April 30, 2002

Hehe, now that flute try-outs are out of the way, I can concentrate on all the work I procrastinated on O:). My uncle is having a wedding this weekend, I get to miss school on Friday and fly out to Washington D.C.!

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April 29, 2002

VINES'S TRY-OUT IS TODAY!! (Again, I think I got off somewhere with my count down :P).

I hope I'm ready, it would be nice if I could make the front row, but I just want to make symphonic. ::JITTERY:: I don't know we'll see...(7:30 am)

10 hours later...

OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH! I can't believe it! OMGOSH! (<-----excitement clearly noticed) I MADE FIRST CHAIR SYMPHONIC BAND, THE TOP BAND AT VINES! OMGOSH! :D I beat Eric, all the Wilson flutes, and the 9th graders...WOW. <----mesmerized. I'm so happy :D! I shouldn't get too excited though, I don't expect to hold on to first chair. Dennis will probably make first chair after he tries out and bump me down to second chair (AGAIN). ::SIGH:: Oh well, I'm used to being second-best ::weak smile:: [insert encouragement here]. There is a chance that Dennis might make second chair instead, but I don't think that will happen. I really don't know for sure though; haven't heard him play since September or so. Next week I'm trying out for Flag Line for marching band, wish me luck!

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April 28, 2002

2 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! NO, it can't be!! Only two freaking days to practice and I didn't practice today!!! @.@ x 10000000000

Went to RSM today again and played PuMp with Chris. Came back home, took a shower, and waited for Andy to pick me up. We rented Serendipity and watched it at his house :D! We ate his mom's sushi *YUM* and we had ice cream cake :D!! After hanging out at Andy's house, we went to mass then went to my house. That was my day. So awesome :)!

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April 27, 2002

3 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@

Gosh, I'm so nervous about try-outs, I hope I don't mess up!
Today I went with Sue and Jasmine to RSM. It was interesting. On our way over, we picked up my aunt who kept talking to my mom. It was like this one-sided conversation. Jasmine was kind of making a lot of "interesting" hand motions ;). Anyway, Jasmine got her pictures taken at Cute Things and Sue and I played a couple games of PuMp.

My grandfather took our family out to eat at Bennigan's in celebration of my mom's birthday :). I had a great time! Stayed up until 2 AM fiddling with my new bot "bOt NhO." LOL! I tried inviting it to a bi chat, but for some reason it wouldn't enter ::fake puzzlement::.

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April 26, 2002

4 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@

StudEt Council elections were today. ::POUT:: Poor Mishka didn't make it :( :/. Oh well, I'll stay optimistic for her :). Christine made student council! I knew everyone would see something in that "lil' girl" that cries out "VOTE FOR ME!" ;D. I can't believe SOME people made student council when they couldn't even spell "studEt council" correctly. All she did was dance, (she's a good dancer) but I doubt she can handle the responsibility of being on student council. She's failing FRENCH!! How could ANYONE fail Mrs. Colley's French class? Anyway, after school I had full orchestra rehearsal. I had to play my solo so much @.@. I was a little jittery, but I can handle it :)<---weak smile.
Later on, after I got home, I made the frosting for Andy's cake and I frosted the cake :D <--- pride. After he came over and ate a slice, my mom drove us to Medieval Times (YAY!) :D. Medieval Times was great! We sat in the front row and they acknowledged Andy TAN's and my mom's birthdays. LOL :D. The food was ok, I was utensil-LESS @.@. How uncivilized, I actually ATE with my hands! Poor Andy, we were sitting so close that when the horses charged they kicked up dirt and some of it got near his plate and a piece of dirt hit my head! Oh yeah, when you fist enter Medieval Times, you have your picture taken with the king. Well, Andy blinked, so before we left he had his picture retaken. The car ride home was so long. ::YAWN:: I fell asleep on Andy's shoulder O:). Around midnight, we got back to my house, I cut half of the cake, gave it to Andy, and took him home :).

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April 25, 2002

6 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@ (I think i got off somewhere because there are only REALLY 5 DAYS!! @.@)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY!!! WO AI NEE :D.

Today was pretty kewl. I came to Haggard earlier to wrap Andy's locker, then I went outside to "play" tennis (Miachel and CX stole the rackets so I couldn't technically "play"!!). After patching things up with Sue, my day turned out so much better :).
Full orchestra rehearsal today. ARGH! We (the flutes) have to play this annoying sixteeenth note run an octive higher. I couldn't even play it flawless as it WAS. @.@ I'm going to have to work on it...My solo isn't so bad anymore :). I'm actually getting used to having to play it in front of a bunch of people who stare intently at me like blowing into a silver tube is interesting :P.
Can't want until tomorrow! My mom is taking Andy and I to Medieval Times for her birthday (April 29th) and Andy's birthday (today) :D. For Andy's birthday, I baked him a cake. I hope he likes it. I think it's really good, it's called Sunshine Cake and it has mandarine oranges in the cake covered in this pineapple-vanilla flavored icing. Anyway, I baked the cake tonight, I'll let it refrigerate, then I'll make the icing and ice it tomorrow after full orchestra rehearsal.

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April 24, 2002

7 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@

Things have gone from bad to worse...

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April 23, 2002

8 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@

Today has been surprisingly, pleasantly good (up to a certain point). I was laughing and smiling more than I usually do. To begin, around fourth period I had my flute lesson with the DREADED Mrs. Valliant. I really didn't know what to expect from her, she usually just yells at me about something then spends the whole lesson lecturing me (accomplishing NOTHING). Today was different :). We actually went through all the music at a reasonable tempo AND moved up (<------ WOW :D). She complimented me by saying she was very impressed with how well I played my slow piece, and she thinks I might have a chance to earn a spot on the front row (riiiight, that's never going to happen @.@), but still! *Hehe*, sixth period was awesome. For sixth period, I have PACE, and we're "supposed" to be working on our projects (which I HAVE! O:) @.@), but instead "sometimes" I use it as a study hall to catch up on English (which is after sixth period ;D) Anyway, I'm just sitting in the library with Miachel and Chenxia. I want to show Chenxia I maneuver on PuMp with my hand, except it doesn't work that way, my hand doesn't turn 360 degrees. So I used the book as a model. Very interesting. LOL! Anyway, we spent most of our time cracking up and laughing so hard. It was great :). Anyway, I was having such a great day, I swear I haven't felt this happy in a month, then I do something stupid and it completely ruined it for me. One little mistake, and now I'm in a rut @.@. To get my mind off of things, I invited Miachel to go with me to the library to STUDY (which I DID! I made up for lost time in sixth period at the library :P). After I was done I tried to go on the library's computers to use the internet. Guess what?!? You have to fill out a stupid, ridiculous form to use the computer. BAH! Whatever, I'm not going to fill out a form, I'll just wait to go home to use the computer. Or so I thought...

My mom got really mad at me, saying that all I cared about was going on AIM to chat. So she "told" (yelled) me to get off the computer. So I take my radio ito my room where I take refuge. It's amazing how much work I accomplished while listening to the EDGE. I actually finished all my homework :D. Anyway, I still felt bad about how my mom felt. So I came into her room to say good night, and she was on the computer writing an e-mail. Then she asked me what I was doing and I said I wanted to say good night. She didn't do anything so I just turned around and returned to my room. I started writing in my journal. I wrote about things that took place during the past few weeks, things I wish I could take back, things I wish I had done. This only led to self-pity and a lot of Kleenex. My mom came into my room to try to console me, she felt bad about not giving me a hug like she usually does when I come into her room to say good night. Seeing my tears she immediently interrogated me about why. Why? That is a good question, for I do not even know myself. It's NOT one thing. It's a combination of events, disappointments, anger, frustration, lonliness. I'm not crying over a "little" thing, or am I? You don't cry over "little" things or "big" things, you cry over important things, THINGS you CARE about, things you wish you could have done or said to remove all doubt from someone's mind. Isn't that what a "true" friend does? I simply do not hold the answer to that, because I'm still trying to figure it out myself...

P.S. - I hope the person I intended to recieve the message from my journal entry doesn't take anything I said in a negative way. Just remember, that isn't my intention, I'm just trying to explain myself because I DO care and I can't believe you would ever doubt me.

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April 22, 2002

9 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! It's COMING!! @.@

Nine more days. I'm so nervous, a week from now I'll be at Vines playing to see which chair I am qualified to be placed in among other flutists from Haggard, Wilson, and Vines. >WHEW< The pressure is ON...
Today I had rehearsal with the full orchestra. It wasn't so bad, but when I got to my solo, I locked up. I've never been so nervous and equally scared about something like this. Think about it, during that solo, the orchestra's performance rests in your hands. ::GULP:: I hope I can handle the responsibility!

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April 21, 2002

10 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

ArGh! Stupid car (again)! Christine, Chris, and I are on our way to RSM, and all of a sudden our car overheats again! My mom panicked, so we went home. Oh well, later on my uncle took Chris and I to Whirly Ball and we played PuMp there, so it wasn't so bad :D. Somone challenged me to battle at PuMp (fool >:D). We played "Com' Back", "Passion", and "Time to Say Goodbye". By the third song, he gave up and left in the middle, and ::enthusiastic smile:: I WON! *Muahahahahaha* After that, Andy came over to my house and we started watching Young Frankenstien then went to church. Afterwards, we went to Wal*Mart and we were spotted by MRS. WALLS! The science teacher! AGAIN! ::EMBARASSING:: >.<

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April 20, 2002

11 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

ArGh! Stupid car! My mom, cousin, and I are on our way to Houston, right? We've driven about three hours from Dallas, and all of a sudden the car overheats and acting crazy and stuff. My mom freaks out, so we turn around and go back to Plano :P. If only we had turned around sooner, becuase I had my mom to stop by Main Event to wish Sophia a happy birthday, and everyone was LEAVING! @.@ LOL. I played PuMp! So it wasn't so bad after all :D. Tomorrow I'm going to RSM with my friends, and we're going to play PuMp until our legs turn to numb jell-o :P!

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April 19, 2002

12 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

YAY! Today is Friday!
I tried out for the solo in full orchestra today. I hope I played well. I would give anything to play the solo ::sigh::, hehe I'm sure the *concertmaster* could help me O:). Tryouts are coming up so fast! I played my music for Mr. Valliant and he said everything was fine, which made me feel a little assured :). After that, Sue and I went to the rec center. We played ping-pong, tehn we walked around and talked. I think Sue scared this little boy named Simon. LOL! Haha. Tomorrow I'm going to Houston! Fun Fun Fun!

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April 18, 2002

13 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

I had another lesson with Mrs. V today. Surprisingly, things weren't so bad. I actually managed to NOT scream at her (in my mind of course ;D).

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April 17, 2002

14 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

ARGH! I can NOT stand my flute teacher. She criticizes me for the "incorrect" way I hold my flute when I've been playing the way SHE told me to. She told me I have no "emotion" in my music. When I play, they're "just notes." AND....all she did during the whole lesson was talk, talk, TALK! (Blames it on me of course @.@). She then yelled at me for playing the piccolo, insisting it screwed my sound and all that. Hmph.

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April 16, 2002

15 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

ARGH! Math TAAS was so BORING and LONG! After we finished, all we could do was sit. I drew on the desks a "bit" O:), but soon that also got boring. NO FRENCH ALL WEEK! *MUAHAHAHAHA!!*

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April 15, 2002

16 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

*Hehe* Today is the day you turn in your income taxes :P. Hmm, tomorrow is TAAS, I'm going to be bored out of my mind. @.@ ::waves:: HELP!

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April 14, 2002

17 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

::YAWN:: NO SLEEP! *Hehe* Strangly enough, I have this unnatural boost of energy *muahahahaha* ::rubs hands together vigorously::. I'm getting my hair cut today! I hope it turns out well >eh heh<.

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April 13, 2002

18 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

Today is Leila's birthday party day! Did I mention her birthday was in February? Poor Leila, she had to keep delaying it, but now she can finally have the party she deserves! :D

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April 12, 2002

18 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

My mom treated Andy and I to eat at Osaka Sushi :). Mmmm, so good, yet SOOO filling @.@ LOL. In order to work of all the calories I just ate (eh heh) I "convinced" (more like B-E-G-G-E-D) my mom to take me to play ine little game of PuMp. So, my mom dropped me off and waited for me to finish in her car. I wanted top play another game O:) so, I asked her to watch me and she reluctantly came in. After watching me she WANTED to stay to watch this little boy play and LAUGHED (yes...in a mocking sort of way) when the boy messed up and his father tried to take over, LOL. It was quite interesting...
I think Andy's parents are very generous and kind. When they came to pick up ANdy they gave my mom and I a box of Krispy Kream Donuts :). Thank you, that was so thoughtful!

Yay! It's Friday!
Yes! *Muahahahahaha* I get to practice with the piccolo :) fun, fun, fun! Piccolo is so cute, the only annoying thing about it is that after you play with it for awhile your left index finger starts to go numb. *Hehe* That COULD pose a little problem...

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April 11, 2002

19 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

My conflict is settled, I think, I HOPE. Way do some people have to IM me about it and make me feel guilty?! ::sigh::.
Today was such a depressing day. Instead of being depressed, I now feel guilt.

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April 10, 2002

20 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS!

C.C.D. was kewl. Pray for the souls in Purgatory.

Today has been so crummy. One of my friends is mad at me because I wrote something depressing in my profile about how I felt. She said I should take it out so people won't know only one side of the story and so that they won't hate her. All I can say is, I'm not mad at her, but how can she tell ME what to do, when she does the exact thing when she puts up something in her profile about how crummy she's feeling at the moment. HYPOCRYCY. Hmph, today is my PMS day, so just give it to me and get the hell off my back, ALRIGHT?!?!
Why is it that whenever I feel bad, people ask me what's wrong, then when I explain it's called "complaining," and afterwards they believe I'm being selfish/bratty/bitchy?!?

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April 9, 2002

VINES MUSIC CAME OUT TODAY! I HAVE 21 DAYS BEFORE TRY-OUTS! TIME TO PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE! @.@ Goshies, it's in a freaky key, FIVE flats!

I practiced so much today. Practically all evening excluding time used up watching my soap opera and eating. >WHEW< Exhausting. I'm going to try to practice everyday around 5 o'clock or so for about an hour or more.

*Hehe* I was never "confronted" by that girl for our little "chat," she just glared at me and I smirked :D. I did literally run into her in the hall, but nothing happened :P.

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April 8, 2002

Interesting, three people have told me how lucky I am. I believe this is quite false. If I am so lucky, then why do I end up envying other people? ::PRIDE:: I practiced today :D.

Hmph, Miachel inviting me into this gay HMS chatroom with all these gay people in it (meaning the pops, Mishka, Sue, and Tim are excluded). Since no one knew who I was, I started dissing our school, and they got offended, (WTF? We're talking about FAGGARD here...:P), then I started dissing this one girl, and she started threatening me and saying something like, "I have connections, I'm going to find out who you are, blah blah blah, make you pay, blah blah blah." It was kind of fun because I said my name was "Julia," but when this other girl read my profile she realized it was me O:). Pshhhh, she completely gave me away. Now the girl I was dissing, wants to have a "talk" with me at school...oOoOo, soo scared. *Hehe* Andy took care of her, he warned her up to 100% O:) >:D. Anyways, as for our little "chat" we'll see what happens tomorrow :P.

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April 7, 2002

I stayed up until midnight at Chris's party, so I sleep in until 11 :). Right when I wake up I get a call from Chris to come over to his house. After about 3 hours of prepping (yes, I take that long to get ready, so what?!? :P) I finally go over. For the first 20 minutes I sit and do nothing while watching (with much amusement) my cousin and his friend "eat" cake (they attacked the poor thing!! >.<). *Hehe* Later on, I "suggest" to go to RSM to play PuMp O:). Yes, I realize I have an obssessive compulsive disorder, ::throws head back and laughs hysterically:: :P. I got an "A" on Com' Back and a "S" on Passion (this was on HARD :P)!! :D Go me, I'm so special *muahahahahaha* (insert laugh here). RSm is such a TRULY ghetto mall, hehe, I mean what pther mall besides it has a ROSS?!? Argh, that annoying lil' dude was at the arcade. He did Turkey March and got an "A" -.0 @.@. *Hehe* Oh well. Chris had fun, too, with his friend Bradley. *Hahaha* they are such newbies, I had to help them a lil' but they got the hang of it in no time :). Chris is seriously thinkign about buying a PuMp machine. *Hehe* I'll have to go to his house and practice O:).

BTW: Bradley I want my book back ASAP, :P. Whenever I find Sabrial I'll lend it to you.

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April 6, 2002

Today is Chris's birthday! YAY! He's 15, uh oh, now he has the ability to get his driver's permit...AHHHHHHH (scary ;D). LOL. Today I went to Chris's party. At first I was bored, and didn't have much fun, but after we went to Barnes & Nobles things turned out better :). Later on, I dragged everyone to the arcade and "introduced" Chris to PuMp O:). Now he's addicted to it, too. LOL. OMGOSHIES! While I was playing, these two junior high school guys were totally checking me out. @.@ A girl said they were staring at my ass and saying I was cute. Ehhhh...they DID pull up chairs to watch, but I thought they were waiting to use the PuMp machine >.<. When I finished playing, they whistled and clapped. At least I know I'm not horrible to watch @.@.

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April 5, 2002

Today is...FRIDAY!! *Hehehe* Tomorrow is Chris's birthday so be sure to wish him a BIG happy b-day, ok? :D Oy, I need to get him a gift...a gift certificate should "do"...O:) It BETTER. I'm going to play PuMp! Woo-hoo, HOPEFULLY it won't be broken AGAIN ;D, after all, Miachel is coming with me. Hopefully her jinx won't follow us AGAIN!

Examples:
1. We go to the arcade to find that the PuMp machine is BROKEN @.@. So, we walk to Schlotzsky's to eat and afterwards Miachel walks home and Sue and I return to find that the machine has MIRACULOUSLY been fixed ;D.

2. We go to RSM to play PuMp and take pictures, but ALAS Miachel could NOT go >.<.

3. We go to the arcade, and these people rented out the entire building for a party, so it was CLOSED! Hmph...:P

Hopefully our next attempt will be more successful and we shall COMPLETE our mission in making Miachel addicted to PuMp! *Muahahahahaha* :D.

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April 4, 2002

YAY! HMS Band kicks! We were so awesome today at UIL. ALL 1s = SWEEPSTAKES!! (We've upheld our tradition ;D). I'm so impressed by how much our band has worked so hard for our performance. We made like no mistakes. I seriously think our band actually stands a good chance on making All State Honor Band :D. Tryouts for full orchestra are coming up soon at my school. I want to make first chair so badly. I hope I do well :/. I've been dreaming about full orchestra all year practically, here's my chance to "get-to-know-my-orchestra-*friends*-better" ;D *WINK WINK*.

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April 3, 2002

Tomorrow is UIL and I have to dress up :D. Tee hee hee, I'm giong to dress up and wear my hair up in a bun. Do you know how RARE it is for me to wear a dress, not to mention wear my hair up in a bun? :P. I shuold have Sue take a pic of me with her digi cam if she can :). I wish I had a digi cam, then I could take pics of UIL, ::sigh:: oh well. :P *Hehe* At least I have bobby pins THIS time...

I'm going through a slight depression. I'm going to be sitting in second chair for UIL ::sigh::, I'm so disappointed in myself. Make one stupid mistake and you lose first chair and it sticks for FIVE freaking months @.@.

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April 2, 2002

Back to school with no more breaks until SUMMER! @.@ Oh well, heh, I'll survive somehow :P.

Nothing much happened at school, just the "usual." After school Chenxia and Leila come over to my house to "work" on our French skit ;). After about an hour with our laughter, French, and the word "SUGGESTIVE" occasionally yelled, we finished our script. *Hehe* I'm so glad not many people are in my French class @.@. LOL, it's going to be so funny!
Argh, I have to memorize the retarded lines for the dumb French skit or I can't get an "A", and you can't get an "A+" without props. @.@ Argh, Madame Colley "needs" to be entertained, pshhhhhhhh. I say bah humbug :P.

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April 1, 2002

Today is my ANNIVERSERY! FOUR MONTHS! :D I love you Andy!

Today I went to the mall with Andy, Sue, and Chenxia, and we met VIncent, Nicole N., and Christine there. Sue, Andy, Chenxia, and I had single pic-TURES taken and had our big group photo once we met everyone. The rest of the time was spent either playing PuMp or walking around the mall. >whew< Another big, hefty workout for me by playing PuMp excessivly. My legs are numb jell-o again. :P
AHHHHHHH, my cat just jumped into my lap. OWWIE! Legs...can't move...numb...
Ewwwwwwwwwwww...my cat's licking me. @.@!


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