Go weep for her Maureen
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the Place of Peace
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After this it was time to go back up to Russellville
for the sweat.. I was still undefined in that I still had not been able to
locate where I had stored my memories of her..
The memories of my first Sweat Lodges are sacred,
like going to Church, sacred.. That's how it felt.. like going to Church..
smudged first, bow down, say a prayer, ask to enter... off to my side a spirit
animal comes up and sniffs my neck.. look over and it my Cheetah.. wow, thinking
hope no one feels threatened by this, for the Cheetah enters in with me..
I wanted to remain silent this time. I had
exposed so much of myself in the 2 sweats before this on. I wanted to
remain silent, no testimonies this time, no sharing. But when it came time
to speak, to share myself, there was the Cheetah telling me to share her story
of appearing to me on the mountain.. so I did..
Later the girl who sat beside me took me home with
her and her mate to spend the night. She told me that the Cheetah sharing
message was for her..
The next morning I got up and drove back to the
the Place of Peace mountain to do the ceremony I had been sent to do.. As I went up the
mountain I was instructed on where to place the gemstones, so I did as I was
told.. got up to the top, it was still a little bit early and went to the Stone
People I had gone too earlier.. I was still thinking I needed to find my memories
of when I was there before, when the hot springs came up out of her and made
rainbows appear upon her body. I had been there a week and remembered
being her sister, but I hadn't been able to locate my memories.. They were
so funny, I was sitting there fretting over spending a week not being able to
find my memories, thinking, "you know I'm a funky girl, and I know me, I
would have stored my memories somewhere." and they just laughed and said,
"you stored your memories in a man."
After that the birds told me how to get to the place
where I was to weep for the mountain. They kept saying, "go this way."
And then, "go that way." I followed all the instructions and found myself
at the top on one side of the mountain sitting on a stone, speaking into the
collective as if I was making my supplication to them over the Place of Peace, over the
Indian people in general. So very beautiful and sacred in their
ceremonies, yet they feel as though they have been whipped, even as they stand
sacred in their ceremonies so beautiful. I asked that the ones who could
hear me that they would open the pathways needed for the healing to take place,
to know that the world saw their sacred walk and opened up the pathways before
them so that they could perform their ceremonies without the need to view with
sarcasm all the pain and the hurt over not being view as sacred in their walk.
As I was doing this I began to hear the stones
singing, well what I heard was this great Ommmmmmmm.. and the more I tried to
send out my supplication the louder this Ommmmmm became, so that eventually my
prayer, mingled with my tears became smaller and smaller, and I started thanking
the stones I seen around me for joining me in my prayer, for they were creating
this Ommmmmmm that was so loud that I could hardly hear myself praying, talking
to the collective listeners, asking for volunteers to step forth, open up the
pathways for the Indians.. I could hardly hear anything more than this beautiful
collective Ommmmmmm of the stone people going up into the grid.
Finally I stood up and turned to see the source of
this great Ommmmmmm, and I was so awed by what I saw for the birds had taken me
into this great amphitheater. Hundred of stone people sitting there,
Grandfathers and grandmothers, children and teens, mothers and father, the Stone
people all came to join me in my prayer. It was beautiful.
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