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I can't believe it. How could he?
I though…
I don't know...
Maybe I should start from the beginning.
I never heeded Lana's advice and asked him if his parents were going to be there. I just assumed they were going to be. Don't ask why I assumed that. I just did. I even told my parents that they would be, but they weren’t.
Scott came and picked me up and we went to his house. I never asked about his parents, but after a few minutes when they didn't appear and I didn't hear them, I started to get the picture. Then he told me they had gone to a party and wouldn't be back till like 2 in the morning. Well, we ordered a pizza then we got all settled on the couch. I was practically in his lap and his arms were around me and I was so happy. The pizza cam and we ate and then after a little while he kissed me!! I was so incredibly happy that when he asked: "Are you okay with that?"
I answered "Of course." - Idiot! He kissed me again. We went back to watching the movie. I was sitting there with my mind far away from the movie thinking about him kissing me and I didn't even notice his hand smoothly moving over my shoulder and to somewhere it shouldn't have been going. I finally noticed when it was almost all the way on my boob. I looked over at him and he smoothly leaned in a kissed me hard pushing me down as he did. When he finally let up we were laying on the couch and my brain was screaming that I needed to leave, but it was also thinking that how nice it felt to be kissed like that. I mean, it had never happened before. Before I had a chance to think anything through he was kissing me again getting even more into it. His hand moved up my back and unclipped my bra. I struggled to sit up, but he held me down. His hand moved form my back to my front and I didn’t think I could take it any longer. I struggled to push him off of me and finally he sat up. "What?" He demanded.
"I don't...I can't...I don't want to do that." I stumbled over my words.
"Alright." He sighed. "But don't you want to just kiss for a while? We don't have to go any further than that."
"Well....” I hesitated.
"Just kissing." He repeated.
"Well, okay. Just kissing." I agreed. I knew I shouldn't have said that, but I wanted him to like me so bad. I had invested so much in him emotionally. I had liked him for years and couldn't just tell him to take me home. He leaned over and softly kissed my lips. His tongue reached back in my mouth and started playing with mine. His hands gripped my waist and back for a while, then they started moving up and forward, until they were playing with the wrong thing and I pulled away and slapped him on the face.