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“AJ,” I said nervously. “We need to talk.”
“Sure!” AJ replied. “About what?”
I took a deep breath. I leaned up against the end table in my living room. I didn’t want to do this. He was going to get so mad!! But I had to. I didn’t have any choice. I knew he was going to scream and yell and slam doors, but I couldn’t keep being yelled at. It just wasn’t working.
“What?” AJ asked.
“I don’t think this relationship is right anymore AJ.” I said almost breathlessly.
“What do you mean it’s not right??”
“I’m tired of being yelled at all the time. I’m tired of you being so demanding and insisting that I’ve changed when I really didn’t. I’m tired of having to apologize when I didn’t even think I did anything wrong. I think we need to end this relationship.”
“End it?? Is that all you have to say?? You just want to dismiss me like that??”
“AJ, listen, I love you, and I don’t want to end these happy five years we’ve had together, but they’ve been happy years. We were happy together and we’re not happy anymore. We fight and don’t get along and – oh AJ – can’t you just accept it??”
“Accept my girlfriend telling me I’m a bad boyfriend and that I don’t make you happy anymore. You want me to accept that??”
“Well, honestly, yes. I love you, but I also have respect for me, which you don’t seem to have and I think both of us would be better off on our own right now. Maybe we could still talk and be friends, but our relationship really isn’t working.”
“Fine. I get the picture.” AJ said walking out the door. “I always wanted to opportunity to do what I wanted anyway.” He slammed to door.
Well, that went okay, was my first thought, he didn’t get mad or yell, or do anything that I thought he would. But he’s still gone. I had to remind myself. Five years. That’s a long time to go out with somebody then break it off because they all of a sudden started to act like a jerk. Now there would be nobody to spend all my time with. Nobody to call on the phone. Nobody to laugh and go out with and love. Nobody to love. That was what she would miss most of all, she thought, she had loved somebody for so long and even had somebody – some guy love her for so long, now she didn’t know what she would do anymore. It was a bleak feeling. She was all of a sudden so lonely. She wanted somebody to talk to, but she couldn’t call Lana. Not right now. It was early evening. She would be doing something with Tim. There wasn’t anybody else that she could call. There was nobody else to tell her that they loved her even thought AJ didn’t anymore. At least he was a good boyfriend, she thought, at least we had a good relationship while it lasted. She couldn’t wish for anything else, but one thing. She could only wish they hadn’t changed. She sat down on the couch and buried her head in the seat. For a long time she cried. Lonely and scared. She was so alone. She had never been so alone before in her life. She needed somebody now, more than she ever had. Even more than when she had had that awful thing with Scott. But she had people then and she didn’t now – or did she??
She sat up and looked around for the phone. She spotted it and grabbed it. She dialed and it rang. Finally somebody picked up. “Kemp?” She asked.