And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
I gave you my soul I gave you control of me
Now I just can't believe in myself or anything
And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
Can't you just believe "you are my everything"
And this is what you take from me
And this is what you take from me
(Repeat to the point of stupidity....)
I don't want to believe in you
I can't believe in you
I don't want to believe in you
I can't believe in you
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, but I can't stop myself
Now endless questions fill my head
Some nights I'm frightened by the answers
No you can't hurt me, nothing's real
No pain you cause can last forever
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, but I can't stop myself
One night I swore I'd die for you
There's nothing else I'd rather die for
But I'll try to live another night
There's too much hate to be forgotten
I don't want to believe in you
I can't believe in you
I don't want to believe in you
I can't believe in you
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, I don't need it
I don't want it, but I can't stop myself
A solitary cry echoes through my throad and through my mind
I think of you
I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming
I think I woke up screaming again
For hours I'll just stare at my ceiling at nothing at all
And think of you
The candlelight through bells makes shadows just like roses in my mind
And I think of you
I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming
I think I woke up screaming again
Could this last forever?
Or will I die?
Could this last forever?
Or will I die?
Just can I die?
Maybe I could try to take a bath and drink a little wine
And think of you
But probably I'll lie naked on the floor by candlelight
And I'll think of you
I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming
I had a dream that you still loved me
I think I woke up screaming
I think I woke up screaming again
I think I woke up (repeat)
Screaming again
You are haunting my reality
Your lies are the only truth that I
Believe
You are haunting my reality
Now everytime I think about you I die
Hatred runs through me marrow deep
I long to tear your eyes out in your
Sleep
This pasion can lead to evil crimes
Do I kill you or do I choose to die?
Acid burn etched through my brain
Someone dies before I go insane
I was searching for some answer in your
Eyes
I find malicious laughter and a love
That has died
You are haunting my reality
Your lies are the only truth that I
Believe
You are haunting my reality
Now everytime I think about you I die
Lies
Soon now you'll be gone - I wish to God
I could have known
I love you I hate you every nigh, this
Longing for your soul has got me scared
But now we lay naked on the floor, I'm
Lost, I'm drowning in your soul
I was searching for some answer in your
Eyes
I find malicious laughter, hate and
Lies fucking lies
You are haunting my reality
Your lies are the only truth that I
Believe
You are haunting my reality
Now everytime I think about you I die
(repeat)
Lies
You are clutched tight in my fingers
You caress my skin so light
You are welling up inside me
You have finally freed yourself
You are flowing 'cross my pale skin
You are salty as I taste you
I have finally made you warm
I have finally made you warm
You stare at me so silent, you stare at me so cold
I think you stare right through me, that stare has
Made me old
I've found a way to feel you, I feel so fucking old
You're burning up inside me, I feel so fucking cold
You are clutched tight in my fingers
You caress my skin so light
You are welling up inside me
You have finally freed yourself
You are flowing 'cross my pale skin
You are running down my arm
You are salty as I taste you
I have finally made you warm
Take this...as an offering
Take this...as a sign
Take this...as an offering
How much can you take from?
How much can you take from me?
I sink into this darkness, I sink into this cold
This emptiness is calling, I've nothing left to lose
I've found a way to kill you, I feel so fucking cold
You're burning up inside me, I feel so fucking old
You are clutched tight in my fingers
You caress my skin so light
You are welling up inside me
You have finally freed yourself tonight
You are flowing 'cross my pale skin
You are running down my arm
You are salty as I taste you
I have finally made you warm
Take this...as an offering
Take this...as a sign
Take this...as an offering
How much can you take from?
How much can you take from?
Take this...as an offering
Take this...as a sign
Take this...as an offering
How much can you take from?
How much can you take from me?
This is what it looks like
This is what it feels like
This is what it tastes like
This is what you've done to me
This is what it looks like
This is what it feels like
This is what it tastes like when
You throw this all away (Silent)
You throw this all away (Laughing)
You throw this all away
You throw this all away
The lake is rough as I sit quietly
Remembering how our life used to be
An angry vacant silence fills my head
Now all the empty promises are dead
This is what it looks like
This is what it feels like
This is what it tastes like
This is what you've done to me
This is what it looks like
this is what it feels like
This is what it tastes like when
You throw this all away (Silent)
You throw this all away (Laughing)
You throw this all away
You throw this all away
The night is old, the sky a shade of grey
The tears roll off my face die in the rain
An angry vacant silence fills my head
Now all the empty promises are dead
This is what it looks like
This is what it feels like
This is what it tastes like
This is what you've done to me
This is what it looks like
This is what it feels like
This is what it tastes like when
You throw this all away (Silent)
You throw this all away (Laughing)
You throw this all away
You throw this all away
You throw this all away (Silent)
You throw this all away (Laughing)
You throw this all away
You throw this all away
You throw this all away
Violent mood swings
Your voice whispers nearly all the time now
Reminding me just how worthless I am
Sometimes I just hear you laugh forever
I want you the fuck out of my head
Violent mood swings
(I come down)
Now this is real
I can't go back, caught up with everything here tonight
Going to fuck myself up
Going to throw myself away
Going to give this to you
Give you what I've become
First red on white then red on red
I left my sould back in my bed
This is the best thing I can do
Why is it me instead of you
(I come down)
It just can't happen here (repeat)
You crawled inside my mind when you
Crawled into my bed
Said everything I've ever longed to hear
So perfect so alive, once inside you
Sucked me dry
Used me up and left me here for dead
I crabe it desprately, a cancer eating me
And addiction too intense to be denied
Worthless little whore, crawling back for more
Pathetic how I feed of this abuse
You told me that you loved me
I believed you loved me
You swore that you loved me
And I believed, now I know it was a lie
(Chorus)
I don't believe
I don't believe
That I could be so stupid and so naive
I don't believe
I don't believe
That there is nothing, nothing
Left for me
(Chorus)
I don't know if I'm real without you
What is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?
Tell me
What do I have to do
To make you happy?
What do I have to do
To make you understand?
What do I have to do
To make you want me?
And if I can't make you want me
What do I have to do?
I know exactly what you're thinking
But I swear this time I will not let you down
I'm not as selfish as I used to be
That was a part of me that never made me proud
Right now I think I would try anything
Anything at all to keep you satisfied
God I hope you see what losing you would do to me
All I want is one more chance so tell me...
What do I have to do to make you love me?
It seems so bizarre
But none of this matters
Thoughts disappear, hope has died
Now I am safe, nothing can hurt me here
Why can't you see my need for forgiveness?
The truth and the lies confused as one
I can't believe in anything sacred
When I don't believe in anything
I am alone
Locked in my memories
There's nowhere left for me to hide
Bt I am not real
I've made all I am with lies
Why does it seem that
Everything's different?
Why does it seem that only you
Are real?
I don't believe in anything sacred
So why do I feel so damned alone?
(Chorus)
I need someone to break the silence
That's creaming in my head
And in my soul
We are flesh
We are one
So why do I feel so much guilt
For what I've done?
As your blood burns through my skin
I feel release
I breathe you in
It's where you end and I begin
If only I could stay here...forever
So much to tell you
So much to give you
So much to confide
Now that I'm inside you
You wither
You blister
I watch you burn and peel
It's not like you
Can save me
It's not like you even care
I'm finding it so hard to hold on
(Chorus)
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my everything
Comes crashing down on me
This is where it falls apart
This is where it falls apart
I feel helpless as my fucking world
Comes crashing down
Crashing down on me
What have I become?
Everything's undone
A candle burns here in your honor
My sould a shrine I've built for you
I've got nothing left inside me
There's nothing left inside but you
Can't seem to pretend
This night has to end
I can't fill this hole
You are all I know
(Chorus)
It's so wrong that I need you
It's so wrong that I need abuse
I'ts so wrong that I need you
So wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone
I'm feeling the hate of the world and
It's crushing me
I'm feeling the hate of everyday life and it's
Crushing me
I swallow the hate, betrayal and lies
Swallow it whole and shove it deep down inside of me
I'm feeling the weight of the world and it's crushing me
How much more will it take?
How much more until it breaks me?
This world is crushing me
When he calls her daddy's little girl, she doesn't hear him
And when he crushes her she can't feel her screams are silent
Hides in the corner of her mind where she plays contently
She leaves this nightmare far behind, escapes inside her dreams
Floating high above her bed
Staring at her father's head
Wishing one of them were dead
So this hell could finally end