Bitter Sweet
I took you in with one breath
You consumed me with your touch
The feelings that welled up inside
Just became all to much
The thought of merely kissing you
Made my whole body quiver
But then things became painful
Caused my body to shiver
I didn't know what to do
I was growing bitter
I love - no, I hate you
They say "hell hath no fury
Like that of a woman scorned"
But look at what you've made me
So angery and forlorned

I Love You, I Hate You, Goodbye
I remember when I met you
I felt so happy then
We had such a perfect day
Up to the very end
But you're not here anymore
You've gone so far away
Why did you have to go
When we both wanted you to stay
This has been so hard on me
Every night I cry
Sometimes I have to wonder if
I should just say goodbye

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Miss you love
I'm so alone
You have left me
Turned to stone
Please be faithful
Come back dear
Need you close
So there's nothing to fear

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I watched myself live
I felt myself love
Without you by me
Now I feel nothing
The void that you filled
Is once again empty
Waiting for something
To fill it again

Hidden Love
I’m trapped in you’re reality
Behind the broken glass
And somehow I cannot see
A way I can get past
You’re not the one I’m thinking of
I really to change
Looking back at what I love
I realize that I’m strange
I had the world bowed at my feet
And chose to fuck it up
Now the nectar’s bittersweet
When I drink from the cup
No matter how I try to be
I fuck things up with you
Either way I know you’ll hate me
It’s a catch twenty-two
Maybe one day I’ll be able
To show you that I care
It just seems so impossible
That you couldn’t be aware
One day I will prove to you
That my love is true
But in my heart I’ll always know
It won’t matter to you

So Much Pain, So Little Time
I meant to see you one last time
But fate would not agree
I was just too scared to tell you
That we were meant to be
I’ve always been a chicken shit
When saying how I feel
I was just scared of the consequences
Of what I would reveal
You were my best friend in the world
The greatest guy I knew
But your friendship wasn’t enough
I was in love with you
It’s too late to change things now
Because I’m gone for good
But I haven’t forgotten you yet
I doubt I ever could

Alone
without you
my will is gone
i have nothing
to fill this void
my soul was your
for the taking
but you just turned
and walked away
all that survived--
a broken shell--
was of no use
since you left
how will i
pick up the pices
when you had always
been my glue?

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i walked through a dream
to be close to you
feeling your aura
wrap itself around me
you captured my heart
i can't feel the ground
my body is numb
until you touch me
skin against skin
i tremble at the feeling
lips touching lips
your kisses intoxicate me
now i lay beside you
listening to your heart beat
i close my eyes
and fall asleep beside you
make me forget
the rest of the world
with just you and i
we'll never miss it
alive in the stars
and sleeping on clouds
where we can escape
everyone's judgements
i only need you
you only need me
that's all it would take
to make me complete

untitled
i was standing in the dust
of what i left behind
but then you came
and helped me uup
in an instant
i fell hard
forgetting the things
that plagued my mind
when you hold me
nothings wrong
i feel as if
i'm safe forever
but it's so hard
missing you
and feeling this way
makes me wish i could stop
i don't know where i'm going
i don't know where i am
will there be an answer
to the pain i'm living in

memories
i need him here with me
sometimes life's too hard
i hate being alone
the pain is just too much
will i ever forget
as the years go by
or will the memories
remain in my mind

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i was empty
broken and lonely
till you came
and picked up the pieces
i wasn't sure how
but i could tell
that you were
the only one for me
maybe i don't
think i'm ready
but then again
am i ever
i just know that
just this one time
it will all
work out in the end