I am is the oldest of eight children and anyone who knew me would say I would never have children after taking care of all of my siblings for so long. Brian, my husband, came from a family of four children and that was considered large enough...even though his father was the youngest of nine. We knew we wanted a large family but that meant five or MAYBE six at the most! We were scofted at for even wanting that many children! Well, during our first eight years of marriage we had our five children, WOW! That was it! came Brian's reply when I told him number five was on the way... and before the baby was even born a vasetomy would be performed as to ensure there were no more little ones. Well, I seemed please on the outside though I was devestated on the inside and Brian, well he was relieved! No more people to have to worry about providing for!

As time went on I became more and more upset, my baby was getting older! I began to pray, God please forgive us and change Brian's heart!" God soon began to work!

Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

Psalm 37:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

Isn't God amazing?????

God began to change my husband's heart!

Maybe God's tugging at Brian's heart wasn't quite enough or just maybe God wanted to encourge him in the decision he was a little hesitant to make... but either way, God began to put people in our lives. Some with many children and others who had had reversals and had children following the proceedure! I searched around the web and found a few books at a used book site. I bought them! This book spoke my heart, so much so that I called and talked with the author! What an encouragement she had been to me.

Brian began to say things like, "I counted all of the children..who's missing?" or "WOW, it would be cool to have so many blessings!" and even "You know, if we had the money I would consider getting a reversal."

Well, that last statement got me off to a busy start! It didn't take me long to find reversal doctors on the internet. To my surprise there were alot of people with the same convictions! We were not alone and some doctors even felt this way! We found a doctor who provided the surgery as a ministry! We were amazed! God had provided a doctor and an extremely lost cost surgery all we had to do was pray for the finances! God again provided.

The surgery went well and we were so excited! We never had a problem concieving before even though we never tried and figured within a month I would be pregnant. Each month I was devestated and Brian and I finally go to the point of saying "It was never going to happen."

We began to take comfort in the fact that we put things back in God's hands, which REALLY was the whole point!

The next day, believing it was a BIG waste of time, I took what I thought would be one last pregnancy test, and guess what! "I WAS PREGNANT!"

The Lord truely blesses those who seek and obey Him!"

We have experienced bumps along the way and I suppose will continue to, but isn't that just part of a surrendered life? The blessings far exceed the irritation of the critisism!