| The
Happening
oooo-oo and then it happened
(and then it happened)
oooo-oo and then it happened
(then it happened)
0000-oo and then it happened
The Happening
(the happening)
(happening)
One day you're lost
(one day you're lost)
Next day you're found
(next day you're found)
and then i have to make up some word cuz i don't know what goes
here
Dah-dah-dah-da
(dah-dah-dah-da)
It turns around
(it turns around)
It happened to me
and It can happen to you
(you, You, YOU!)
One day you're lost
(one day you're lost)
Next day you're found
(next day you're found)
and then i have to make up some word cuz i don't know what goes
here
Dah-dah-dah-da
(dah-dah-dah-da)
It turns around
(it turns around)
It happened to me
and It can happen to you
(you, You, YOU!)
The
Happening
oooo-oo and then it happened
(and then it happened)
oooo-oo and then it happened
(then it happened)
0000-oo and then it happened
The Happening
(the happening)
(happening)
One day you're lost
(one day you're lost)
Next day you're found
(next day you're found)
and then i have to make up some word cuz i don't know what goes
here
Dah-dah-dah-da
(dah-dah-dah-da)
It turns around
(it turns around)
It happened to me
and It can happen to you
(you, You, YOU!)
One day you're lost
(one day you're lost)
Next day you're found
(next day you're found)
and then i have to make up some word cuz i don't know what goes
here
Dah-dah-dah-da
(dah-dah-dah-da)
It turns around
(it turns around)
It happened to me
and It can happen to you
(you, You, YOU!)
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Rite of Passage!
11/17/00
Was having a dream I was finding somewhat frightening. It seemed
some guy had gotten the hots for me and he was making his presence known.
The moment I became alarmed was when I received some mail from him.
It was my renewal for my tags (the little sticker you get) with two pictures
he had taken of me. I could tell this guy had been watching me for
some time. In one picture I was sitting on a balcony in California.
That was in 1984. In the picture I could clearly see this guy smiling
with glee as he captured the picture of me sitting there with my panties
exposed. In the second picture it was the same thing. He clearly
was taking pictures of me in my most vulnerable position. This picture
was taken at least 10 years later!
This was when I became quite alarmed and the dream began to terrify me.
Soon after this the dream split into two dreams. In one, I was still
in the house but I had begun watching a movie on TV. The movie was
very frightening. In the other dream, I was the one living the movie.
I saw myself going into the woods. There was also a man going into
the woods with me. It seemed he was not so much One with Nature but
he was a ghostlike image of the memory I carry of him with me.
The me inside the house saw the one called One fall onto an ax and get
back up with it sticking out of his head. The me living the movie
knew this was going to happen so when he got close to where the ax lay
I yelled a warning for him to stay away from there. But it was too
late. I watched in horror as he stumbled to the ground. When
he got up, sure enough, there was an ax stuck in his head. I went
to him and pulled it out. He seemed to be in a daze.
About this time, the part of me that was watching the movie thought, “Oh
I’ve got to turn this off! This horror show is scaring me to death.”
As I reached up to turn off the TV the part of me that was living the movie
was helping the part of One I carry in my memories into a ditch to hide
him.
As I was dong this, an old woman and a young sapling appeared. She
was an Ancient One, big, and dressed in a gray dress. Her dress had
darker streaks and lighter streaks going up and down it. I instantly
recognized her as a tree I had enjoyed the pleasure of hugging. Grateful
for her appearance I exclaimed, “Oh I’m not scared of you. You are
the tree I once hugged.” Relief swept through me as I proclaimed,
‘ Here let me give you a hug!”
She held out her arms to me as I went to embrace her. She told me
that all was not as it was appearing in my dream. That this dream
was about me and “Cha-che-wo-ah ,” the “Rite of Passage” that I had to
pass through to get to where I was meant to be. As she said this,
she pointed her finger down a path. But it was like a vision, not
a part of this dream. She held out her hand and from her hand stretched
out this path that I had to travel to get to my final destination.
And this destination felt like home, only there was a veil hanging over
my destination and I couldn’t remember ever being there. I just knew
that once I got there it would feel like home. And then she said, “This
dream is about you and what you must overcome, the path you must now travel
to get to the place you were meant to be. (The place that felt like home.)
It’s your ‘Rite of Passage.’”
About that time I heard a motorcycle coming. I was still in the mode
of feeling frightened, so I threw myself into the ditch with my memory
of One.
On the motorcycle was a nice looking, dark skinned man with long hair flowing
in the wind as it came out of his helmet. He smiled at me as he drove
by. This made think he was the one who had sent me the pictures!
I was trying to grasp what the Ancient Tree Spirit had told me, and yet
as my terror grew I huddled down in the ditch, thinking the guy was going
around to make a pass before attempting to hit me with his motorcycle!
I turned to the Ancient Tree Spirit again and asked her, “This dream is
not about someone trying to kill me? This is about my overcoming
something as a part of my “Rite of Passage?” She assured me, “This
is about you and only you. It is something you must do. It
is your Cha-che-to-wah (phonic spelling) your Rite of Passage.”
With that I found myself back in my home. I was in my waterbed.
It had just been put up and it was all dusty. I was trying to clean
it and make it pretty. There was an Indian figurine I was attempting
to clean and put in its place, but it seemed I was over-doing it and that
was causing it to change shape. She was becoming more pliable so
that soon she was in a very humble position down on her hands and knees.
Then I heard this “Pop!” Then a crackling sound as Eagles wings
came out of her back and began to spread open as if she were preparing
to take flight!
With this I panicked again! I had made her so pliable in cleaning
her that I wasn’t certain she would balance right and by now it seemed
like she was trying to upright herself and was stuck in a half upright
position. . Like she was still bent over but was only 3 quarters up.
And her wings were still spread so it did not seem like she could possibly
remain upright!
About that time I realized the memory of One was in bed with me and he
was struggling against what I was doing because a song was playing that
was telling him to go to sleep. I was feeling irritated with him
for being in my bed when I was trying to do something so important.
But the Ancient Tree Spirits words were reminding me that this was something
I must overcome as a part of my ‘Rite of Passage’ and it seemed they were
singing my memory of One to sleep. |
And by now Desert Storm has found his way into my web page. He is
telling me that reading my words was like seeing his own life from another
perspective. Then he starts gifting me, in return, with more pictures
of more lightning strikes, and my body is experiencing these protoplasm’s
of joy. The clouds and the lightning are dancing before me and with
every picture, there is this wave taking over my body. It begins
at my head and slowly sweeps down through my entire body into my feet.
I feel like I am loosing my balance, my body is singing so much love for
these clouds and these lightning strikes!
So I find out a friend of mine is sick, and I think I need to do some volunteer
work to bring me back down to Earth. I call her but she doesn’t want
to talk about herself. She assures me she is fine. Her son
has come home to take of her (I can hear her smile over this.) And
she wants me to talk about myself and how my life has went since I got
laid off.
Well I am the storyteller! So I start in the place where we shared
our last memories which was me getting laid off while she got offered a
position by the company who bought us out. And how it was that I
had told them all that this job was not my destiny. And that I was
going to go home to work on my destiny. . My Guardians guided me through
the fear that struck the group as we knew we were about to get laid off.
By then though, I was listening to every instruction my Guardians sent
me.
As soon as I got laid off the first instruction became; “Write the book”,
Journey to the Edge of the Precipice. I started doing that but there
were times when I had to re-enter the pain and it hurt. So I asked
them if I could maybe send in some poetry to a contest (you know maybe
help supply my income while I was laid off). . but they just said, “No
Write the Book!”
So I did. I sat here and typed up the book, thinking the reason I
was supposed to do this was to tell this story was because I was laid off
and they were going to use this to supply me with an income.
As soon as I got the book typed up, the instructions became, “Now put it
onto a web page and then put it on the web.” Wow! I barely
knew anything about computers in the first place and now they were telling
to create a web page. . Of course they provided me with a book, so I studied
and studied, worked very hard and by the time May was here, I had been
sitting here at this computer for 5 months but I got my web page out here
on the Internet.
All this time I didn’t worry about the fact that I didn’t have a job, or
the fact that no one was answering my résumé’s. But
after 5 months it began to wear on me, this concern that I was unemployed
during a time when so many other good workers had been laid off.
But then I got an invitation from the Place of Peace, and I knew I was supposed to
go there. . And of course you know the whole song my heart sang about that!
I had to sing the whole song to her including Take Me To Your Teepee and
what he said to me and how he explained to me that I had said the prayer
and now I needed to let go so Great Spirit could do his work in his own
time. . And I had to tell her about the one Eagle going in and the 2 Eagles
going out. . and how I knew that was a sign that I was to pay close attention
to everything that happened to me there. And when I got back Kisa
showed up, and that story, and then my Talisman showed up, so now I was
having fun, as instructed. In the meantime I had found my way here. . and now I was really having a wonderful time. . and
I knew that every time I worried about not having a job, my Guardians would
tell me not to worry. . and with all of the guidance I was receiving and
all of the instructions I was following, I should be able to walk this
unemployment thing on faith but sometimes it really scared me. .
Yet I knew I was being lead!
After we hung up I was talking in my mind about the story I had just told
her, the way it danced between my faith, with little beams of light shooting
off the side from where my faith should be stronger. . always seeing where
my faith in getting a job should manifest. . and seeing how my faith in
this journey back to you was manifesting in strong steps of guidance.
And then it happened!
Suddenly I merged with that lightning bolt!
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