T.J. was only 14 mos old when you passed on.
As a child growing up he had no real memory of you.
Yet I Did.
So as the years passed by, he came to know you in the stories I told.
I taught him and took him to do all the things a Dad would have done,
Like hunting, fishing, camping, boy scouts & 4H,,ect
He was, so good with machinery and all.
When you passed away, You came to me in my dream.
You told me to Cherish my time with T.J.
You said, " because all to soon he'll go to Heaven."
As the years passed, the dream became a faded memorie.
I watched him grow, and delighted in the zest he had for life,
As if he knew , he had to do it all in a short amount of time.
Oh the antic's he could pull, he always amazed me, and kept me laughing.
Then one night as I lay sleeping,
A vision "so real" came to me,
I awoke crying so hard was I, that my pillow was wet with tears.
I was shaken to the very core of my Soul, by what I saw.
I jumped from my bed and ran down the hall, to see if the vision was true.
To my relief, There he lay all safe and snug in his bed,
Sleeping like an Angel.
So for as long as he would let me I smothered him,
Untill one day he ask me why?
He said " I don't understand Mom why you have changed?"
And I sat him down and told him of our talk in my dream so long ago.
Then of the vision I had just months ago.
His response was,
" Oh Mom they where just bad dreams," as he smiled, he melted my heart.
" Don't you know Mom I will never leave you."
So once again as time slipped by, I put the dream and vision aside.
2 years later.
My grandson's and I, were baking cookies,
We had just slid a special "pizza size" cho-chip cookie in the oven for T.J.
When the phone rang, they said,
"Come quick T.J.'s been in a terrible car wreck."
And I Knew.
The talk we had in my dream, and the vision I had,
Came flooding in on me.
I prayed and prayed all the way there.
Yet I Knew.
As we left the crash site,
Out of a clear blue sky with dancing white fluffy clouds,
Came the most Beautiful Rainbow, to bridge the gap between us.
and 2 Lightning Bolts, to let me know,
My Son was safe in Heaven.
So every time lightning strikes, or a rainbow appears,
I Know !
When in the early mornings or evenings I hear the songs of the owls,
I Know !
I see in the clouds the shape of His face, and
I Know !
I hear his voice in the night, and
I Know !
I hear his laughter ring out, and
I Know !
That the promise T.J. made to never leave me,
Has been kept.
