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“Did you girls have fun last night?” AJ asked me the next morning.
“Yeah. Manda is still asleep. I’ve been up and doing different things sine three.”
“Up and walking around?’
“No, getting ready.” I informed.
“It took you five hours to get ready?” AJ exclaimed.
“When you’re mascara keeps running because you’re crying, yes it does!” I defended.
“Oh, sorry!” AJ apologized. “Didn’t know.”
“Great!” I gasped. “Now you made it start running again.” He laughed and I soon joined him. “So what are our plans for the day?”
“Just sit around and talk. Sound okay?”
“Yupe. Go wake Manda up. I’m sure she’ll like seeing your face more then mine.” I teased pushing him towards the guest bedroom.
A few hours later we were all talking and sitting on the couch. I watched how AJ and Amanda treated each other, I loved it. It was just like what I had with Nick.
“No!” I yelled and didn’t realize I had said it out loud.
“Anne, are you okay?” Amanda asked.
“Yeah, yeah. Just thinking, that’s all. I’m gonna go back to my bedroom for a few minutes.” I walked off and left my door open.
“Oh AJ! This is torture seeing her so unhappy. What were they like together? I never really knew.” Amanda sighed.
“Honey, you missed a blessing. It was like there was already something there when they met.”
“When did they meet?”
“Nine months ago. At a meet-and-greet. Aaron, in a way, got them together. I don’t know how many times Nick told me the story.”
“Tell me!” Amanda begged.
“Not now, too long.” He smiled giving her a quick kiss. “But it was just all too perfect.
“How?”
“Nick had been different. It was as if he had been waiting on Anne and saving himself for her, yet...they didn’t even know each other. When they met...oh my gosh! We all know it! She was the one for him, she was 16 and Nick 19, but now they are both a year older.”
“What was it like, till they got together?”
“Slow, we were cautious, cause of her age. They spent a time together first as friends, then Nick asked her out in a phone message Every time they were together, when I was or anybody was nearby, you could feel their love and joy.
“I know how they broke up. How did you guy take it?”
“Not good. That was the last thing we wanted. It was so hard on all of us. But with her coming down for the summer, we hope things will work out. Besides Nick, it was the hardest on Brian. Anne was pretty much his little sister, he’s cried with her and alone at times. He got so mad at Nick once and then just stopped. Lieghanne has saved him. We all want them back together, even Fatima. They were only together eight months and have been apart one, but they were and still are truly in love.” AJ finished.
I sank down to the ground with tears pouring out of my eyes. I cherished every word AJ had just said. They truly loved me and I couldn’t believe Brian loved me that much. I crawled up on my bed and cried. Before I knew it I had cried myself to sleep.
In the early evening I crawled out of bed and walked into the living room.
“On my! Sleeping Beauty is finally up!” AJ teased.
“Oh yes! You know I’m so beautiful!” I smiled.
“Yeah ya are!” A new voice agreed. I glance over at the door and saw a tall blond walk in and close the door behind himself.
“Nick...”I mumbled starring at him.
His eyes starred straight into mine. I don’t know how long we starred at each other. We were both frozen and couldn’t move. Then without warning, I felt my body run towards the bedroom and soon heard Nick’s footsteps close behind. I slammed the door and turned the lock.
“Anne! Please! Can we talk?” Nick pleaded trying to turn the locked knob.
“Yeah sure...talk! Just like yesterday! Just go away!” I screamed.
“No! Anne, I promise it won’t happen. Just come talk to me. I begging.”
“Sure! You probably have that other girl waiting for you when you get home. Don’t event try it!”
“I haven’t seen her since. I told her to never come back! Anne tell me when you’re ready to her my decision you told me to make. It;s waiting for you to hear.” His fist pounded on the door once as he gave up and left.
I wouldn’t give into my tears. I hd cried too much and now was the time to stop and move on. Maybe give Nick another chance, just not yet. I smiled at the thought, maybe it was the right thing and not the painful ending.
I opened my door and found Nick with tears in the corners of his eyes. He was trying to get help with what to do.
“Carter.” I coldly called.
“Anne?” he replied puzzled. “I’m just about to leave.
“Then I’ll walk with you to your car, okay?”
“Okay...”
We walked together, yet it felt like we were in two separate worlds. When I got to Nick’s car I turned to face him.
“I want to tell you something.” I informed. “Right now all I want is to be friends. Nothing more.” My heart wrenched in pain as I said to. “Will toy do that for me, for now?”
“For now.” He replied. Quickly he tried to grab my hands, but I was already running up to AJ’s house.
***
Dear Journal,
Why does everything have to fill so complicated? I almost decided to
give Nick another chance, yet something stopped me. I told him I wanted to be ‘just
friends’. That is a bunch of bull crap! I know I want more then that and so does he.
Why don’t I just give it a chance. I know it’ll work, I just don’t want to give in. I’ve
been so stubborn and a pain in the butt. Before I know it, Nick is going to be tired of
waiting and find another girl.
But all I want to say is, I love you Nick. Always.
Anne
Slowly I closed my journal, then returned it to my bag. I laid my hand on the dresser and felt a CD case.
“What is this?” I mumbled.
To: Anne, it read on the front. I took it out and put it in my walkman. I slipped the head phones on and turned up the volume. Nick’s voice echoed into my head, I almost threw the earphones off. But hearing his voice soothed my heart.
“Anne, hey sweetie. It’s awesome to have you here in Orlando. Although I hate it that we can’t share this time together like we had planned. I’m sorry for that mistake that ruined us, but please just give me another chance. I can’t eat, sleep and you’re on my mind all day. Sometimes I’m so zoned out that Fatima has to yell at me for a while to get my attention. Here listen to this. It’s from my heart, directly to you.”
Brian’s voice floated through as the words melted all the walls around my heart. They sang “It’s True” a’ capella. I pressed the earphones hard against my ears. I think he had just won me over completely.