Maddie left a little while after the *NSYNC entourage did. She and Romero
took a cab back to the hotel. Wendy wanted to stay at Carson's and even though
Madison knew that she was leaving Wendy alone with a man she drooled over every
day and would probably do nasty things to if given the chance, she didn't have
the energy to argue with her. Later on, Maddie wouldn't remember paying the cab
driver or walking across the lobby to the elevators or unlocking her door or
undressing. She remembered riding in the cab and listening to Romero shoot the
breeze with the driver about their native homeland of Brazil; but the next thing
she was aware of was lying immersed in bubbles in a steaming hot bath. Her mind
had been a fog ever since the kiss. The kiss…
'Could you even classify
it as a kiss?' she wondered. 'I wonder what the definition of a kiss is. Is
there a time limit for a kiss to be a kiss or is it that any time a man's lips
touch a woman's it's a kiss? Cause his only touched mine for about half a
second…So why the hell have I been thinking about it for the last hour? And why
does that one second seem like an eternity? God. I shouldn't feel like this over
one little kiss. Brad never made me feel this way. No one has ever made me-oh
shit, I'm SO not going there! This is not some cheesy romance novel where the
hero sweeps some damsel in distress off her feet, this is my life and I say that
this is NOT happening!'
Involuntarily, she thought of the kiss
again-Justin's lips pressed against hers. She had been surprised at how soft
they were. And how warm. She'd felt that same warmth when he'd grabbed her hand
to pull her out to the balcony. It was as if his body temperature was a few
degrees higher than everyone else's was. She reflected on how her hand had felt,
nestled inside his, his fingers wrapped securely around hers. She wasn't sure
but she thought she felt calluses on the pads of his fingertips. That was
something of a shocker; one would assume that a big star like him would have
everything done for him. Or at the least that he would get manicures. Her mind
went back to the mental picture she'd taken of him, standing in the glow of the
light coming through the glass doors of the balcony. He had been talking to his
friends and she had become enraptured with his mouth, his teeth, his face. The
way he smiled, the expressions he made.
She sighed. 'I've got to stop
this. No more obsessing about Justin 'Teenie-Magnet' Timberlake. I cannot like
him. I won't like him. And even if the sky fell, pigs flew and hell froze over
and I did start liking him, which would never happen, I could never be with him
cause his fans would probably assassinate me. So that's that.'
She
pondered on that for a few moments before another thought occurred to her: 'What
did he mean, he shouldn't have said what he did? What the hell did he say and
who did he say it to?'