   
by  Jim Simpson
173rd AIRBORNE BDE. C 2/503 Infantry 1967-1968

 ©July 30, 1999

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