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Slowly I walked up the church steps to Brian and Lieghanne’s wedding. It felt so weird that I only had to come up to Marietta.
“Anne! Hey girl. Long time no see!” AJ called. He escorted me up to our seats and soon started up a pleasant conversation. I was actually enjoying myself till Nick sat down on the other side of AJ.
I hadn’t talked to him since I left his house that one disastrous night. Many times I would come home with messages on my machine from him. Each time he sounded tired, stressed and just completely torn up. Never had I ever heard him so terrible and heart broken. At times I would cry and want to pick up the phone to call him. I missed him so much.
I looked up at him sitting so close to me, yet we were so far away. I kept looking at his eyes, I couldn’t tear mine away from them. All of a sudden I realized he was looking back. Our eyes were totally locked and the world was zoned completely out.
“Oh gosh!” I gulped looking away. I let my hair fall in my face.
“Are you okay?” AJ whispered.
“No...I miss his terribly.” I mumbled.
“Then why don’t you go back to him?”
“Because I don’t want to take the chance of getting hurt again.” I sobbed.
“He didn’t mean to hurt you. But isn’t it worth taking the chance instead of hurting alone?”
“I’m not ready to take the chance. Well, lets focus on something happier, like Brian and Lieghanne.” I smiled. I noticed as Nick’s face fell. I never thought it would be this hard.
I relaxed into the pew as I saw Brian and the others take their places. Brian noticed me and winked a hello. I smiled and almost laughed at how happy he looked. I remember when me and Nick were that happy.
The wedding slowly happened before my eyes. I didn’t realize how much I was into it till I saw the new married couple’s beautiful kiss. They looked so much in love and just plain happy. I glanced over to my other side and saw Kristin and Kevin just as happy. Was that what Brian said me and Nick had?
“My gosh! Why does everything have to do with Nick?” I cried exasperated. “Why can’t I just move on in life?”
“Brian! Oh my gosh! Congratulations!” I screamed throwing my arms around his neck. It felt so good to see him again.
“It’s great to see you! How are you doing over all?” He asked.
“Don’t worry about me!” I smiled brushing off his concern. “This is you day! Don’t pay any attention to me.”
“We’ll talk later, okay?” He questioned. I knew all he wanted was to help me.
“When you’re settled into your marriage and no time sooner. This is supposed to be the happiest time in your life!” I laughed and walked off to join Howie and AJ.
“Hey girl! Long time no see!” Howie greeted.
“Yeah, I missed ya.”
“Come on Anne. Let’s dance. I don’t have a date.” AJ whined tugging on my hand.
“Oh all right.” I sighed. He led me out onto the dance floor on the fourth floor at one of the nicest hotels in Marrietta. I felt him circle his arms around my waist, yet he made sure he kept his distance.
As time passed I relaxed against AJ. Slowly my head fell onto his shoulder as tears soaked his jacket.
“I’m sorry, AJ!”
“It’s okay. Just let it out. You need to. Always the second time you see someone after a hard break up, it’s heart wrenching.:
“AJ, I love him. I would give anything to be back with him. But.....I just can’t!”
“May I cut in?” An extremely familiar voice questioned. I looked up to see Nick starring down at me. Quickly I wiped away my tears and back up from AJ.
“I...I...guess.” I stuttered. I couldn’t resist. I wouldn’t be able to resist anything he did at the moment. His body was so close to mine, his arms were holding me so tight. I felt his breath in my hair.
“Anne, listen to me please. Just listen.”
I made no move to protest. All I could think about was how happy I was. I knew all I wanted was to stay in his arms.
“You don’t know how much I miss you every single day. Just give me another chance. Please, that’s all I want. I’m begging!” Nick pleaded as his grip tightened.
A tear started to roll down my cheek and he gently swiped it away with his thumb. Without either of us realizing it, we had leaned towards each other. His lips pressed against mine. So hard and fierce, yet so loving and soft I could get lost. I barely had any breath left as he pulled away and leaned in for another kiss. I let him kiss me many other times.
“No! Nick, stop.” I cried. “I can’t do this. Not now!”
“Then I’ll wait!” Nick sobbed knowing he had lost her, yet he still couldn’t give up hope.
“Nick. Don’t push. You’ve done everything you can. Just stop!” I yelled and ran to the bathroom.
I was staying at AJ’s house till Brian and Lieghanne settled in. There was no where else to stay and the guys had insisted that I come and stay with them in Orlando the entire summer. I couldn’t refuse. It would get me away from home and with some of my closest friends.
“Anne! You here girl? Amanda’s AJ’s girlfriend called. “How are you?”
“I’m back here and not so god. “I mumbled. “Why weren’t you at the wedding? It was absolutely beautiful.”
She laughed at my dreamy look. “That’ll be you and Nick one day. Just watch!”
“No way!” I growl.
“Oh, I was at the wedding. I sitting by Kristin. Me and AJ agreed that he should keep you busy. Did you have fun?” She asked sitting down beside me on the bed.
“You little sneak!” I cried starting to tickle her. Laughter and screams filled the room as we tried to kill the other. Over the last month , since the break up, we had become the best of friends.
“What is going on in here?” AJ yelled trying to join in. “Break it up!”
“AJ! Give us a girls night, please?’ Amanda begged. I laughed at the pitiful face she made.
“Oh all right.” AJ groaned leaving.
“He’s gonna kill me tomorrow!” Amanda laughed. “I’m gonna get ready for bed. Meet ya in a few.”
I sat under my warm covers waiting for her to return. Unfortunately my mind began to wonder. From phone messages to small gifts Nick would send me. Flowers, different types of candy, clothes from my favorite stores and long lengthy notes that he had written. I saved everything, especially a small chain he gave me. I wore it everyday, but made sure it stayed under my shirt.
“Anne, are you okay?” Amanda sighed as she pulled me in her arms.
“Why! Why?” I cried. She reached over and flipped the lights out and snuggled even closer.
“Just cry. You’ll get in all out, one day. Or you may just find a happy ending.”
“Manda! No! You just don’t know. He kissed me at the reception. But, I was completely in heaven the entire time. We danced and he held me so tight.” I sobbed as I buried my face in her shoulder.
“Oh Anne!” She comforted. “Only God can give you comfort. Just trust in Him and the situation will unravel before your eyes, in time.” She explained. She always had helped me keep on the right track with God. I loved her all the more for it.