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“This was almost as good as going to the amusement park wasn’t it?” AJ asked as he held me in his arms Friday night. I leaned my head back on him.
“I guess.” I replied slowly looking up at him.
“You guess?? What about you know so??”
“I enjoyed going to the amusement park AJ we never do anything fun like that anymore.”
“Don’t you enjoy just being with me?”
“Of course, but sometimes I enjoy doing stuff where I can actually talk to you.”
She sighed. “All we ever do is watch movies anymore.”
“We just watched a movie and we’re talking now.”
“I know, but we’ve been together for two hours and we just started talking.”
“But we were still together.”
“Being together isn’t all that matters.”
“Don’t you like being with me??”
“Of course I like being with you AJ, but I enjoy talking to you to, not just being with you.”
“I’m glad you like talking to me, but shouldn’t just knowing you’re with me be enough? It’s enough for me.”
“It can’t be enough for me…”
“What do you mean??” AJ demanded roughly pushing her up. “I’m not good enough for you? Is that what you’re saying?? You don’t enjoy being with me anymore. All you care about is that I’m a backstreet boy. You don’t care about your old AJ anymore. That’s why you think I’ve changed. It’s not me that changed – it’s you! You changed your attitude towards me!”
“Do you think that if all I cared about was the fact that you’re in the backstreet boys then I would have gone out with you in the first place?? When I first met you your backstreet boys was a group of little boys just trying to make something by singing any place they could.”
“At least I was doing something with my life. It’s only because of me that you ever tried to be anything at all. When I first met you, all you cared about was that Scott guy! You didn’t care about anything else until somebody finally showed you the light.”
“I figured out that he was a jerk all by my self thank you very much!”
“I don’t think so. You were so dumb back then and you still are. You would never have figured out about Scott and you probably would have even gone back to him if I hadn’t been in the picture.”
“I would not have. I might have been a little ditsy back then, but I most certainly wasn’t dumb and I would not have gone back to him. It might have taken me longer to get over him, but I would have done it. I’m stronger than you think I am.”
“Okay, Britney Spears, go on and tell me how much stronger you are and how you don’t need me anymore. Go on! No never mind. Don’t because I’m not listening. I don’t want to hear that crap!”
“How dare you say that to me!! I’m not a slut like Britney Spears -- you can’t call me that! And I’m not going to tell you that I don’t need you anymore because wither or not I need you I still love you!”
“No you don’t. Stop lying to me, slut!”
“AJ! You have no right to call me that. I have been faithful to you all five years we have been going out and you are the only person I ever even kissed beside Scott! You have no right to be calling me a slut!”
“I don’t care whether you’ve been faithful or not because I sure as hell haven’t been, and you can say what you want to because I know I don’t need you anymore!” AJ said as he walked out the door.
“What do you mean you haven’t?” I yelled as he slammed the door. He didn’t reply.
I stood there in shock but then realized how normal this was. He walked out on me half the times we got together not, but this is the first time I could remember that I’d actually yelled back. Imagine, I thought, he called me Britney Spears. I wonder if he’s ever met her. I wonder if he’s ever taken advantage of her sluttyness. Did I just think that?? That’s wrong wondering if my boyfriend has ever had sex with Britney Spears, although he’s not much of a boyfriend anymore…